Growing up is actually just enjoying the exact same things you enjoyed at 14 years old, but in a more gay way
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Growing up is actually just enjoying the exact same things you enjoyed at 14 years old, but in a more gay way

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Just watched twinless and I can’t stop thinking about it. I feel like everyone is talking ab the sex which, valid because I went into it blind and was not prepared at all. But!! Like first can we talk about how incredibly amazing the actors were. I mean it is Dylan O’Brian but god I forgot how stunning of an actor he is, it’s been so long. Literally the last time I watched him was as a teenager (will forever have a soft spot for Stiles and TW) And James Sweeney directing and acting and producing all at the same time??!? And then everything else oh my god!:!!:
It was just so mind blowing for me just to see the film spiral the way it did. One thing about me is I love a good queer codependency plot. Combine that with awkward gay, and morally ambiguous gay, lying, and mental breakdowns, I just felt so seen. I also love to also see the spectrums of gay. It’s so fun watching how each character behaves.
I adoreed Sweeney’s character, Dennis especially. He’s weird and there’s something seriously wrong with him and that’s what I love about him. Roman too, he’s a bit harder for me to understand personally but he’s so compelling. He’s blindly naive to Dennis’s purposeful deceit. I think the relationship between him and Roman is so complex and dynamic. They are both very messed up individuals. They cannot live without another person, each carrying that mindset in a different way.
Roman has no sense of identity outside his twin identity and Dennis has no sense of identity outside whatever he fixates on. It’s why they work so well and hit it off in the beginning. Dennis is able to give Roman that relationship he needs. Even after the truth comes out, we see Roman still craves that connection. I absolutely loved the ending because it’s very ambiguous and I feel open to interpretation.
I don’t think that Dennis can be truly happy with Marcie, I think she gives him a sense of satisfaction and security and I don’t doubt that they don’t love eachother, but Roman isn’t functional in a normal relationship. He intrinsically craves codependency. Dennis craves it as well, he doesn’t know who he is without it. In my head while, I can’t picture them to be romantic or even sexual but their relationship is still so intimate.
To have someone understand you and see you and know your ugly and your lies and still want to talk to you and to be with you always, but not like, “oh I want to be in a relationship with you”, but in the sense that I need you to come with me anywhere and everywhere I go because I don’t know how to be without you, in that sense.
They aren’t good for each other but why does that matter? I think that’s what the film was pointing to at the end. How they might not have been friends under different circumstances but the events that played out and their intrinsic nature connects them fully.
So while it’s not healthy or realistic but they’re both such messed up individuals they work so well together. They can see one another in a way no one else is able to. That’s something we all strive towards, and to see it displayed so clearly in this film I felt a pit in my stomach.
I don’t know what I expected going into it but it definitely wasn’t this. I’m exhausted and my thoughts are all over the place rn but I just needed to get this out. I loved this movie and I know it has its faults but who cares it made me want to throw up and peel my skin off and crawl inside in a good way.
I can’t stop thinking about this one second preview for the 2nd ep of pit babe season 2 that is (in my humble opinion) serving one of the best a/b/o tropes.
LIKE?!?! HELLL YEAHHH!! Go Charlie!! Scent him and go all alpha on him, because how dare he smell like another alpha?? I know they’re about to get freaky after this too, because if Charlie likes to do one thing it’s claiming his man.
I have so many thoughts about pit babe season two!! But oh my god they delivered so hard with the first episode. Like it is so tropey and full of cliches IDC if it’s cringe I’m so in love. Are you kidding me??
Babe and Charlie still going strong with their Mama and Papa kink. A sexy new driver stirring shit up because of course you can’t have a happy couple forever. Pete and Charlie doing full scale lab experiments on special alphas?? And ofc everyone is alive no one dies. I’m really excited to see how this will play out.
I commissioned @vita-divata for this stunning drawing of Sasuke (I have permission to post it) and I'm just so in love with it 😍 Thank you sooooo much!!! ❤🔥
This is so so stunning omg

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Okay, FINE, the shows you should watch for BL's QUEER AF roots
You ready to go hunting?
Many of these are difficult to find. Also many of the images of them and their posters have been block/banned by tumblr, so, no screen grabs for you! (Good times.)
I don't necessarily *like* any of these, but if you are queer and in this fandom and need to dialogue around BL's queerness - these are going to provide a foundation for you. They are important for various industry, reputation, directorial, and cultural reasons. As seeds often are.
Trigger warnings throughout.
