* / OCEAN EYES.

     the second the claymore falls to the ground, saeran tenses up expecting to feel the touch of the weapon, followed by some sort of pain and it’s only until the princess begins to stutter that he opens his eyes and slowly looks up from the ground to her highness. ❛ …. ❜ she was fuming with rage just seconds ago, what made her change her mind? it would probably just make matters worse if he asked.

     ❛ o-okay.. ❜ he nods as she removes the rather irritating cuffs from his wrists. he can only hope she doesn’t go around searching for where he’s from otherwise that’s a mess waiting to happen. ❛ i.. i can leave, i wasn’t planning on staying here. i just needed to rest.. ❜ he speaks, rubbing his wrists in attempt to soothe the pain from the cuffs. ❛ oh, umm.. i.. i’m saeyoung choi.. ❜ should he have come up with a new name? would she know who he was? ‘ stupid stupid stupid… ’

               ❝   saeyoung  .  is  it  alright  if  i  call  you  sae?  ❞  she  asks  ,  but  it  sounds  more  like  she’s  just  LETTING  him  know  that  sae  is  now  how  she’ll  refer  to  him  .  ❝  i  like  your  name  .  it  is  very  ...  ❞  attractive?  no  ,  she  can’t  say  that .  instead  ,  she’ll  let  her  eyes  flicker  away  from  the  other’s  face  ;  afraid  of  flushing  anymore  .  ❝   i  am  PRINCESS  MONIKA  of  the  kingdom  of  astoria  .  you  may  address  me  as  ...  ❞  a  blush  ,  nonetheless  ,  crosses  her  cheeks  ,  ❝   monika  .  ❞

     as much as he hates that strange blue liquid, he only started agreeing to take it more willingly because of monika. she was gentle, kind, reassuring, and his rock when the elixir became too much for him. everything about her was soft and beautiful. he doesn’t know how or why she’s with him. he’s never been given anything so wonderful as she is. was this finally god’s apology for his childhood and being taken into this place? he still wasn’t completely happy, but they had been secretly planning to assassinate rika. he isn’t sure how he feels about it as she was just as important to him as monika was, but with all the awful things he’s made him do, he hopes he’ll be okay with it. after all, once she was dead, he could finally go outside. finally live a normal life. he could be with monika and they would be happy together. ray simply couldn’t wait.

     ray nods with an exhausted and endeared smile spread subtly across his face as he follows her to his bedroom. he’s forgotten he even had a bed since he had been falling asleep in his computer chair more often than not.

     ❛ have you eaten today? have you had enough to eat? ❜ food was always his first concern with her. ray knew how awful it was to not eat and that’s the last thing he wants for monika to feel. his life may not be worth anything, but hers is. he could go on for hours about how wonderful she is. he truly didn’t deserve her.

          she  takes  his  hand  in  hers  ,  if  only  to  press  more  reassurance  to  herself  ,  the  hallways  of  the  place  feeling  more  like  an  overwhelming  maze  ,  pressing  herself  into  his  side  gently  ,  afraid  of  being  swallowed  up  whole  by  the  darkness that  lingers  there  .  soon  ,  it ‘ll  be  better  .  she’ll  make  sure  there  is  nothing  but  HOPE  that  reaches  every  awful  corner  in  this  godforsaken  place  .

        ❝   i  have  .  do  not  worry  ,  my  love  .  ❞  liar  .

        she  pushes  the  door  to  their  his  room  open  (  oh  how  easily  his  bed  felt  more  like  home  than  her  own  ) ,  as  she  turns  on  the  soft  yellow  light  .  ❝   when  you  awake  ,  i’ll  have  your  favourite  meal  and  flowers  awaiting  you  ,  how  does  that  sound  ?  ❞   push  the  worried  expression  away  with  yet  another  smile  ;  and  pull  the  elixir  from  a  cabinet  . 

      if it wasn’t one thing, it was always another. even outside the walls of his home village, saeran couldn’t gain any peace. he had been in the palace garden for a break from walking before the palace guards spotted him and threw him to his knees in front of their princess all while holding tightly onto either side of his arms. ‘ execution? ’ he thinks to himself. were all people this cruel? was he to be treated this way no matter where he went? it didn’t matter at this point. his eyes had been downcast, too afraid to look at her and the second he hears the weapon get dragged across the floor, he jumps and his eyes widen in terror. as much as he wouldn’t mind dying, he did, however, mind the pain that it would cause him.

     at the sudden pause from the princess, saeran takes action and immediately begins to speak his reason for his intrusion. ❛ my sincerest apologies, your highness. i hadn’t meant to disturb anyone. i was only stopping here for a break, i was going to continue my journey until i was brought here, but i understand your anger and hatred and i will accept the consequences of my actions. ❜ he doesn’t say anything more.

     gold tear filled eyes close and saeran focuses on his breathing in attempt to distract himself from the impending fate that was about to befall him.

