When the Teacup shatters

The guy was always mesmerising while I look like a wet rat in a dress. It’s no wonder Hannibal wrecked his entire life to worship him!

So, tell me something Hannibal. You were almost caught by an FBI trainee a few years back but you still put your obvious drawings of what seems to be like a corpse out in the open. In a room where you took your time cleaning beforehand to let Jack come in.

So obviously at first I thought ooooh whoopsie again Hannibal. But I know that man like I gave birth to him. He’s obviously asking himself if Jack, Myriam’s boss, is clever enough to catch him too. Which makes sense. He was already playing mind games. In his head I think he went "you know what would be funnier and kinda cool too, I’m so going to put the drawing on the desk just as it was when Myriam came knocking and we’ll judge if Jack’s gonna catch it too"

And of course Jack’s clueless so in the end he’s gonna let him live and see what’s gonna happen.

This poster came in the mail today!!!!!!! I’m so excited. It’s my favourite movie of all time 🥰.

It’s so silly to spend adult money on this cause it was a hefty purchase but…when am I reasonable? Exactly! Never lol.

Pretty sure it travelled too. I mean, I never take the plane, never have or never will so I guess I can’t really feel guilty over it. This is like vacation money 💵 but for objects that I need as a collector.

This edit is two years old. Which means I’ve been hiding my interests for two years. I wish I could say that I’m not ashamed of shipping Abigail with Will and Hannibal.

But the thing is I do feel a bit ashamed, I know what people think about my fictional pairing and I’ve been called a loser for it. Not to my face but popular blogs tend to say it without thinking or I don’t know but I recall a post that I saw years ago from a major blog and it stung me.

Stung me into silence and shame. Which is insane cause it’s a fictional story and I’m only shipping these three together only in a fictional setting. I don’t go about screaming and exposing them to their faces. I mean I would never do this. It’s just not in my nature. I’m the shyest person you’ll ever meet so yeah it’s hard for me to share this and actually put tags on it because people will then see it and think I’m a creep.

Except I’m tired of hiding, I try to be brave about it but please if you don’t like my content just ignore it. Block me and move on.

It’s just a fictional pairing and as far as I know, I’m not doing anything wrong. To be honest I’m asexual, I don’t see myself in Abigail. If anything I hate to see myself into any kind of romantic and sexual situations. So it’s not a case of transposing myself into the situation. Abigail is not a receptacle for myself. You can argue that I have daddy issues but even then those issues don’t translate into my ot3.

Like never, and I’m quite vanilla so it’s not even a kink or anything I just like them together. It makes me just happy. And tbh it comes from the fact that Abigail had no one, you can argue that it’s not a healthy relationship at all but I don’t see it that way. Will wanted to be there for her, Hannibal too and Abigail needed someone in her corner so yeah in my mind I made a place for her and those two men.

Kindness will always prevail in my world but damn, sometimes you just want to get it right and I messed up one too many times I guess. Well too bad for me right?!

I only got what I deserved. No resentment towards anyone but wow it’s just not really kind and I invested so much care for once. Sure, I got lost on the way. But…anyhoo just gotta keep going on with my own life. Not that anyone would care, I guess some battles are just not worth the pain and the time it takes to win them. And god knows I’m on the losing side now.

No worries I’ll put on my big girl boots and carry on.

I’ll retreat into my own little corner and maybe for once I’ll learn not to care that much that quickly since nobody gives a damn anyway.