JETPLANE

i want love but don’t know how to receive it

wish my brain worked better but it doesn’t

tired of running in circles in my head

i don’t know how to be vulnerable with anyone anymore and it feels like i’ve lost my sense of self

sometimes i think i remember my childhood differently - that there were more good times than bad

in reality i was just learning how to grow up, coping with being alone in my world and forced to watch the worst relationship between my mom and dad

i wonder sometimes if the voice in my head is my sister’s from growing up thinking that she hated me

or if this sense of never ending loneliness comes from not having a real relationship with my dad

art, hangs, & holding thangs