Inky Octo

The closer she looked, the more it seemed to be a baby’s face with it’s eyes closed gently. The longer her eyes lingered, the baby’s face contorted, eyes opening to reveal a black pit, lips curling back as if screaming silently. Slowly, Maggie began to hear the ear shattering wail of the infant within the snow which caused her great grief. Maggie’s eyes began watering as a deep, harsh scream began in tandem with the infant’s.It stung her ears, and as she went to cover them she felt a wetness. Her hands had spots of blood on them. All the while, she couldn’t look away.

 A shadow on the thick branch moved, giving movement and body to the face, bringing it closer and closer to Maggie’s bedroom window. Her vision tunneled, focusing on the ugly face. A third voice, a young girl’s, chimed in at a lower intensity,

Let me in! Let me in! It’s so dark and cold, and you are so warm! Let me in!

Maggie felt hands on her shoulders. The last thing she remembered was screaming along with the cries from outside.

As she awoke, Deyvon was above her, eyes wide and concerned. She sat up, realizing she was in her bed.

“You are forbidden from the candles. If you are caught with matches, you will be lashed. If you are seen too close to the door they are kept in, you will receive soap in your mouth. You are not to perform the spell, and you are not to ever ask to do so again.”

Barbury’s eyes began to water, her breath quickening. 

“My Lady please! If I don’t-”

“You will keep your damn mouth quiet until I say it is your turn to speak. Now when I tell you that you cannot perform the spell, I mean it. You cannot. I won’t have an ill-gotten child to be brought into this world unnaturally. You know what happens to the unborn infants that have magic used on them.

“You will lose the child before it’s due, like Pepper predicted, and you will leave it at that.”

 At first, it was simple spells. Small protection sigils and four word incantations to help her remember everything she had to do that day. 

Slowly, over the months, she realizes that she doesn’t have to follow the books to the letter. She comes to find that if she draws an animal on herself with her now magic pens, then she’ll find her day surrounded by them.

I had an amazing day today. 

So this kind of started off as a dear diary type thing, but we’re gonna roll with it. 

My day started with waking up beside my beautiful boyfriend who was pressing up against me because it was cold. I got to wake up slowly, and when we actually got around to getting out of bed, there was breakfast (made by his mom). We went to see a waterfall and then ate and just hung around with each other and his mom and it was super relaxing.

This was honestly probably the best Easter I’ve ever had because it was so relaxing and wonderful and generally peaceful.

My point of this dumb thing is is that I’m the happiest I’ve been in a very long time and that every time I look at my boyfriend or just be with him I get a swell of emotions that are great and awesome and yeah.

Luckily, they decided to do me a favor and end the relationship. I say that it’s a favor because if I had never gotten out of that relationship I would not be where I am today. I would not be madly in love with a good, honest man. I would not be drawing. I would not be going to classes. I would still feel that stifling emotions and pushing down my feelings is the best option in the world because no one wants to see anyone emote ever. I would not feel motivated to be better every day, to be a little kinder every day, if I were still with that person. 

I have been very sad for a long time. I never realized to what extent that I was unhappy until I found someone who has been able to make me feel happy about myself. They see and recognize every single aspect of who I am, and they deem it good somehow. They lift me up and not only with their presence. They have helped me see that, even on my own, I can be strong. I can be independent and creative and everything that I was before I met that person. He supports my dreams just as much as I support his. He helps remind me what actual happiness is; what it feels like and how a healthy relationship should be. 

I feel like the luckiest person ever. I feel like if you were to ever say “Hey, let’s go on a very long trip together” I would drop everything and join you in an instant. Regardless of whatever dumb education I need. 

I say this, but I would actually ask if we could reschedule because my education is important to me if only because I need to prove that I can do it. Which you know because I feel comfortable enough to tell you this. 

You should know that when I’m with you, I forget about everything other than how I feel when I’m with you. You help me forget people and events that have harmed me. You help me aspire to be a better person, even though you say that who I am is already good enough. 

You should know that when I look at you, I don’t feel fear like I usually do with relationships. I don’t think, “Oh, I can’t say that or else they won’t love me anymore” or “Better watch out because this one might have something up their sleeve.” I do think, “Oh, I can probably spam him one more picture and he’ll still laugh at it” and “This guy is great and I’m astonished he wants to spend time with me.” You should know that I’m not a fan of being surrounded by someone else, but when your arms go around me I feel nothing but happiness and safety. 

You should know that I am willing to accommodate your picking eating because I love you and I know exactly what it feels like to have someone try to force you to have something you don’t want.

You should know that you are unique in what you think and say and that I literally haven’t met someone that I click with as well as I click with you. You should know that I love you so much and that I would do almost anything for you (some laws apply). You should know that even though you think your back is gross it’s not and that I’ve seen much worse. You should know that when I look at you I feel like making weird unintelligible noises but I hold them back because they would disrupt conversation.