@noonslullabies

I really should of done this sooner & not before the great fire, but I’ve never been that good at timing.

Ok, my social media accounts (twitter & ig) are noonslullabies & isleptpassnoon for ao3!

The reason why I went dark several years ago is that I realized I was mentally emotionally abused when I was back in the Special Education program.

I’ve always had anxiety, and… people think that not being ‘good’ means you don’t deserve to be a person. No one deserves to be dehumanized. No one.

(Guess that’s why I felt so strongly about Oz from Pandora Hearts)

I’m still, well, I thought I escaped just fine, but it appears I have some serious ptsd, possibly cptsd. It’d explain why I have a hard time talking & making goals, just living, ‘cos they pretty much made it apparent that I wasn’t supposed to live this long.

My chronic illness came forth around the same time when the abuse was at its worse, so realizing what happened caused it to get worse.

You all deserved better than me disappearing, and no amount of apologizing will make up for it.

So, instead, I wanted to say thank you. During that time where everything was getting worse for me, I kept thinking about you all, and how badly I wanted to see you all again.

(didn’t help my phone broke in ‘16 & I reverted back to the still active mindset I don’t deserve anything, trying to break it, so it’ll take a lot of time)

Its messed up to realize that you were trained from a young age that you weren’t a person like everyone else. To be clear, I met fraud (only revenge I’ll ever get is dehumanizing that person back) when I was 9, but I already experienced the same abuse she inflicted. fraud just.. i thought she was my friend, an adult i could trust, and even so, I was aware of what fraud was doing.

I’m still triggering the traps she put in my head, and let’s just say that not having enough energy to make it through the day is made even less so when one’s brain goes into overdrive to look over memories to make sure that I’m not lying & she really did what she did.

It helps that I have memories of other people reacting to fraud, like something was off by the whole situation.

My opinion on the education system is ugly, and no amount of time will ever salvage what it did to me.

I started writing. Keeping notes on story ideas & aus that I wanted to share when I got back.

In the end, I did survive fraud with scars that will likely never go away, but I’ll be ok.

I know how to write. I know how to read. I know that I’m not wasting people’s time because of the time I spent with all of you.

Thank you.

I’m so thankful that I was born to meet all of you.

I’ll keep this rolling around cos of the current climate, so here’s to hoping for the best still.

I really should of done this sooner & not before the great fire, but I’ve never been that good at timing.

Ok, my social media accounts (twitter & ig) are noonslullabies & isleptpassnoon for ao3!

The reason why I went dark several years ago is that I realized I was mentally emotionally abused when I was back in the Special Education program.

I’ve always had anxiety, and… people think that not being ‘good’ means you don’t deserve to be a person. No one deserves to be dehumanized. No one.

(Guess that’s why I felt so strongly about Oz from Pandora Hearts)

I’m still, well, I thought I escaped just fine, but it appears I have some serious ptsd, possibly cptsd. It’d explain why I have a hard time talking & making goals, just living, ‘cos they pretty much made it apparent that I wasn’t supposed to live this long.

My chronic illness came forth around the same time when the abuse was at its worse, so realizing what happened caused it to get worse.

You all deserved better than me disappearing, and no amount of apologizing will make up for it.

So, instead, I wanted to say thank you. During that time where everything was getting worse for me, I kept thinking about you all, and how badly I wanted to see you all again.

(didn’t help my phone broke in ‘16 & I reverted back to the still active mindset I don’t deserve anything, trying to break it, so it’ll take a lot of time)

Its messed up to realize that you were trained from a young age that you weren’t a person like everyone else. To be clear, I met fraud (only revenge I’ll ever get is dehumanizing that person back) when I was 9, but I already experienced the same abuse she inflicted. fraud just.. i thought she was my friend, an adult i could trust, and even so, I was aware of what fraud was doing.

I’m still triggering the traps she put in my head, and let’s just say that not having enough energy to make it through the day is made even less so when one’s brain goes into overdrive to look over memories to make sure that I’m not lying & she really did what she did.

It helps that I have memories of other people reacting to fraud, like something was off by the whole situation.

My opinion on the education system is ugly, and no amount of time will ever salvage what it did to me.

I started writing. Keeping notes on story ideas & aus that I wanted to share when I got back.

In the end, I did survive fraud with scars that will likely never go away, but I’ll be ok.

I know how to write. I know how to read. I know that I’m not wasting people’s time because of the time I spent with all of you.

Thank you.

I’m so thankful that I was born to meet all of you.

I’ll keep this rolling around cos of the current climate, so here’s to hoping for the best still.

I really should of done this sooner & not before the great fire, but I’ve never been that good at timing.

Ok, my social media accounts (twitter & ig) are noonslullabies & isleptpassnoon for ao3!

The reason why I went dark several years ago is that I realized I was mentally emotionally abused when I was back in the Special Education program.

I’ve always had anxiety, and… people think that not being ‘good’ means you don’t deserve to be a person. No one deserves to be dehumanized. No one.

(Guess that’s why I felt so strongly about Oz from Pandora Hearts)

I’m still, well, I thought I escaped just fine, but it appears I have some serious ptsd, possibly cptsd. It’d explain why I have a hard time talking & making goals, just living, 'cos they pretty much made it apparent that I wasn’t supposed to live this long.

My chronic illness came forth around the same time when the abuse was at its worse, so realizing what happened caused it to get worse.

You all deserved better than me disappearing, and no amount of apologizing will make up for it.

So, instead, I wanted to say thank you. During that time where everything was getting worse for me, I kept thinking about you all, and how badly I wanted to see you all again.

(didn’t help my phone broke in '16 & I reverted back to the still active mindset I don’t deserve anything, trying to break it, so it’ll take a lot of time)

Its messed up to realize that you were trained from a young age that you weren’t a person like everyone else. To be clear, I met fraud (only revenge I’ll ever get is dehumanizing that person back) when I was 9, but I already experienced the same abuse she inflicted. fraud just.. i thought she was my friend, an adult i could trust, and even so, I was aware of what fraud was doing.

I’m still triggering the traps she put in my head, and let’s just say that not having enough energy to make it through the day is made even less so when one’s brain goes into overdrive to look over memories to make sure that I’m not lying & she really did what she did.

It helps that I have memories of other people reacting to fraud, like something was off by the whole situation.

My opinion on the education system is ugly, and no amount of time will ever salvage what it did to me.

I started writing. Keeping notes on story ideas & aus that I wanted to share when I got back.

In the end, I did survive fraud with scars that will likely never go away, but I’ll be ok.

I know how to write. I know how to read. I know that I’m not wasting people’s time because of the time I spent with all of you.

Thank you.

I’m so thankful that I was born to meet all of you.

OK SO I WAS ON THE SMOSH WEBSITE JUST BECAUSE AND I FOUND THIS. APPARENTLY IN JAPAN THIS IS A MASSIVE MEME AT THE MOMENT OR SOMETHING IDK BUT I LOVE IT, CAN WE DO THIS PLEASE?