The true beginnings:
Boys Love, Japan's 2006 movie is a REALLY rough start featuring a journalist + hot model = murder gay, mild necrophilia, cheating, abuse, rape, and suicide for love. Start as you mean to go on, why don't you, Japan? Is it queer... maybe? Is it BL... honey, I am very sorry to inform you, this started BL.
Note: Yoshikazu Kotani is famous in og BL circles since he acted in 3 early BLs, both Boys Loves and then Same Difference. Also he v tall and hawt.
Eternal Summer, Taiwan 2006 - unlike Japan, Taiwan did NOT start how it would, eventually, go on. But what a messy way to start. A high school story of 3 besties in a love triangle, self discovery, and sexual awakening that fucks it all up.
No Regret, Korea 2006, is a very unhinged queer catastrophe piece about a lost gay man who ends up a host and then almost a murderer because of both his job and his identity.
Note: This is the directorial feature film debut of Lee-Song Hee-il Korea's (so far as I know) first openly gay director who specialized (to this day) in queer content.
The Love of Siam, Thailand 2007, this was Thailand's queer awakening, sure they would backpedal for YEARS after, but in 2022 they began to remember what this movie was (and did) and overtly referenced this quiet little masterpiece. This movie is sad but stunning in that way that the best queer works from Thailand can be (like Present Perfect or ITSAY.) It has Thailand's quintessential softness around theme and character, which you'll understand perfectly when highlighted against the backdrop of the early 2000s works from Japan, Korea, and Taiwan. Thailand will never lose this soft style and it's one of the most attractive qualities of Thai BL: it's never very harsh with us or its characters. This movie very easily COULD have been quite harsh indeed.
I thought long and hard about including Rice Rhapsody AKA Hainan Chicken Rice (Hainan ji fan) on this list and finally decided it doesn't really qualify. Still let me mention Hong Kong's 2005 movie. It is amazing, fascinating, and very rough going for an ostensible comedy. It wasn't the actual beginning because few saw it and Hong Kong never really picked up or ran with BL let alone QL, but it was hella queer. It's also hella homophobic.
Just Friends? (2009 Korea) - this is Korea's first (kinda) upbeat version of a BL featuring already established boyfriends, one of whom is on military leave, trying to decide on coming out, family life, and the future. All of these are themes Korea will pretty much never tackle again, retreating as they would to their bubble. But what a fun little offering this little show was and is to this day. You should watch it.
Like Love 1 AKA I Love You As A Man: Part 1 - China's 2014 offering is actually pretty classic early form live action yaoi with things like whipping boy, a university setting, rich/poor jock/nerd pairing, hard grumpy/sunshine and a very odd title. It's pre-censorship with an HEA, also explicit, yeah China once did that. This is a lot less queer that it is classic BL and classic Chinese romance, neither of which have any kind of connection to reality. But hey, that's what I'm here for. But it's important to note the drifting away from queerness beginning to occur.
Love Sick - Thailand's 2014 "boys in blues shorts" high school set soapy (in all ways) offering is widely considered the true beginning of Thai BL and by default, eventually, BL as we know it today. (As the biggest producer they somewhat dictate taste and trends in the genre.) This is one of those BLs that owes almost nothing to yaoi, although it started a number of tropes that are now endemic to Thai BL. What it is, instead, is a well scripted story of bisexual self-discovery and the inherent chaos of loving someone of the same gender for the first time, all wrapped up in hormones, existing relationships, and communication issues. It is high school queer angst at its messiest. Nothing is going to be easy for these boys because queer isn’t easy but also because life isn’t easy… welcome to adulthood sweethearts. Is is overtly queer? For 2014 Thailand? Sure is.
Love Next Door 2 a movie from 2014 and one of Thailand’s early very high heat pieces, it’s odd, but sexy I guess? Some unexpectedly decent queer rep including femme characters getting screen time + HEAs. (Part one from 2013 has the same high heat content and features the same lead character (and actor) discovering he is gay with the sex worker next door, but isn't as good nor is it relevant to this installment.)
A few other unknowns, for the queer babies
Wait For Me at Udagawachou AKA Udagawachou de Matteteyo - from Japan in 2015, this is a story about two boys in high school one of whom is a repressed outsider and the other who has a terrible secret (body dysmorphia & cross dressing). When the first boy discovers what's up with the second one, his reaction is very much fetishization. "Oh Japan must you?" kinda started for me with this show. But in this case, Japan, weirdly MUST. This is the ONLY show laboring under (and testing) a pointedly straight lens (or is it?) and identity examination (yes but which boys' identity? that's the question) that I've EVER seen even edge into the BL genre. It is crazy queer, even as it mostly focuses on the fetishization of identity from an outsider's perspective. I WISH more people in fandom would watch it so I could at least talk to someone about it.
