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So recently since I started high school (3 years ago) I've been struggling with my mental health (diagnosed with anxiety and depression) and I started SH (ended up in hospital for it) and I stopped eating (passed out a couple times) but recently I had been getting better with eating I stopped SH and was feeling kinda ok and then one of my long-term friends got more aggravated with bullying (trying to slam me into walls specifically my head and trying to strangle me daily ect.) anyway my mental health kinda went downhill from there crying daily living in constant fear (they live/work near me) anyway I talked to them and they haven't done any of that in weeks so my mental health had gotten better also in the middle of all of this one of my very close relatives died (they helped raise me and we would visit them every school holidays and on weekends) and I've just come out of a really bad depressive episode (crying also every day) and this friend I'm going to refer to as Z has been trying on purpose to make my life hell (actually told me that) also keep screaming all of us and specifically at my partner also keeps trying to get them to go on dates or something with them (I am not jealous I know they love me) but today was the breaking point (to preface my friend group is mostly ✨Queer✨ including this Z) so they started off the day strong with them announcing that they are a Trump supporter and talking about how great he is (pissing off all my friends) they would probably die if they lived in the US I don't understand it and then told me that I should go get eaten by a lion (tells me to kill myself regularly) (also I have had problems with this person in the past and I thought they had gotten through that) also I have been bullied a lot over the years and I become suicidal all the time and when they tell me this it really pisses me off and makes me really mad and sad and do not have control over my emotions or words (I absolutely hate it) and once they started pissing me off anything they do starts to piss me of (screaming, commenting on random shit I do, kinda hitting on my partner, calling me an idiot, making fun of me for random shit) and at one point I was shaking with anger and felt like I was going to punch them (I would've never forgiven myself if I had) they were walking up the stairs whilst I was trying to chill and not punch anything because they make me feel like absolute shit and I was trying not to cry and Z said to my friend *deadname* is looking at a bin (I was looking at the sky) also they call me woman all the time (im non-binary) and I have explicitly asked them not to because I find it dysphoric and they said that they would continue doing that (they do this with most of my friends who also find it dysphoric) and I would understand it if it was a thing they do all the time I would understand but they don't and they only do this to us.