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Dear Future Me,

As I write this letter, my mind drifts to the deepest recesses of what it means to live a life of true meaning. Right now, I stand on the edge of the unknown, with a vision in my heart and a longing for something that feels both timeless and elusive. I feel the urgency of the moment, but also the understanding that this is not just a race to accomplish, but a journey of becoming.

I do not know where I will be when you read this letter, but I know that you are the culmination of all the choices I make today. The person you have become is the result of the small, quiet moments of reflection, the moments of profound silence, and the decisions to push through even when I felt lost. I hope you have not lost touch with the essence of who you are, for the journey ahead is not just about what we achieve, but about the way we evolve at the deepest level.

Health: A Sacred Vessel for the Soul At the core of my being is the understanding that health is not just the absence of illness but a sacred vessel that supports the unfolding of my purpose. It is not simply about eating the right foods or maintaining a routine; it is about honoring the very body that houses my soul. I feel an increasing awareness that health is intertwined with spiritual vitality—that what I feed my body, mind, and spirit creates the energy from which all else flows. I have worked to care for my body as an act of reverence, to move with intention, to breathe deeply, and to eat with gratitude. Yet, I know that true health goes beyond the physical. It lies in accepting my vulnerabilities, in cultivating emotional resilience, and in nurturing the peace within.

I hope that, by the time you read this, you have transcended the common notion of health. Have you come to understand that true vitality is a sacred alignment of the physical, mental, and spiritual planes? Do you still honor your body with the same reverence that you once set as your intention? Health is a daily commitment to being whole in every aspect of yourself, and I trust that you’ve continued to care for your vessel with the wisdom that only deep reflection and experience can bring.

Creativity: The Expression of the Soul's Truth Creativity, for me, has become something far deeper than simply producing. It has become the expression of my soul's truth. Every word I write, every brushstroke I make, every idea I birth is not just a reflection of what I know, but a reflection of who I am. I’m no longer driven by the desire to merely create for recognition or external approval, but because it is through creation that I remember myself—the raw, untamed essence of my being.

I’ve come to see creativity as an act of surrender—to let go of control and allow the work to emerge from the deepest recesses of my heart. The journey of creativity has shown me that vulnerability is at its core, and it is only by being authentically exposed that I can produce something that truly resonates. I have faced the fear of judgment, the self-doubt that lingers like a shadow, but through it all, I have learned that creativity is not about perfection—it is about truth. The truth of who I am, in each moment, in each breath.

Have you, by now, been able to create freely, without the weight of self-imposed expectations? Have you allowed yourself to simply create for the sake of being rather than doing? I trust that by now, your creative spirit has transcended the confines of the mind and entered into the realm of pure expression, where the boundaries between creator and creation no longer exist. May you be forever unafraid to express what lives in the deepest places of your soul, regardless of the outcome, for in that expression lies your freedom.

Long-Term Vision: The Pursuit of Meaning Beyond Success When I look into the future, I don’t see a destination as much as I see a continuous unfolding. The world speaks of success, wealth, and status as though they are the ultimate goals of life, but I have come to realize that they are mere illusions compared to the true purpose of living. My vision is not simply to achieve, but to become. To become the person who is not just successful by external measures, but fulfilled at the deepest level. My goal is to live a life of meaning, one in which I serve not from a place of obligation, but from a place of love, generosity, and purpose.

This vision is not limited to material goals; it extends into the realm of soulful abundance—a life lived with presence, awareness, and a deep commitment to contributing something of real value to the world. I understand that I am not just here to exist but to leave a legacy—not one of grand monuments or accolades, but one of quiet impact, where the ripples of my actions touch lives in ways I may never fully see.

Have you reached a place where your vision is no longer shaped by what others expect but by the pull of your own heart? Have you found the courage to pursue a life that feels aligned with your soul’s deepest desires, regardless of how unconventional it may appear to others? I trust that you are living in harmony with your truth, and that your work, whatever it may be, is not just fulfilling but deeply connected to the greater good. In your daily actions, do you embody the very values you hold dear? I hope so. For success is not measured by what we accumulate, but by the love and light we bring into the world.

Facing the Abyss: The Inner Journey of Transformation The most profound aspect of my life’s journey is perhaps the one that is the most difficult to articulate—the internal transformation that takes place beneath the surface. This journey is not always visible to others, and sometimes, it is not even visible to me. But I know that this transformation is real. It is the shift from fear to courage, from lack to abundance, from confusion to clarity. It is the process of shedding old identities, beliefs, and limitations that no longer serve my highest self.