          OH  NO  .  gentle  features  and  golden  eyes  ,  she  can  feel  her  heart  skip  a  beat  .  father  didn’t  raise  her  to  be  this  weak  ,  but  even  so  ,  the  claymore  clatters  to  the  ground  ,  reverberating  around  the  chamber  .  ❝  i  ---  i  ---  !  ❞  she  screwed  up  .  she  can  feel  it  in  her  bones  .  ❝   i  do  not  hate  you  ,  ❞  is  all  the  princess  can  manage  out  ,  before  she  turns  to  her  guards  ,  ❝   you  are  all  dismissed  .  ❞

          a  small  wave  to  make  a  guard  return  the  claymore  on  their  way  out  (  does  it  move  across  the  floor  ever  so  slightly ?  no  ,  that’s  not  possible  .  )  and  they  do  ;  when  the  large  door  behind  them  slams  shut  and  echoes  ,  she  flushes  pink  .   ❝  i  am  ...  realizing  the  err  of my  ways  ...  i  ---   ❞

        jade  eyes  flicker  away  from  his  features  ;  hand  covering  the  latter  half  of  her  face  ,  a  futile  effort  to  hide  the  blush  ,  ❝   i  have  no  wish  to  take  your  life  ---  i  ...  need  to  ...  protect  my  people  .  that  is  the  only  reason  i  ...  ❞  she  swallows  the  lump  in  her  throat  .  in  her  inconceivable  pockets  does  she  take  a  key  ,  kneeling  down  to  his  level  ,  unlocking  the  cuffs  .

      ❝   but  i  must  admit  ...  executing  someone  for  trespassing  is  not  ...  the  worst  thing  i’ve  done  ,  ❞  she  says  awkwardly  .  blame  the  way  her  father  raised  her  .  ❝   but  as  per  the  by  -  laws  of  our  kingdom  ...  it  is  standard  to  keep  you  under  surveillance  in  the  palace  until  we  determine  you  are  no  longer  a  threat  to  our  people  or  we  decide  you  are  .  ❞  THE  LAWS  being  written  by  her  mother  ,  if  only  to  keep  her  husband  in  check  .

               ❝   how  poetic  .  ❞  usually  an  adoration  for  gentle  words  and  KIND  TONES  warm  your  chest  ;  but  there’s  nothing  .  you  know  why  ,  but  do  not  say  it  aloud  .  instead  ,  let  your  hand  slide  from  his  shoulder  ;  stop  just  where  his  heart  should  LINGER  .  gentle  smile  curves  your  pink  lips  ,  heavy  lidded  eyes  never  looking  up  to  his  features  (  just  what  would  become  of  you  if  you  did ?  you’d  realize  it  ,  everything  ,  how  short  lived  this  will  be  .  it’s  at  your  own  hands  will  you  choke  the  light  out  of  whatever  semblance  of  a connection  you  two  have  .   )

            ❝   i  truly  must  be  blessed  to  even  be  on  your  mind  ,  let  alone  close  to  something  as  fragile  as  this  .  ❞    and  they  are  fragile  .  hearts  .  it’s  what  makes  you  so  incredibly  human  ;  something  you  relish  in  every  moment  of  every  day  .  tap  your  fingers  lightly  against  his  chest  .  1  .  2  .  3  .   ❝   one  day  ,  i  hope  that  your  heart  will  beat  for  you  .  ❞

             a  beat  passes  .  ❝   but  if  it  no  longer  aches  for  me  ...  ha  ...  ❞  you  know  the  end  result  .  push  it  from  your  MIND  .  it  is  not  his  burden  to  bear  .  only  yours  .  

           offer  him  a  bright  smile  .  ❝   i’m  sorry  about  the  pain  i  cause  you  .  maybe  it’s  best  to  leave  me  to  rot  ?  ❞  

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and  she’s  an  intoxicating  drug  .  she’ll  be  the  death  of  me  .  to  be  honest  ,  i  don’t  think  there’s  a  better  way  to  go  .  (  @fortunefucked  )

         “aah— d- don’t say it so loud—!!”

         what’s with her today? she seems awfully cheery, more so than normal. she buries her rosy face in her book, peering at monika over printed pages. she’s trying to work up the courage to accept the compliment— a fruitless effort.

        “but.. a- all of you are more desirable t- than me.. e- even natsuki..”

          ❝   it’s  true  !  ❞

        gentle  reassurance  against  the  other’s  words  ,  but  jade  eyes  linger  on  her  friend  ,  small  smile  on  her  lips  .  it’s  TRUE  ;  and  the  earnest  lingers  in  her  words more  than  whatever  oversaturated  HONEY  from  before  had  .  

         ❝  not  even  ,  yuri  .  you  have  to  understand ,  you’re  just  as  gorgeous              if  not  more  !  ---  like  !  ❞  

          she  doesn’t  continue  .  she  doesn’t  want  to  misconstrue  her  words  .