I used to do drugs trying to find something new and wonderful… it really feels like i just want to escape the sadness of my life now.

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When i get sad i feel like turning to drugs more to help not feel so bad

I just want to be loved by the people i love

Life feels hard all the time, I just miss her so much. I didn’t hold her long enough. I didn’t hold her close enough. I will never get to again.

Thinking about a future without her makes me cry every time.

I love her so much that I don’t know what to do.

sometimes

Your actions make me feel like you hate me

I wonder how often you reflect

I wonder how often you think about the future

Or does the intensity of right now always win out

If i forgave you for how you’ve hurt me would it matter?

Would you do it again?

If you just don’t care, should I forgive you?

What is love if not caring when the other is hurt?

Is love distant? Is love gone? Is love forgotten?

Maybe love is distracted