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Hi, this isn't my first GoFundMe, but my previous one is very outdated when it comes to the situation we are in, so I figured it might be best to start over with a new one.

So, things in my life are not going well, like at all. My dad passed away a little under two years ago now; it'll be two years in March, and he pretty much screwed me and my sister over on a number of things. For one, he never put either of our names on the deeds for the apartments we live in, so we've been having to deal with probate for like a year now so that we can hopefully sell them both and move in together. And the money he left us was quickly swallowed up by a large amount of debt he owed that we never knew about, so now both of our bank accounts are completely empty, and the only money we have coming in each month is my $1,390 social security check. Which is not enough to get by on with two apartments... Neither of us, or my fiancé, have jobs sadly, despite sending applications in everywhere...

Despite that though, my fiancé was helping us the past few months thanks to her father, once our bank accounts hit zero, but now after only three months, her father is refusing to help out any longer and has effectively cut her off...

And none of this is doing my mental state any good. Despite the smile on my face in the picture on this GoFundMe, I am not a happy person, like at all... I have crippling anxiety and depression, and now I can't even afford to pay for therapy because of all the bills slowly killing us.... I honestly just can't handle all of this anymore, it is so fucking hard and every time something new and shitty comes along, which is fairly often, I just get more and more depressed and just want to sleep for days straight...

So I've pretty much given up, and I mean that, I literally just have no hope for things getting better, or anything good happening anymore.

For awhile there I was feeling more positive, back when I believed my sister had gotten us 150k in total for both of our apartments. I was feeling pretty good about that and felt like, I felt like we'd actually be able to get something good to live in together...

Then it turns out we'll be lucky to get even 70k for both places, which is nothing, and while our lawyer is trying to get us out of that contract, they already told us that they don't know if they'll be able to.

And then there's the slip and fall lawsuit my sister has, which we hope she'll win a lot of money in considering the circumstances of what happened, her injuries, and where it happened.

But everything is just moving at such a crawl, and whenever we get any news, which isn't that often, it's rarely good. And it's just had me losing hope for the longest time now.

I try to keep my mood up by distracting myself with tv and video games all day, every day, but even that doesn't always help, and now my video game console is starting to fail and there is no chance in hell I can afford a new one. Everytime it crashes and struggles to turn back on I think, welp, that's it then... Thankfully so far it's turned back on eventually everytime, but it's only a matter of time till it doesn't..

And when I don't have that to distract myself all day, I don't know what I'll do to stop myself from focusing on all the negative things swirling around in my head just beneath the surface all the time...

Kaitlyn is in the process of applying for jobs, right now she's home most of the day, and having her here with me, it keeps me sane, but once she gets a job and is gone most of the day, even if I still have games things will still be so much harder.

And I have no one to talk to about all of this, about how hard it is to just get through the day, I try with Kaitlyn but she never really knows what to say, and my Mom, who suffers from depression as well, it used to really help me to talk about these things with her, but now she's flat out told me she no longer wants me to talk with her about any of it because her own depression can't handle it anymore...

I used to get free therapy from the local lgbtq center near me, but thanks to fucking trump and desantis their funding for that was cut so I no longer have access to that. I can't possibly afford to pay for a therapist, and the woman I used to speak with from the lgbtq center who left and said when she did that when she opened her own private practice she'd see me pro bono, well I assumed that it would be like a year or so before that happened. That's how she made it sound... Then I learn a while back when I texted her to see if it was close, as it had been a year, she told me it would be another 5 plus years.. So there goes that...

Just say "elemental construct" or something.

I'm not saying nobody who isn't Jewish can write a golem story, there are some that have been very well done... Terry Pratchett springs to mind.

However demanding that you be able to do so without comment or judgement from the community that you are taking from is too much.

I think that a Golem story must be representative of the Jewish people/contain Jews and Golems in general should be guardians of the community that created them and not monsters... But I'm not going to be breaking your door down because your story glued a bunch of corpse parts together and called it a "flesh golem". I will say you're tactless and that characterisation of a beloved part of Jewish culture is in poor taste.

"cultural appropriation" as a term is about how poorly you researched your source material and how tactless you were in your portrayal of that culture. Not that you can never take inspiration from other cultures.

Surely you want to be well researched and tactful in your writing? Or are you just a shock jock?

When you can just call your rock giant a Rock Giant instead of a "Golem", why would you call it a Golem when the former is more descriptive? Are you a person with imagination or not?

Why does being asked to not use this name inaccurately stir such anger in some people?

So I'm not done with this asshole, but I'm making this a separate post to avoid clogging OP's notes even more

@brazenautomaton, noted racist tantrum thrower, is here making a false equivalence between the concept of cultural appropriation and blood and soil nationalism

The insistence on making this conversation about "intellectual property" is almost amusing in how wilfully obtuse it is. That's another false equivalence happening here - this one between cultural appropriation and copyright infringement. Do we think there might be any differences between golems and Mickey Fucking Mouse.

This jackass was all about equating land with culture until someone brought up a better version of that comparison and now there's suddenly a difference that means you can't compare them... until we come back to the original flawed + offensive comparison to Nazi ideology

If your coworker puts their lunch in the fridge with a note on it saying that it's their lunch so please don't eat it if you're not them, they are not:

Saying you can't eat anything that has similar ingredients to their lunch

Saying you should only eat food you've made yourself

Saying you shouldn't eat at all

Or otherwise trying to control your diet beyond asking you not to eat this specific thing