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For the last couple of months I have been missing somebody terribly, I can’t help it as they were so good to me throughout the  four years that we’ve been together. I know the last couple of weeks I was with them weren’t so good because I was scared and wanted to flee for my life, when my heart kept denying that feeling and wanted to stay with them. But I didn’t listen to my heart I listened to my fears instead and went back to my squire one.. The next thing I knew I felt like I lost my world and wanted to go back soon as I can and make up for everything I did, Suddenly I felt like somebody place a built through my heart loosing everything that I ever asked for and dreamed about, including loosing the one person I truly love.. Now no way of getting her back I am feel lost and willing to wait for my true love to return to me.. I wont care if it took until my next life.. I know where I belong and I will never give up that belief. I  know what I did was wrong and wasn’t right as She never deserved it.. And I do blame a person that helped places my fears in front of my love and my heart and I do blame them for making me loose the woman I would and still would give up my life for her, I wish I was able to change what I had done and wish I was able to win back the love I had, but I know it wont happen because of the person of the blame.. So all I can do is wish upon a star and dream and keep hold of my beliefs and show her Im always there for her when she needs me because I don’t give up that easily and don’t want to loose what feels real to me.