L.L.Thomas

This is my body.

I see shit wrong with my body.

I have fat on my body.

A word which so many people use to describe something bad that a human should not have. FAT. Yes I feel fat I have a stomach I may may have a fat face and I may have meat on my legs though I dont understand how suddenly that makes me less pretty just because what?? Some one may look at me and see I'm not dainty? Who fucking cares. Days ago I posted a photo on twitter and some older man called me FAT. I'm working hard on my body. I DONT love my body once when I was 8 I greeted my grandmother and she told me I would look so much prettier if I was skinny. SKINNY a word most people use to define being beautiful. I dont know what this is but I cant look at a person and automatically dislike them becuase of there size there is more to me than what I look like. Maybe one can be unhealthy becuase of their weight but that can go both ways and it's gotten to the point where im afraid of leaving my fucking house becuase I dont feel PRETTY OR GOOD ENOUGH trying to fit the standards of people who believe I need to look a certain way. That scares me. The first thing someone sees of you is the way you look and they make assumptions based on that alone. I'm tired of it I have so much to give. I've met people with so much to give. And their not given half the chance to show it and becuase of what? -M

https://www.instagram.com/p/BtWe28nFkytHa67eTLYmG6EBj9M-SGYC8wO72w0/?utm_source=ig_share_sheet&igshid=l5v7a7hit14w

This is my body.

I see shit wrong with my body.

I have fat on my body.

A word which so many people use to describe something bad that a human should not have. FAT. Yes I feel fat I have a stomach I may may have a fat face and I may have meat on my legs though I dont understand how suddenly that makes me less pretty just because what?? Some one may look at me and see I'm not dainty? Who fucking cares. Days ago I posted a photo on twitter and some older man called me FAT. I'm working hard on my body. I DONT love my body once when I was 8 I greeted my grandmother and she told me I would look so much prettier if I was skinny. SKINNY a word most people use to define being beautiful. I dont know what this is but I cant look at a person and automatically dislike them becuase of there size there is more to me than what I look like. Maybe one can be unhealthy becuase of their weight but that can go both ways and it's gotten to the point where im afraid of leaving my fucking house becuase I dont feel PRETTY OR GOOD ENOUGH trying to fit the standards of people who believe I need to look a certain way. That scares me. The first thing someone sees of you is the way you look and they make assumptions based on that alone. I'm tired of it I have so much to give. I've met people with so much to give. And their not given half the chance to show it and becuase of what? -M

https://www.instagram.com/p/BtWe28nFkytHa67eTLYmG6EBj9M-SGYC8wO72w0/?utm_source=ig_share_sheet&igshid=l5v7a7hit14w