In these moments, when the world feels like it is crumbling or when doubt and fear grip my heart, I remember that true growth comes from surrendering—surrendering to the uncertainty of life, to the knowing that I do not have all the answers, and that I am not meant to. I have learned that trusting the process is the key to peace, and that in the darkest moments, there is always light waiting to emerge.

Have you fully surrendered to the unfolding of life, knowing that everything, even the most painful moments, is part of the grand design? Have you accepted that the challenges you’ve faced are not obstacles to overcome, but the very soil from which your wisdom and growth have sprouted? I trust that you’ve learned to let go of all that no longer serves you and embraced the unfolding of your true self, free from attachment to outcomes.

Relationships: The Sacred Dance of Connection The relationships I hold closest to my heart are the ones that remind me of who I am and why I’m here. These connections are not defined by superficial exchanges, but by the deep, sacred bond that exists between two souls. I’ve learned that love is not just an emotion, but a sacred act of vulnerability, a constant flow of giving and receiving, where both individuals are free to be their most authentic selves.

In these relationships, I have come to understand the importance of both self-love and love for others. I cannot truly love others if I do not first love and honor myself. This is a profound truth that continues to unfold. Have you, by now, mastered the art of presence—of truly being with others in moments of silence, joy, and grief? Have you let go of expectations and embraced the beauty of unconditional love? I trust that you have nurtured your relationships with the depth, care, and love they deserve.

The Unfolding Journey I cannot know exactly what the future holds. But I do know this: I am here to become. To evolve. To step into the fullest expression of my soul's purpose. This journey is not about destination, but about becoming more authentically me with every step I take. I trust that wherever you are, you are living in alignment with this deep truth.

May you look back with gratitude for the pain and the joy, for all that has shaped you into who you are today. And as you move forward, may you do so with courage, faith, and a deep, unshakable knowing that you are exactly where you need to be.

With all my love, faith, and trust in the unfolding of your journey,

read and finish the entire Qur’an

memorise at least x5 surah’s

start to pray on time

read and finish Qur’an in translation of your language

learn tajweed rules and improve Qur'an recitation

pray in the masjid more

plan your days around salah rather than the other way round

learn Allah سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَىٰ ’s 99 names/attributes

detach from worldly means/people/things/desires

adopt true tawakkul

speak in a manner that’s pleasing to Allah سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَىٰ

have better hygiene

be kinder to the creation

eradicate the ego and adopt meekness and humility

habits to form

waking up for fajr more often

waking up for tahajjud more often

reading 1 page minimum of Qur’an every single day

reading books on religious knowledge bimonthly

exercising at least 2x a week

eating healthily with a balanced diet

daily dhikr after each fard prayer

listening to more islamic podcasts

daily gratitude journaling, thanking Allah سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَىٰ

praying nawafil (voluntary) prayers more often

less backbiting, more journalling

getting better sleep and not sleeping so late

praying for people rather than judging them

giving sadaqah more often

durood sharif and dhikr before you go to bed

daily or at least weekly cleaning of your space

kalau kita jujur, dalam hidup kita ada banyak sekali hal-hal yang sebenarnya adalah keputusan.

atas luka pengasuhan atau trauma, kesembuhan itu bukan keniscayaan. bukan sesuatu yang datang dengan sendirinya karena waktu. selain atas izin Allah, sembuh adalah keputusan.

saat kita hendak menikah, menjalin hubungan, memulai bisnis, melamar pekerjaan, mendaftar sekolah, atau hal lainnya, perasaan siap itu bukan kebetulan. bukan sesuatu yang datang dengan sendirinya karena ada kesempatan. selain atas izin Allah, siap adalah keputusan.

di dalam pernikahan, ada orang-orang yang tidak sanggup untuk setia. mereka kerap bilang itu adalah kesalahan, ketidaksengajaan. padahal, selain atas izin Allah, tidak setia juga adalah keputusan.

sebaliknya, bertahan dalam hal apapun: pekerjaan, pernikahan, sekolah, bisnis, dan sebagainya--itu juga bukan keterpaksaan. tidak ada istilah telanjur. semua adalah keputusan yang bisa dibuat, diambil, ditetapkan.

itulah alasannya kamu kerap mengingatkan dirimu sendiri. "hidup ini singkat. jangan ambil keputusan bodoh." itu yang kamu yakini. tidak ada keputusan yang salah atau benar. bahkan, tidak ada keputusan yang benar-benar cerdas. tapi, keputusan yang bodoh itu mutlak. seperti apa keputusan yang bodoh itu? langkah yang jelas-jelas tidak diridhoi Allah.

