idk a thing my dude

“okay,    good.   i honestly don’t know how long i could’ve kept up being like   …    soft.”   lucy shudders,    laughs and then hops onto the bed beside lukas,   grinning wide at the basket full of goodies on his lap.   “i mean,   if you insist   …   i gotta warn you though,    i might be kinda little but i can eat.”

“Oh, I definitely believe that. Athletes have to eat a lot, yeah? High metabolism from all the . . . physical activity,” Lukas said with a slight nod, pick up one of the cakes and holding it up to her lips with a faint grin.

“you’ll always be important to me, so you’ll always be important to someone. if they’d let me, i could spend the night if you didn’t want to be alone”

“You should spend the night anyway,” Lukas said with a small smile, lacing their fingers together. “Be a rebel, Rosie. Come on. Break the rules a little.”

“yeah,     sure.     why not    ??”    lucy reaches out,    taking the joint in her hands before she takes a slow hit,     exhaling smoothly and handing it back to him.    she’s less unsure about herself now while smoking,    all thanks to him,   really.    “hey,    i’m     …    sorry this happened to you,    yeah    ??     i’m not really good at the whole be soft and comfort thing, but   …    i know that it sucks.    or rather,    i’ve heard.    and i’m here for you,   okay   ??    we may not be like,    best friends or whatever but there aren’t a lot of people who like me,      so,    i wanna keep you around.”

“Aw,” Lukas grinned, noticing how much smoother she’d taking that drag before she handed his joint back to him. “You don’t have to be soft and comforting if that’s not your style. I mean, I like the little firecracker you usually are. She makes me laugh.” He takes a long hit off the joint, exhaling the smoke into the air above their heads before lowing his gaze to look at her again. “I like you too. I’d love to be kept around you.” He paused for a moment before moving over on the bed, giving some room beside him. “So, are you going to make me eat these all by myself? Or would you like to join me?” He patted the spot next to him on the bed.

“I could have lost you. I don’t want to ever lose you” she placed her hand on his arm, giving it a light squeeze. “You are important, Lukas” she moved her hand to take his. “So if my mind is going to focus on you it won’t be a waste of brain space”

Lukas looked down at their hands, lacing his fingers through hers and giving her hand a gentle squeeze. “It’s nice to be important to someone,” he said with a faint smile, it quickly fading, as he looked away in order to take another drag off his joint without blowing smoke in her face.

“yeah.   don’t get  me wrong,   it’s still awful,     but we’re lucky that it was only a few people.”    lucy says with a decisive nod,   noticing that he’s chosen to ignore her question.   “maybe.   has this been helping you    ??   you know      …    with everything    ??    i don’t know a lot about dementors but i know it’s not easy afterwards to feel normal again.”

“It . . . helps take the edge off,” Lukas said with a slow nod. “Helps me stay relaxed, and . . . stuff.” He waved the joint absently before holding it out to her. “You seem pretty chill already but, you know. If you wanted to join me up in the clouds . . .” He smiled faintly.

With his bed next to Lukas’; Fabian sees the Hufflepuff struggle to light up his joint. He slowly observes him not making it too obvious since his neck is a bit stiffened up. As much as he doesn’t like the idea of smoking or such, he knew that Lukas was a bit shaken up. He attempts to grab one of the chocolate frogs that his siblings sent him along with some liquorice wands. As much as he couldn’t reach to him; he throws both of the boxed towards the table between them. “Here, take some. The sugar kinda puts you at ease.”

Lukas glanced over as he heard the box hit the table, reaching for it slowly to see what it was. He smiled faintly when he saw it was a chocolate frog. “Thanks,” he said softly, opening it and muttering a charm to keep it still, not really into eating a frog that actually moved around. He glance sidelong at Fabian, recognizing him as one of the kids from his house that had gotten caught up in the dementor encounter. “You okay?”

“don’t worry I trust you” she moved to lay down in the spot next to him. “i was really scared, y’know?” she settled a little, resting her head against his shoulder “when they said you were hurt. it was like all the breath had been knocked out of me”

“Aw, Rosie . . . you don’t have to be scared,” Lukas said, wrapping his arm around her. “I’m fine. It’s all good.” He rested his head against hers lightly. “You shouldn’t waste too much brain space for me. Your beautiful mind should be focused on more important things.”

lucy’s relieved when she sees him eat some      –     she’d been worried that maybe he wasn’t eating enough,    had thought of him and the others in the wing when cauldron cakes were served in the hall      –    and she’s relieved to see that he still has some form of an appetite.    “oh,    yeah    !!    i’m fine.   i wasn’t anywhere near anything when it happened.    i heard about it and people were going crazy in the school,    but luckily the professors got things under control.   i’m sure you heard only a few students were harmed.    but the better question is are you okay    ??    if you need anything,    i can get it for you.   just say the word.”

Lukas nodded slowly, smiling vaguely as she spoke. “Uh, yeah. It was just me and a few others, right?” He glanced around the hospital wing absently before looking back at her, much more interested in her in that moment. “You want a hit?” he asked, offering his joint toward her and not answering her question.

