Captain of my Heart

it’s so you won’t get hurt by yet another goodbye…

Janeway, hours later, when he disobeyed and yelled at her:

See, in 4x15, Janeway discovers that her fiancé has moved on and married someone else. And, at the end of the episode, she and Chakotay have this exchange:

This is them talking about their relationship without actually talking about it. Like, who could she have possibly been talking about when she said she was avoiding becoming involved with someone else? Sure, she says that she wouldn't have had a chance to become involved with someone else, but why would she need a safety net if there wasn't someone to try to avoid being with? And saying that she hasn't had the chance to pursue a relationship is her acknowledging that she and Chakotay can't be together because of the risks it poses to their ability to work together in a professional fashion, and for her, I think, the fact that she IS the Captain makes her feel like she simply can't be in a relationship with a member of the crew, even if it is the person just below her when it comes to who has power in the ship.

Still, Chakotay harkens back to the s3 finale, in which he told Janeway that she isn't alone, and she says that she can't imagine a day without him. I also think her agreeing with him, in a very serious fashion, that there's plenty of time for her to pursue a relationship, is her saying that, perhaps one day, they could be together. Especially since they made contact with Starfleet, who said that they would do everything they could to bring Voyager home. In that moment, both of them felt like they might actually have time to be together, rather than staying on Voyager until they died.

And this is the last shot of the final scene(obviously I don't count the fact that the show always ends with a shot of the ship):

Their arms are linked, and they're both laughing. Despite the fact that Janeway is sad that her relationship with Mark is over, the chance of her having a relationship with Chakotay one day seems more real than it ever has.

Yesterday was one of the best days of my life. Words can’t describe how happy and lucky I am but I’ll give it a try.

First of all, Kathryn invited me to Venice. We hadn’t run this great holoprogram for years but I always remember our moments there with love. She was beautiful - she was more than that.  Breathtaking is a better word. We talked for hours and had our feelings acknowledged. She loves me, so I could die a happy man. We solved everything and discussed the love confession I made a few weeks ago. I admitted that It was a bit abrupt but also the catalyst for the beginning of a romantic relationship between us. The ship crisis tore us apart but we didn’t handle things well at the time. I guess we were a bit…overexcited.

So, we decided to enter in a committed relationship. Of course, I couldn’t be any happier. My feelings for her are very deep. I admire and respect her as a leader, I care about her as a friend but also I’ve loved her for years. She makes me feel peaceful and content, happy and safe, courageous and fearful at the same time. She allows me to see her weaknesses and insecurities, even her fears and I feel honored. She always listens to my own fears and knows how to make them disappear.I can’t imagine a day without her in my life.

This is my chance! I won’t disappoint you, Kathryn - I promise. I’ll be by your side as long as you want and I’ll follow you everywhere - no matter what. You know that, right? I know our responsibility toward our crew. We’ll make it, we’ll lead them back to the Alpha Quadrant. I hope you know that too.

And… if you ever decide that you want another story to take your pain away, let me know. I’ll be here.

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