★ Fake Angel

Megatron stared into the distance of the blue field. Admitting defeat, he decided he did not deserve his name. His shame and guilt bubbling up in him. All the lives he took, all the screams, it was all on him. Know one to hit or blame. No one to mock. No one was there except him.

Megatron heard a distant laugh. “This is pitiful! The great Megatron finally has regrets!” Megatron looked in horror at a distorted red Starscream. He looked almost scratchy. “How does it feel Megatron. How does it feel to have every little mistake beat you alive?” Starscream mocked him. Usually he would threaten Starscream, or throw him. But not this time. This time he was getting the beating.

“Nothing to say?” His distorted voice held confusion. “I’m surprised Megatron.” Starscream pulled Megatrons face to look at him. “It seems like you really have changed.” Megatron grinned at the praise.

“Or maybe not.” Megatron jumped at the noise of a familiar voice. “Maybe he just forces himself to act like this. After all, he’s Megatron. He’s incapable or change!” He looked behind him, only to be met with another distorted figure. A figure all too familiar. Optimus Prime.

“It’s your old friend Megatron!” Starscream said excitedly, tho Megatron doubted that Starscream was happy. “No, an old enemy. As he sees it, I am nothing but a headache, a flea, a dog to be kicked around.” Optimus tiled his head. He wasn’t wrong though. Optimus has always been an obstacle for Megatron even before he became Prime.

“I pity you Megatron. After all the bloodshed, all those lost, all those abused, betrayed, and abandoned by you, you feel sorrow for yourself.” He held Megatrons chin to at to the embarrassment. “I see now!” Starscream laughed. “Your road of self discovery was just a self-pity circus!” They both laughed. Megatron frowned. This humiliation wasn’t acceptable. He’s paid his depts in jail. He felt his rage bubble up against the shame and guilt. The verbal beating was far from over though.

“Truly after all he’s done to us the least he can do is say sorry!” Starscream and Optimus were basically attached to each other by this point. “Surely after everything he’s done to make himself better, his spark had a little empathy left for us!” Optimus had said with a chuckle. “Go ahead Megatron. Apologize.” Starscream beamed while saying that small sentence. It made Megatron sick to his stomach. He couldn’t just take this anymore. His rage now clouded him. Of course he wouldn’t take it out on them. He will admit this: he put both of them through hell. Instead of actually beating them. He will take the approach that they have been taking.

“For what.” He grinned. “From what I can tell everything I’ve done to hurt you is deserved.” What? Why did he say that? He regrets what he has done. He’s seen the era of his ways. Why did that slip out?!

They both went quiet. Their distorted red bodies stared at him. He felt the air cool. He saw the light disappear from the sky. And he heard nothing. Not the strangely scribbling red figure talking their mouths off, not the cooling wind, not any footsteps. Nothing.

“FOR WHAT?!” The Starscream figure lived up to his name. He screamed and he screamed loudly “YOURE GUILT AND SELF-PITY DOES NOT MAKE YOU A SAINT.” The figure grew larger. “YOU TREATED US LIKE DOGS. WE HAD COLLARS ON WHILE YOU TUGGED ON OUR LEASHES MAKING US CHOKE. YOU THREW US. BEAT US. AND MADE US WEAKEN IN YOUR PRESENCE!” “YOU RUINED US! EVERYTHING WENT IN TO RUINS WHEN YOU SHOWED UP. WE CANT COUNT HOW MANY TIMES WE STOOD UP FOR YOU, JUST FOR YOU TO TREAT US LIKE ANIMALS IN YOUR WICKED CARE!” Starscream barked.

Megatron stared them down. “ALL THE BEATINGS ALL THE HUMILIATION YOU CAUSED ME!” Starscream yelled “I WAS UNDER YOUR HEEL! I WAS STUCK WITH YOU.” Starscream reached out to choke him. “YOU DESERVE YOUR PAIN. NOT US!” Megatron didn’t say anything.

