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it's whatever x200

we ball x700

why am i incapable of truly caring for someone even at the platonic level

why do i feel nothing where love, whatever form it is supposed to take, should be

there is something broken inside me, i am sure, and loving will be a luxury until i somehow find it with my own hands and fix it

being deprived of a primal, essential feeling that has guided humanity for eons is nothing short of torture. everyone has someone they love, everyone has someone that loves them, while i get nauseous at the thought of ever having something remotely close to that, despite wanting it for so long

and until i can fix myself, having someone love me will be entirely selfish. i cannot give back when i have nothing in the first place.

from the moment you turn 11 you realize that your body itself is shameful or taboo

people have an easier time telling others esp men about drugs and alcohol than telling them about periods or the way women's bodies work

rarely are we ever properly told about what a woman goes through during pregnancy because many consider it disgusting or repulsive, your entire body is treated as a seductive vessel that must be covered at all times but also maintained and appealing enough

you have to act a certain way else you are deemed bossy or obnoxious or dumb or annoying or weird or crazy but you also have to be unique enough for some guy living in his mom's basement to send that fuckass lego batman gif

never are you to speak about your struggles of having a woman's body either because thats too embarrassing

and even then, even when you recognize the flaws in society and stop believing in them and speak up about them, there is a part of you that will forever feel shame and disgust when you're standing in front of the mirror bare, and you do not know what it is, but you know it wont leave