innergalactic

i don't know how to describe this, but i don't think i've ever had a "blackout" moment but my memory is still iffy at best. i'd describe it more like a "fog out" even though i'm sure that's not really a term. i remember big ideas but not details. i know i ate lunch with my friend, but i don't remember what i was eating or where we sat. it's more like looking at a foggy picture than having no pictures of that time at all. sometimes i am missing a short amount of time but it's never that much. i don't know. just, foggy i guess.

dissociation is just becoming aware that you're the streamer and your headmates are your loyal viewers, that's why i call them chat and also why it feels like i'm watching my life from a third person point of view

let's play a game of Will! I! Give! Into! The! Urges! For! Doing! Something! The! Rest! Of! The! System! Wouldn't! Like! (stage curtains draw back, lights circle, game show board appears behind me)

i don't usually consider us fictive heavy because going entirely by member list, the very large majority of headmates are not fictives. however nearly all frequent fronters are pulled from the relatively small pool of fictives. anyone else feel like the statistics are a little skewed here

so many people in this head and not a single one who can be productive. great, that's awesome

do you ever look at someone and wonder, what is going on inside their head? (looking in the mirror)

when life gives you lemons... oh god all the other headmates got one too. there's so many lemons in here. oh god what are we supposed to do with all these lemons

headmates all having their own physical bodies and living together as roommates instead of headmates is an interesting hypothetical i've seen brought up in plural spaces. unfortunately i know of at least two headmates who would immediately fistfight each other if they were given a way to make physical contact with each other and one of them is me

"ew, are you going to make that your whole personality?" sorry if you dont like that personality i have another in the back

Systems will really be like "I know my member count, that's easy!" until That One Thing happens

i love looking at old schoolwork and seeing several assignments where your handwriting changes suddenly and drastically halfway down the page and continues like that like nothing happened. gotta be one of my favorite plurality moments

does anyone else get the feeling that the physical body is a modifier on your gender in a way. like i can say i'm a man and that doesnt feel wrong or uncomfortable but adding the fact that the body is afab feels more correct, like that feels like it's part of it