“SPEAK YOU FOOL!” His figure seemed more still in its own rage. Starscream only glared at him. It seems he had also lost his words.

Megatron saw Optimus in the corner of his Optics. He was curled up into a ball. He refused to face him. Megatron walked through Starscream like a cloud.

“Optimus.” Megatron sat down by him. “Did I hurt you?”

“Yes.” He responded quickly.

“Are you angry with me?”

“…” he didn’t respond as fast. “Yes. You anger me. All I’ve done is try to help you change. In the process you made me change in a more hardened, painful process.”

Megatron nodded. “You hate me then?” He asked confidently. “… I don’t know.”

“Well how do you not know? You seem pretty confident at being angry with me.” Optimus paused. “I feel like I should hate you. I have every reason too.” “Agreed.”

Optimus turned to face Megatron. “You… want me to hate you?” He seem confused. “No. You just made it clear today that you have reasons to hate me. You have a million of them. But you don’t. That’s why I don’t understand you Optimus, you want any relationship you can have with somebody. Even if they hurt you.” Megatron met Optimus’ optics.

Optimus seemed to be in awe that Megatron noticed that about him. Something that made all perfect sense.

“You know, I have reasons to hate you too.” Optimus tilted his head. “Both of you.” He turned around to get a quick glance at Starscream, who was still glaring at Megatron.

“But I don’t. I don’t hate either of you.” Optimus looked at him in awe “Why?! You have reasons!” Optimus asked ruefully.

“Simple, the same reason why you don’t hate me.” Optimus turned to look at him again, this time less disapproving. “Okay not exactly the same. But similar non the less!” He admitted “I don’t know why I can’t hate you.” Optimus didn’t say anything back. All they did was sit, in complete silence.

Optimus’ red figure cooled down into a cool purple. “I’m sorry.” Megatron smiled warmly. “No need to be Optimus. I don’t need it. I feel sorry for myself as it is.”

Optimus sketch figure became more defined, more real. “Megatron.” Optimus jump into a hug. Megatron wasn’t surprised. He accepted the hug willingly.

“Optimus.” He paused “I’m so sorry.” Optimus deepened the hug. Snuggling his head on Megatrons shoulder. “Wake up.” He whispered in Megatrons ear as he broke the hug and let the flowers take him. Megatron watched as his mortal enemy, a person who he’s supposed to hate, fade away into the ground happily. It made him smile.

He stood up to face Starscream. The mech he has hurt the most. The mech who seems to be his #1 hater. “I will not apologize to you Megatron.” Starscream admitted with zero shame. “I refuse to.”

“I’m not asking you too.” Megatron said proudly. For a few minutes they just stood there. Staring at each other. “But I will apologize. I’m sorry Starscream.”

He laughed. “You really have changed.” Megatron didn’t grin, smile or join Starscreams unneeded laughing. “But there is so much that hasn’t changed. You may be different, but you’re still the same old Megatron under all those new morals.”

“Maybe. Or maybe I’m still on the path of change. Maybe I’m still changing.” Megatron softly smiled. “You’ll wake up soon.” Starscream added. “I know.”

──

Megatron woke up in a peaceful sweat.

“That was a weird dream… I think I need to talk to Rung about it.” He said groaning.

He thought about Optimus and Starscream. How he hurt them. How they hurt him. How they all can’t manage to hate each other.

“I’m sorry.”

I’m so tired of being neglected.

I despise it.

I can cut myself till I’m nothing but skin and bones and my mom wouldn’t notice.

I tried to kill myself like…. Two or one times this summer……. You know what’s worse than failing your suicide??? No one noticing

No one noticed I took a handful of pills and ate them like candy

wanna rip out my heart and dump in a bucket and die at the beach

I really hope I have the balls to kms this year.

Bc ik damn well that’s the only way my mom will get me into therapy

I really hope someone kills me

We’re wishing on it.