I got soul but I'm not a soldier.

2:37pm Get out of my head. I'm sick of thinking about you. I never want to see you again. I never want to see you again. I never want to see you again. 

12:19am 1. Five days. I leave in five days.  2. Holy shit, I'm excited. 3. Holy shit, I'm terrified. 4. I miss my house and I miss Boulder. 5. I think I've finally realized that I'm never going to be content with my body or my weight. Ever. I could gain a hundred pound or lose a hundred pounds and I will never be satisfied.  6. Speaking of weight, I'm going to gain a hundred pounds next semester. Actually. 7. Thinking about the future scares me. Psh, what's new there? 8. I really love my new haircut, hehe. 9. Transferring my entire music library into Spotify has made me very nostalgic. 10. All I want is for you to make me feel like I'm remotely worth something to you. I don't feel like I'm worth the same to you as you are to me. I haven't felt that in a long time. I want to be more than a title and I just wish you would appreciate me. I hate feeling like you could be fine without me while I'm such a mess when I don't have you to keep me sane. And you're not there to keep me sane like you used to be. 

2:17am: I don't ever plan on seeing you again.