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so, there was a bbc radio interview like a few days before the power of the doctor was going to air, where mandip got asked if yaz gets to express her feelings for the doctor before it’s too late and jodie (before letting mandip say anything) interjects with “whoooo knows, before she gives away any spoilers”

sooo what were they talking about? bc no explicit confessions of any sort that we thought were gonna happen, took place. unless it was just meant to be like egging on the suspense?

it’s about the neck

bonus:

Coupla questions for everyone:

First off, how do you personally interpret 13's use of the phrase "being with you" in this scene?

imagine being best friends with someone who refuses to share anything with you, that you maybe have romantic feelings for, and you still share a bed despite knowing its probably a bad idea. like… being closeted your whole life, struggling with the fact that you like other girls, probably afraid to have sleepovers with female friends.

but with this person its different, you just want that extra bit of contact and familiarity with her, that vulnerability when she cant show it in any other way, which she offers to you willingly one day and you take it, after being separated for months not even knowing if she was alive, you take it. you dont care if this maybe means more than you want it to, but you take it. it cant hurt too much if only one of you is pining after the other, right?

and maybe you read into it too much when she always finds her way to your side of the bed in her sleep, often waking with your limbs tangled together, but there’s no way it means anything. she doesnt like physical touch very much under any other circumstances, but it doesnt mean anything. 

and after a while trying to process the ending, i think i understand it more now. we saw how desperate yaz was for the doctor in revolution of the daleks, to the point that it was almost unhealthy. then we get to see her travelling the world in survivors of the flux, stronger than she was last time but still missing the doctor awfully. and then we get this, yaz taking her nani’s advice, taking herself away before the inevitable happens. “courage is knowing something will hurt and doing it anyway”.

she’s not clara, or rose, there was never going to be a chance (in my mind at least) that she would want to travel with another doctor, her doctor was the only one she’d ever want to be with, so she knows that this regeneration has to be the end of the journey for her. and even in that moment, when her heart is breaking, she still puts the doctor first. she doesn’t say goodbye, even though it inevitably will be, because she knows how much that hurts the doctor, choosing instead to leave their story on an end note of hope and acceptance. she could’ve argued and fought and begged to stay, but she didn’t, she knew what both her and the doctor needed in that moment, and she walked away with dignity and bravery. i think more than anything this shows her character’s maturity, how far she’s come since the beginning. she can’t have her doctor anymore, and even though she doesn’t want it to end, she knows she doesn’t get a say in that anymore. she has to learn to live without the doctor, and she’s strong enough to know that she will.

and the wonderful thing is that she still achieved so much since she first stepped into that tardis. she wanted to do more with her life and she ended up saving the universe and helping so many people. she wanted to see more of the universe and she’s had so many adventures. she wanted more time with the doctor, and she got that, even if it ended in heartbreak. at one point, she never believed she’d amount to anything more than a depressed teenager that she thought no one cared about, but she did, she survived, and she got to hear the woman she fell in love with call her one of the greatest people she’s ever known. she’s made lifelong friends in ryan, graham and dan, something she never thought she’d have. she’s no longer trapped, and she’s no longer alone.