lasya

🎊Confetti 🎊

I see,

You are feeling lonely

Coz' someone whom you loved most left your life messy,

But you can still be happy,

Just fill your heart with confetti

I see it

You're crying,

But burn your past, it's the only way to be happy

Enjoy your life and live

Just sprinkle some confetti on it.

I see,

Someone left your world blank

But you can colour it

Kick aside your worry

Just fill the space with confetti

Why you hate confetti?

I know ,

Coz' whom you trusted most showed you fake confetti,

But you can make it real

Just enjoy your life and live it

You'll see the sky is honouring you with confetti.

Oh these empty emotions,

they're in the air just like love is;

they tie make-believe connections,

just like mine and his.

My feelings for him were true,

his were just for show;

later I finally saw through him,

and then I learnt how to lay low.

His shoulder has gotten cold to me,

all I can ever wish is for him and I to have never met.

He'd cheated on her, previously with her, on me,

isn't he so intimidatingly hard to forget?

Why's he the one that always tries;

try to make me want him with me, together?

The thought of it makes me sick, leading to my cries;

he begs to get me back again, to an unrealistic forever.

This stabbing regret cannot be taken by me anymore,

Did I got too harsh on him, or was I not harsh enough?

Hatred showers upon him, rooting from my soul's core,

Someday, he'll be in pain, left alone in the rough.

Please, don't shut the door.

I still remember the first time I saw you.

You were so lovely,

So soft, so caring.

I loved the way you smiled

I loved the way you talked

I almost fell in love with you.

But I was too young.

Too young to know that first impressions aren't the last ones.

And the people who look the best often turn out to be the worst ones.

I trusted you.

I trusted you with my secrets, my stories and myself.

But what did you do?

You did worse than the worst I could ever imagine.

Now,

I hate the way you smile

I hate the way you talk

I hate the way you move those ghostly fingers of yours

And when your fingers reach the parts that even I haven't explored,

I quiver and tears roll down my cheeks.

And then your tongue escapes that cruel mouth of yours and moves along my body,

I scream and dig my nails into my palm.

Oh lord, what have I done to deserve this?

What was my mistake?

But whatever I did to deserve this, I’ll avenge myself another way.

You’re the cruelest demon, with the sparkliest smile,

The smoothest voice,

But the darkest mind.

Nobody would believe me if I say that you are not the way you look.

Nobody will trust me if I say looks are deceiving.

How would have I known, that you are not the way you are

How would have I known, that looks are deceiving.

Afterall, I was too young.

Too caring,

Too loving,

Too starstruck by your cover,

I thought reality was blissful,

But now, you’ve showed me how crooked it actually is.

I can deal with my hatred of your voice,

I can deal with my hatred of your smile,

But please,

Please, don’t shut the door!