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ANOTHER reason why im not really active on here again yet - which i only really put together in the last couple hours myself - is still that incident a couple months back where i had my trust and privacy violated by someone on a dating app - i was so fucking clear abt keeping the "people who know my govt name and see my face" and "people who know my username and see my tits" audiences are generally kept separate and he seemed to respect that...up until he didn't. while ive mostly moved past that in terms of, like, no longer blaming myself so much and no longer feeling nauseous all the time bc of it, and i changed my url back to normal here, i do think that's a really significant subconscious factor in why the mood and motivation to return and play around in this space just isn't returning