I love Near

My intention when creating a story in relation to the original work is to create a coherent and realistic version of the original, erasing the fallacies but not ignoring the primary data.

I have gone far enough in my imagination that I cannot erase my mistakes and look at them (Mello and Near) differently. They are already very complex and well-written (as I will allow myself to say, because I put an enormous amount of thought into them), but it still doesn't change the fact that I just adjust them to my needs, trying to create something big while actually just satisfying myself instead of describing a 'life form' I wanted to portray.. People are correct to imagine Near as autistic and Mello as a narcissist (though they all fail at that, because he fits the "husbando" type better), and then they ship them with people they realistically would never even look at. Some people headcanon Near as having chronic pain, based on how he stands and walks. It is actually such a good idea because autism and chronic pain are linked. As is chronic pain and dissociation (I have talked with real people who have DID/OSDD, and it is very, very present). But no, what I did is fetishize my characters, both of them. I made them likable, attractive, intelligent, and even when suffering, easy on eyes.

These guys keep appearing in my head while I am trying to sleep and I have to get up and draw so I can properly rest, damn...

Well, headcanon time!!! I kinda enjoy that "religious Mello" theory.

Listen, what if: Mello is religious, though not in the sense of believing that "God created the universe"; rather, for him, it is something more personal—something that guides his morality and also soothes his fear of death and of existence itself lacking a purpose.

So, upon joining the mafia and starting to do things that are clearly questionable, he clings to his beliefs, convincing himself somehow that it will all be worth it in the end—even though he knows full well that his ultimate goal is quite selfish...

Thank you :>

I love drawing his messy hair

Mello and Near being Sillies ♥︎

Near doddle!