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I deserved happiness, so I left.

Letting you go because you already have.

this is me letting you go, this is me not missing you anymore. this is me setting you free, this is me letting go of what could be. this is me still miss you, but knowing that we couldn’t see it through— this is me having to let you go. this is me closing the door. hoping one day it could open although i know it won’t, this is me—being done.

The strangest part of it all was how quickly we became strangers. It was almost like we flipped a switch. We went from talking every moment of every day to radio silence. I’d wonder how you were doing, if you were okay, and if you thought about me at all. I couldn’t ask you these things though - it would hurt too much.

It feels like I finally can breathe again. I still think of you - but you don’t consume my every thought. I still check up on you, but my stomach isn’t in knots anymore when your pictures pop up. When I look back on us, my heart still makes a fist - but not as tight. Letting go is a process - and slowly, I am releasing my grip.

just because i let you go, doesn‘t mean i wanted too.

you were the best i have ever had, and nobody would and could never replace you. you've had a very special place inside my heart, inside my life.