Dalam pertemanan dewasa, bentuk kepedulian itu pun hadir dengan cara yang berbeda. Bagi saya, ukuran hubungan yang sehat bukan soal siapa yang paling hebat atau paling dulu sampai, tapi bagaimana kita bisa tumbuh bersama—tanpa iri, tanpa gengsi. Ada semangat saling berbagi ilmu setelah belajar sesuatu yang baru. Ada kesukarelaan membantu tanpa diminta. Ada doa yang diam-diam dipanjatkan agar orang itu bisa mencapai mimpinya.

Hubungan seperti ini ditandai oleh ruang yang aman. Tempat di mana kita bisa bercerita tanpa takut dihakimi. Didengarkan dengan empati, bukan sekadar basa-basi. Bisa tertawa bersama atas hal remeh, tapi juga menerima feedback yang jujur saat dibutuhkan.

Kalau kamu sudah menemukan orang-orang seperti ini—entah itu sahabat, pasangan, atau rekan seperjalanan—ucapkan terima kasih. Dalam hati, atau langsung padanya. Karena hubungan yang tumbuh dari ketulusan dan keinginan untuk saling menguatkan adalah anugerah yang tidak semua orang punya.

Kemarin malam, kami berempat kembali duduk bersama. Larut dalam pekerjaan yang belum selesai, saling mengingatkan, merapikan detail, membagi beban. Rasanya, suasana yang tercipta bukan sekadar kerja tim—tapi kerja hati. Ada rasa saling percaya, saling dukung, dan semangat yang sama: untuk terus melayani dan menghadirkan kebaikan.

Empat tahun yang penuh cerita, pelajaran, dan keberkahan. Bukan hanya dari apa yang telah kami capai, tapi dari siapa-siapa yang Allah izinkan hadir dan membersamai.

Salah satu hal yang paling saya syukuri dalam hidup adalah dikelilingi oleh lingkaran-lingkaran kebaikan yang tidak pernah padam. Justru terus berkembang. Terus menguat. Dan terus membawa dampak—baik bagi diri sendiri maupun bagi banyak orang yang datang mencari ruang untuk tumbuh.

Dengan berbagai dinamika yang kami alami—dari studi kasus peserta, diskusi mendalam, hingga pertemuan informal bersama para fasilitator yang penuh kebaikan—kami justru semakin kaya secara nilai dan pengalaman. Meski sudut pandang kami kadang berbeda, ruang ini selalu memberi tempat untuk saling mendengar dan saling mengisi. Dan di antara semua perbedaan itu, kami selalu kembali ke satu hal yang sama: rasa syukur. "Masya Allah, alhamdulillah bisa di sini bareng-bareng."

Sebagai tim inti, justru makin terpacu oleh semangat pemberdayaan yang lahir dari para kakak dan teman yang lebih dulu berproses. Visi kami besar. Jalan yang harus ditempuh masih sangat panjang. Tapi bersama mereka, saya percaya, langkah ini akan menjadi lebih kuat, lebih terarah, dan insya Allah lebih berdampak luas.

Tentu, tidak semua bagian dari perjalanan ini terasa mudah. Ada tawa, ada lelah, ada juga momen kehilangan. Termasuk perpisahan dengan salah satu tim yang selama ini begitu setia membantu menyusun rupa identitas visual, merapikan segala hal di balik layar, dan berkontribusi dengan penuh dedikasi. Sedih? Pasti. Karena terlalu banyak kenangan. Tapi juga ada rasa optimis dan bahagia, karena saya yakin, Allah sedang menyiapkan panggung bertumbuh yang lebih besar dan lebih baik untuknya.

Dan seperti halnya setiap perpisahan, selalu ada ruang untuk pertemuan baru.

Untuk semua yang pernah menjadi bagian dari perjalanan ini— Yang membersamai sejak awal, Yang singgah dan memberi warna, Yang kini melangkah ke tempat lain,dan yang baru saja hadir, terima kasih.

Terima kasih telah percaya. Terima kasih telah hadir. Terima kasih telah berbagi.

Saya teramat bersyukur bisa tumbuh bersama kalian. Dan saya yakin, dari lingkaran ini akan terus lahir kebaikan-kebaikan baru yang bahkan belum sempat kami bayangkan.

Semoga setiap langkah ini senantiasa dalam ridha-Nya. Terima kasih telah menjadi rumah sekaligus penguat dalam perjalanan ini team @anandarizqy-blog @inieniiy :)