The Lover (BL Cut) Korea's 2015 series had multiple couples in an apartment complex, one pair of whom is a BL romance between a Korean man and a visiting Japanese tourist (played by a Kpop idol). It's comedic, slapstick sexy only (no kissing), but basically starts up Korea's bubble and use of idols in BL. It's kinda fascinating to watch them dodge around and still represent gayness in what (is sadly destined to become) a very Chinese way, but which Korea in pursuit of Hallyu and market share would morph into the bubble.
Mr. X and I from China in 2015 is a compilation piece and, I think, the first of this kind of multiple narrative shorter grab bags AKA "Sampler Pack BL." Two of the stories are very queerly sad, but the third is CLASSIC BL of the kind that would become China's best (and last) true BL, Addicted.
Sweet Boy, (Thai 2016) Chimon's first gay role and it is quite sad, oddly sexy, and similar to Dew the movie or My Bromance (just so you know what you are in for) but the acting is on point. When Thailand goes dark, this is how they do it, but this is rough going for baby queers because that's the darkness it is exploring. Our old thematic friends: the pain of self discovery and coming out into a homophobic environment and unfriendly reality, and the cost of being the one able (and willing) to stay in the closet.
Method (Korea 2017) this movie is a May/December actor/idol pairing, that should have been everything I wanted in life but is more about the older character cheating on his wife and their weird “artsy” relationship and frankly, I hated it. And I don’t say that lightly. Is it queer? Who tf knows, but is sure has some interesting things to say about the nature of PERFORMATIVE queerness.
Red Balloon is Taiwan's 2017 precursor BL to their biggest and most famous prestige piece Your Name Engraved Herein. If you're making a choice, choose that instead, but this series certainly paved the way for it to come into existence. Both shows tackle the pressures of culture and social structures on self acceptance and identity and the loneliness inevitably caused by conflict between the two.
(As indeed does Life Love On The Line, Present Perfect, Grey Rainbow, Tropical Night, My Sky, and many other queer meets early BL pieces that revolved around coming out and family acceptance.)
China's 3 2017 "they tried to censor the gay... and it went HORRIBLY wrong":
Beloved Enemy,
The Fairy Fox,
Mr. CEO is Falling in Love with Him.
Honestly these 3 are basically the uncanny valley of BLs.
The Novelist AKA The Pornographer series (2018-2020). Messy psychological machinations, gaslighting, fetishization, sexual corruption, and more good times from "well, what did you expect?" Japan, but also no holds barred queer, just well and truly fucked in the head (and arse) about it.
The Cornered Mouse Dreams of Cheese AKA Kyuso wa Chizu no Yume wo Miru (Japan 2020) - Drama llama queers so queer and so dramatic it's like Japan is trying to PROVE something: obsession, cheating, break-up, reunion, then break up again, all of it explicit. This show is just SO JAPANESE. I can't even, but you should watch it and you'll know exactly what I mean. Something like My Personal Weatherman owes it's lineage to this kind of BL. If you like Japan naked, boney, emo, and smoking (hot & ciggy) you will love this, and should watch it. It's objectively amazing, I can't stand it, but I NEED people to talk about it more.
More Queer Stuff about BL from moi
BL Linguistics & Queer Identity - I Am Gay versus I Like Men
Will BL Get More Honestly Queer?
Actually gay, not BL gay - the idea of “by queers, for queers, about queers,” the BL bubble, sanitized gay, and a queer lens
Queer lens (from the director) and chemistry (from the actors) in BL (A Tale of Thousand Stars)
Touch & Daisy in Secret Crush On You - Queer Coded Language and 3rd Gender Identity
BL in Taiwan & Gay Marriage
Debating Queerbaiting in BL ( + Devil Judge… is it queerbaiting?)
BL Actors and the Assumption of Queerness - outing actors, coming out, being out, more: Is that BL actor actually queer?
So is it really fetishization? straight women loving bl
Some BL fans are sasaengs, and it’s a problem in this fandom
BLs That Highlight How Society Treats Queers
10 BLs That Are Honest to a Queer Experience
Note that I said ”a queer experience” not “the queer experience”? Everyone experiences coming out, coming of age, and self discovery differe
If you like these kinds of shows try the "Moody Arthouse Smackdoodle" section of this post too.
