whoring my way through life

So there is this boy that I have been talking and he is really nice , super sweet...but the problem is that if my parents found out about us talking...I am going to die...my parents are like really strict..

So recently one of my relatives saw that we are holding hands and told my MOTHER about this but later I convinced her that it was not me and everything was handled.....

Today I went downstairs telling my mom that I am going with my cousin a.k.a. the daughter of the relative who snitched. Our plan was pretty simple ..my cousin and I going to the park where I meet the boy and she meets one of her frnds so when I got to the place where we all had to meet she backed away and told me WHEN I REACHED THE PLACE that she is not coming.. so I thought why not be here for couple of minutes that's when my mom called and told me to bring my ass back to the house cause my relative..remember the snitch ..called my mom and told her that I am lying and that my cousin is not even with me ...and that's when my mom got angry...

Now obviously I handled my mom but I dont how to handle my relatives...and I am just scared what if they say something really bad to me then what am i going to do.. side note this relative is a drunk man who says shit to anyone..

I mean should i care about what they will think and stop talking to the guy..??

Or should i be with the guy but try to cover him from my parents and my relatives..?.

P.s- the guy is actually going to hostel in couple of days so I don't have much time

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Idk what to do

This happens everytime literally couple of days ago I was having the best days of my life. You know my crush was talking to me and all and i thought my studies were going good but seems like it's not. I couldn't study one bit today. ANDD my crush is talking to someone else now..

This shit always happen ..whenever I think " oo life is going pretty well..my life is going back to normal " that's when all the shit goes down hill

From past couple of days things has gotten better like my crush and I are finally talking, not much but a like a bit..

My studies,suprisingly, are going pretty well

Had no breakdowns in past couple of days....