rule no. 5

to be so understanding and never understood is draining.

Mental illness has ruined my fucking life don’t ever tell me that it’s a choice.

sorry i never responded to your text, i've been busy being paralyzed by my own inability to do basic tasks that are piling up.

Feeling like you're too much is honestly one of the worst feelings to possibly exist. It just feels like you need to stop being yourself and existing all together. It's like you crawl out of your own skin and laugh in disgust at what remains, it's pathetic. And so saddening.

I feel so disconnected from people lately, everything just feels fake and temporary.

Energy transfer is real. Be mindful of who you let touch you.

i thought it was just nostalgia but i really believe we have lost something so special in the last 15 years

oops I accidentally separated myself emotionally from everyone to avoid feeling any bad feelings & it worked but at the expense of my sense of connectedness and belonging

at least theres still listening to music while staring at the ceiling

u survive literally every single event in your life & still every time a new event happens you feel like this is the event that will kill you and that you will never move on from but actually you will continue to survive like you always have bc u have a 100% win rate of surviving events. btw

anyone else feel a deep crushing sense of loneliness or what

i wonder if you dream about me. no, i wonder if i appear in your dreams as an apparition. on the edges of your vision, of your mind. pouring you coffee in a cafe, holding the door for you, passing you on the street. i wonder if i'm a fragment regurgitated. vestigial but true and maybe the purest you'll ever see me.