who cares

Just got a notif that my blog is 14 which is insaneeeeeeee omg i cant believe how little my life has changed in over a decade LMFAO so fuckin embarrassing its crazy but at least i got a new certificate and stayed away from my hometown and met a guy that called me beautiful (rare) and actually enjoyed his company even tho hes not my husband bahahhaha also went part time wit jab which was such a good idea cause boiiii i was startin to hate that shit. Anyways i wish myself the best cause i truly deserve it. Ive been humiliated ENOUGH. I love u amoon🥰

Its so crazy to me that I wholeheartedly believe he never liked me, just like all the others… yet this one hurt my heart the most… because i so badly wanted it to be my turn… i so badly wanted to be wrong this time… after all ive been through… i wanted to be wrong… i wanted to be desired… just this once.

So i just got a notif that my blog turned 13 which is wild cause wow tumblr rly saw every era of me. Anyways i wanna look back one day and remember this moment so basically im 28, graduated mbiot, met the first guy ever where there was *mutual* interest (Qasem) lasted like 3 seconds tho LMFAO, and almost done this certificate and actually lost 20 lbs which is wild and also the brokest ive ever been 😭 fucked up year but thats the honest update :) bahahahha