we dig our own graves

by root06 (Tooru) in the doujinshi Authentica

This is actually the second half of the doujinshi, so it pairs with the first thematically, but it can be read on its own.

(warning for animal death)

written for @remisaweek day 4!

Misa deftly ties off a stitched smile on the minature monster and holds up her creation to Rem. "Now I have a little you!"

Rem prods a frill on the soft body. "But in reality I do not wear such a dress…"

written for @remisaweek day 5!

Humans don't always say what they mean, and Misa hardly ever does. It's not lying, Rem thinks—Misa speaks with the conviction of someone who believes her own performance down to the marrow. A real fake.

written for @remisaweek day 7!

When Lawliet speaks the words that spell execution for Kira, Rem realises it. That the lifespan Misa traded in is only borrowed.

She slips away, into the shadowy hallways. Death should be a lonely affair.

Ink seeps into paper. A smile.

"Your gift returned, my dear Misa."

Light *sipping coffee after accidentally adding salt*: I just like the way it tastes.

Matsuda after asking Soichiro if he shouldn't have said 'crimes have been decreasing' in front of the Kira task force and Soichiro replying it's no issue as uncomfortable facts need to be laid even more on the table.

Soichiro continues saying "Of course, it would have been a problem if you'd said 'Crimes have been decreasing thanks to Kira, so let's honor him for that'"

Matsuda: "I...would never say that, sir. Honor that psychopath...?"

And the panel that follows immediately is the aforementioned Kira doing his beloved sister's homework for her, spoiling her rotten coz he dotes on her and Sayu adores him and loves to spend time with him with the homework excuse.

I think it's a combination of sad and funny (in a dark way) I feel when I noticed this panel sequence. Kira who has killed so many criminals, identity being that of Light who has such a soft spot for his sister.

Of course, Light's actions as Kira are horrific as hell and I firmly believe they cannot and should not be justified...

He's still a kid though. A kid who had great expectations placed on him and he met each and every one of them with practiced ease. But his relationship with Sayu makes me ache, it's SO obvious he genuinely cares about her, even with him losing sleep due to his actions weighing on his conscience, having to play the part of a devoted top student, his entrance exams being not that far away- he still makes time for Sayu.

I don't think it's entirely due to him having a part of the perfect brother to play, but that he genuinely enjoys her company. He preens at her praise (she's one of the few people whose praise actually means something to him, otherwise he's just so used to being the best that he doesn't think much of it- his baby sister though? Now that's a different story), is comfortable enough to brag in front of her etc.

Sayu being too good for this rotten world is a thought I can easily imagine him having. Hearing her hatred for Kira breaks his heart...since he sort of agrees with her. He's not the ideal brother anymore, he still cares about her, still risked his plan to save her after she got kidnapped but he knows deep in his heart that if Sayu knew his identity as Kira she won't see him the same way ever again.

He knows his actions as Kira are evil. But Light so desperately wants to be a righteous person that he ironically becomes what he hates gradually.

Light being a multi-faceted character is so important to me. Him caring about his family doesn't make his actions as Kira any more justified, it does make me sad though.

[LIGHT, SPOKEN]:

“The human whose name is written is this notebook shall die.”

“If the cause of death is not specified the person will die of a heart attack in 40 seconds.”

[LIGHT, SUNG]:

Could it be true what this book says?

You write a name, that person’s dead

Is it insane for me to think

That just with ink you cause their end

But what would happen if it’s true?

Imagine all that I could do

It seemed to fall out of the sky in hope that I could use it too

[NEWSCASTER, SPOKEN]:

We interrupt this broadcast to being you live coverage of a hostage situation in a Shinjuku nursery school—

[LIGHT]:

What’s this I hold in my hand now?

[NEWSCASTER, SPOKEN]:

—The gunman, now identified as Kuru Otaharada—

[LIGHT]:

If what were written were true..

[NEWSCASTER, SPOKEN]:

—Otoharada has eight hostages, seven of which are children under five years old.

[LIGHT]:

Could it be part of a plan to understand

What I’m meant to do?

[NEWSCASTER, SPOKEN]:

Otoharada has threatened to kill the children if police enter.

[LIGHT]:

Look at the state of the world now

All this corruption and crime

What if the answers unfurled within these words i’m destined to find!

If this pen in my hand seals his fate on paper

It lay into waste with a simple word

If it killed with a name it could end this stranger

If this book holds the power, maybe it could change the world!

So much potential at hand now

If this book had what it takes

Think of the crime I erase, the justice at stake, the lives I could save!

If this pen in my hand seals their fate on paper

And the justice demanding that it deserves

If I killed with a name and they meet their maker

If this book holds the power, maybe it could change the world!

[LIGHT, SPOKEN]:

Kuru Otaharada..

[ENSEMBLE]:

Fourty.

Thirty-nine.

Thirty eight.

Thirty-seven.

[LIGHT / ENSEMBLE]:

Something in these pages call to me (Thirty-six.)

A system tainted by its fault

But if this Death Note is my destiny

I could redefine the law! 

(Four. Three. Two.)

[LIGHT / SPOKEN]:

What was I thinking?

[NEWSCASTER #1, SPOKEN]:

We have breaking news! What’s happening there at the school?

[NEWSCASTER #2, SPOKEN]:

Police report that Kuru Otoharada is dead with no shots fired. All eight hostages are safe and secured. The cause of Otoharada’s death has not yet been specified.

[LIGHT]:

Did this pen in my hand seal his fate on paper?

Did I serve him his justice before the crime?

If I killed with a name, is there something greater

Than holding endless power

I’ll know if let

This pen in my hand seals their fate on paper

And I give them a taste of what they deserve!

If I kill with a name I could be their savior

Is this my finest hour

Or it just absurd?

If this book holds the power

I can change the world!

Change the world

Change the world!