Rosie leaned in at the gesture, nodding her head “okay.” Inhale when he exhaled. She could do this. His lips were hovering over hers now and she waited on him, starting to inhale as he exhaled the smoke into her mouth. Pulling back she closed her mouth, coughing as it hit her, and not wanting to just cough in his face. 

Lukas smiled faintly as he leaned back, tapping her shoulder lightly. “Just try to relax,” he told her softly. He shifted in the bed, patting the spot next to him, inviting her to lay down next to him. “No funny business, I promise.” He held up his hands.

“you’re awake   !!”     lucy says,    perhaps a little too loudly because a nearby mediwitch shushes her immediately in response to the volume.    lucy pays her no mind,     though she does sound a little quieter when she speaks next.    “sorry,    maybe i shouldn’t be so loud.    um,    i heard you were in here and wasn’t sure what they were giving you,   so i thought maybe i’d bring you something good from dinner.”     she takes a basket from her lap and sets it onto the bed beside lukas with a little smile.    “it’s not much,   just some rolls and cauldron cakes but like,   i thought maybe it’d help   ??”

Lukas winced faintly at Lucy’s first shout, but he lowered his head to look at her, taking the joint from his lips to look at the basket that Lucy set beside him. “Food always helps,” he assured her. “Thank you.” He pulled the basket a little closer in order to pick up a roll, smelling it before taking a small bite. His stomach wasn’t great at the moment, but he knew the weed would help. He set the roll back into the basket, nodding absently. “How are you?” he asked, looking over at her. “Are you . . . okay?”

“Oh” she took the joint from him, “I’ve never really -” she looked down at it and the light stream of smoke that was coming off of it. “help?” she asked with a soft smile

Lukas opened his eyes again. “Oh. Yeah. Here,” he took the joint back from her, putting it to his lips and gesturing for her to lean in. “When I exhale, you inhale, okay?” he told her, before inhaling deeply off the joint. He pulled it from his lips, leaning forward and pulling her head close to his. He set his lips just above hers, centimeters away, before he exhaled into her mouth.

She closed her eyes as he stroked her cheek, unable to stop the tears any longer as a few started slowly down her cheeks. “I really do love you” she opened them leaning to kiss one cheek, then the other, and then his forehead “you are the most brilliantly beautiful soul in this entire world, Lukas Bell” she pulled back to look at him, running her fingers through his hair a little. 

“That’s you, but thanks,” Lukas said with a faint half-smile, leaning back against the headboard again and closing his eyes. The disappointment stung his chest faintly, but it was greatly dulled by the drugs in his system. He took another drag off his joint before offering it to her.

“Yeah” she nodded her head “I - I - “ she bit her lip, this was Lukas. How was it she was having trouble telling him? She told him pretty much everything, so why did she feel like her voice wasn’t working right anymore? “I’m gay” the words came out quietly and almost like they’d been choked out along with the tears in her eyes. She wanted to apologize then for this. For being this way and not being able to return his feelings. “I’m sorry”

Lukas reached up to stroke her cheek with his thumb lightly. “You don’t have to apologize for being, Rosie Posie,” he told her, nonchalant thanks to the drugs in his system. He wasn’t sure how he’d feel if he wasn’t high, but he was glad he wouldn’t have to find out. “It’s fine. I’m fine. You’re beautiful. It’s all good.”

It wasn’t something Rosie expected, but before she knew it he was kissing her. She was hesitant to pull back, only because of Lukas’ current state, but then again maybe it was because of this that she needed to pull back. She could feel the tears stinging at her eyes as she did, wishing in this moment that she could return the kiss to him. “Lukas…” she swallowed, blinking back the tears threatening to fall. 

Lukas pursed his lips as she pulled away. When she spoke his name, he leaned his head back against the headboard of the bed, closing his eyes again. “It’s fine,” he said distantly, realizing he should’ve expected it. He took another drag off his joint, keeping his eyes closed and trying not to think at all.

“better now that I know you’re okay” she placed her other hand over his, “I love you, you know?” she spoke softly “I was afraid I’d come in here and find you - “ she swallowed, not dead but worse. 

“I love you too,” Lukas murmured, before leaning forward to capture her lips with his, somehow thinking it was a good idea in the haze of his mind just then. He knew he wasn’t thinking straight, that he’d almost died and he was high, but with everything that happened, he didn’t want to sit on his feelings any longer.

“that doesn’t matter” she shook her head a little “are you okay?” she asked, knowing it was a stupid question, but one she asked anyways. “here” she said, still trying to calm her heart that was beating in overtime both from worry and from her run, taking the hand not holding the joint and placing it on the side of her face. “you need it more than I do” she said softly 

Lukas closed his eyes again as she placed his hand on the side of her face. He pulled her closer, setting his forehead lightly against hers. “It matters to me,” he said softly. “How are you?”