✸〜 vincent

im gonna have a good summer. im gonna have a good summer despite being physically disabled and mentally ill. who's with me? who wants to have a good summer?

i want all of you to know that i love you and that things will get better

oh how i love you all

if it wasn't for mum i don't think i would be a happy or good person

i will keep on living even in the condition i am in

i would never hate my mum. she's the reason why i get the things i need. she's the reason why i want to live longer. she's the reason why i am trying to become a better person. shes taught me so much, even when my skills regressed. even when i was being annoying, she's still there for me. sometimes i wish she could understand that my ocd has been hurting me a lot recently, but, unfortunately it is not diagnosed. but i know that once it is, she'll get me sooner than later. i cant stop now.

i love my mum though, shes keeping me safe. i haven't felt this safe ever since i was a toddler. god bless her.

remembering when my mum said "but she's so innocent!! she doesn't want that" when i came out to her as a plushophile and it really scared me. like really fucking scared me. ik that my mum has good intentions but i couldn't stop ruminating after that.

need to get my mrmrmr