@weekendatennuis asked: Your BL curriculum breakdown today was *chef’s kiss* and the 10 cutest BLs was delightful but sometimes this littl
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The sponsors for 4 minutes are so perfect. Come on cats and condoms!! They truly are for the gays <33
These are from the 4 mins fan con and I just find it so hilarious that these booths are most likely near each other.
Like imagine the durex spokespeople handing out lube and condoms 😭 while the Kaniva cat mascot hands out pet treats???
Everybody a round of applause for Bas
because that man acted his heart out WOW
the sheer emotion, the disbelief, the insanity
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i miss them this scene is so beautiful
I think we throw around the word cunty far too often but this is so so cuntyyyy
Pretty face small waist 🤞🏽🤞🏽🤞🏽 Iktrrr
Thinking about how I wrote a 8k Hannibal extended universe fic that I never posted because I got writer’s block in the middle of it 🤕

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I’m suffering from severe post drama depression. Last two shows I watched both became my personalities for a few months (4 minutes and Hannibal) and I can’t get into anything else. Does anyone have any remedy!!!
I need to watch something good like so good it will be my personality for the next few months!:!/!
I’m sorry but why are there so many BL dramas where the main characters are stepbrothers or pseudo brothers😭😭 like their chemistry is always off the charts but I can’t get over the stepbrother aspect!!!?/)/$
Am I weird for thinking this? Like it just makes me slightly uncomfortable. I’m still going to watch it but come one can we start making story lines that don’t revolve around this trope!!!
Vegas + his bare essentials
i miss my pookie, sigh
So... I've been thinking a lot about Vegas and Pete and what brought the most real smile to Vegas' face and how he was the most relaxed and the happiest when he had convinced Pete to eat his food. That moment, the way he was secretly smiling and listening to him, enjoying the knowledge that Pete was eating something he made him, that Pete was enjoying his food and it hit him in a weird way...
What if Vegas is a sadistic sub?
Yes, he wants to cause pain and to see others in pain... but he desperately craves to be told what to do by someone who loves him and who cares about him and will praise him afterwards, will give him those positive feelings in return.
Vegas craves being told that he is not a failure, that he is not the wrong person, that he is his own person and that he can be who he is, that he is a good boy, for all that he is the one to call Pete that.
Imagine if Pete called Vegas a good boy? If he stood over him, told him was good and asked him to show how good he could be and then handed him a riding crop?
Vegas wants to be wanted, to be needed, to be loved and to be seen and to have Pete see him, to have Pete see him and invite him in and offer him what he wants and needs. Vegas has spent a lifetime groomed to be a leader by a man who hates him and shaped him into a monster... what if he could give that up, stop that ideal, stop trying to lead and just be lead by someone who loves him and wants him to be exactly who he is... monster or no monster, man or no man, chain or no chain.
I am absolutely not saying this is canon. If anything, this is the least canon thing I've ever written. But it's an idea. And I find it fascinating.
going back to this but Vegas as a sadistic sub with Theerakit!!! I am so damn close to writing a fanfic for them. Like I can't stop thinking about it.
like yall cannot be stupid enough to scream fuck israel all year (rightfully so) and then go happily vote for kamala and meme the fuck out of her like everybody did trump like she didn’t just get up on that debate stage and say israel has the right to blow the entire levant to smithereens, do notttttt piss me off
Exactly

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4 Minutes Fic Fest
Alright Everyone! Welcome to the 4 Minutes Fic Fest! This is a super chill event that is meant to celebrate the wonderful and sometimes confusing Thai BL 4 Minutes!
Here are The Rules: there aren't many! This fest starts with people submitting a wave of prompts for people to claim. Then, in phase 2, people who have claimed the prompts write them! (or draw them, We're not gonna stop you from living your best Fan Art Life.)
Prompts should be submitted as asks. Each prompt will get its own post. Valid prompts also include Any prompt from this post that circulated pre-challenge.
There are no restrictions on what you can prompt or write, but please do be courteous and tag where appropriate.
Multiple people can claim the same prompt - we'd love to see multiple spins on the same idea!
We will have Prompts be open from September 18th to September 30th.
There is no minimum - or maximum!- word count.
Fics should be published by October 31st. Use the tag #4MinutesFicFest on AO3 or tumblr to show off that you completed the challenge and so that we can reblog it!
Good luck!
Maybe this will get me out of writers block!!
I see some people say 4M was bad because it didn't make sense or whatever variation of that and I have to hold back the urge to tell them No you're just dumb and lack media literacy