get neared

last post before i crash does anyone remember that one manga panel that canonizes watari having a family who doesn’t know about the L stuff or did i wholesale make that up

i feel like sometimes people forget that the reason Mello hates Near is because he believes Near is better than him. not because he thinks Near is just broadly annoying as a person. not because he thinks Near is somehow beneath him. not because Near is a hermit, or because he’s impassive, or because of his hobbies. some of those things may play a role in his frustration, but the primary reason for his hatred is the fact that Near has always beaten him in the one area of his life that matters. it’s got nothing to do with who Near is as a person, and everything to do with the system that pitted him against Near and forced them to be enemies. he is insulted by the offer to share L’s role with Near, because it reinforces his internalised belief that he is inferior and thus incapable of succeeding on his own. this is what he subsequently sets out to disprove. Near supposedly thinking of him as a tool doesn't annoy Mello because he wishes Near weren't so cold and rude; it annoys Mello because he has been working his ass off for the past five years to prove to Near that he is worthy and equal, and he does not feel like he is being recognised as such. he does NOT think of Near as pathetic and incompetent. he thinks of him as TOO competent in ways that Mello wishes he was.

Light cracking up shining a laser pointer on the wall while he studies and Ryuk like O_O chasing it around frantically