I AM CZARINA.

Before when I was working at Disney as a regular cast member, my goals were to become a Lead, Guest Relations CM, Ambassador of Disney, or move into their corporate offices. I was so happy, so excited and so hungry for a bright future. 

After my promotion to a Lead, all I want to do is leave. My new goal is to get out of this costume and get my life back. I don’t have any other priorities other than leaving, all I do is work, I have no time for myself, school or any of my friends. I’m constantly sick and without a doubt tired. No matter how much I tell my managers I need a break, they turn their back and schedule me against my preferences. On top of that, the lead team calls out and since i’m working there 5 days a week, me and few others hit the brunt of it and work twice as hard. 

It’s almost impressive how easily i can cry nowadays. It’s my last semester with an internship, and practically working full time. I have 19 hour days, 5 days a week. Every day I get up at 7am after coming home at 4am the night before. I don’t know if it’s my pride or me being scared of being out of job, but if I don’t leave soon, i’m going to spontaneously combust. Into flames.