im ralzei devilbeast & this is my personal blog of trinkets and touys. if thats not up ur alley idk what 2 say maybe find another place you like better. im also a median system and im kinda still figuring my shit out
my pronouns dot cc [work in progress]
@ralzei1997 goes by ralzei, ralzei1997 and uses it/its, he/him pronouns.
my tagging system ⬇️
#ralzei's reblogs: my tag for reblogs
#devilbeast speaks: my tag for original posts & any reblogs that add something of value. this one needs to be changed but im not in the mood to change it right now i did it
#fav: my favorite posts
#me: posts that remind me of myself in some way
#trigger warning: posts that might trigger me specifically and/or anyone else. sometimes i forget to tag this so maybe send me an ask about it!
#suggestive: posts that are suggestive in some way
#saving this 4 later: stuff im saving for later
#important: things i think are important
#vent: my vent posts
my interests ⬇️
art, animals, video games, the internet, homestuck* & its derivative media**, deltarune & undertale***, invader zim, anthro animals & objects****, neurodiversity*****, astronomy, plushies, and probably a bazillion other things im forgeting
*i dont support andrew hussie & im extremely critical of the comic and the fandom. also i'll probably never read act 6 #doingmyownthing actually no. i like jane i might read it for him
**especially sburb.exe & guidestuck
***iffy on toby's association with hussie
****the furry fandom sucks ass
*****i hate how ableist modern psychiatry is
dni list ⬇️
proshippers, radqueers, exclusionists, patricia taxxon/isff supporters, people who dont believe in transandrophobia/hate transmascs & trans men & other minority men on the basis of them being men/masculine, vivziepop supporters, andrew hussie supporters, kittycorn/getty better supporters, anti kink, anti endos, em essex supporters, loli/shotacons, fatphobes, punkitt supporters, flavour folly/jamie paige supporters. i block freely 👍
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I am everything that people tend to make fun of about men. I'm short, I have a micropenis, I had low T, I have a neckbeard, I'm insecure about my masculinity, and I act weird.
People have got to stop making fun of people for having these traits. Most of that shit is because I'm intersex. Intersexuality isn't a joke, so stop treating it like it is.
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Like not even in a sexual way, just in a "you don't need to be ashamed of this" bare minimum kinda way.
And the appreciation I DO see is always like "hey don't make fun of people for having micropenises. I'm sure they hate having a micropenis and feel dysphoria over it, so it's insensitive. I'm sure they cry themselves to sleep every night because of their affliction. I'm sure they're just as disgusted in themself as you are over their micropenis. They're the ones who have to live with such attrocities, so don't remind them of that unmentionable organ."
And like, what!? I like mine actually!
Dear Everyone out there with a micropenis: you are not alone!! I got a vulva down there as well, but my micropenis is my favorite part, come on!!! Not everyone has to hate their micropenis!!!! Wtf!!!!
Honestly as far as I'm concerned, using the Mercury symbol for intersex is the visual equivalent of the h-slur. For those who don't know, I'm talking about this symbol:
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This symbol started getting used by biologists as a shorthand for the h-slur. Remember: Mercury is also known as Hermes. This use in biology started with Linnaeus in the late 18th century.
The actual symbol originates as an abstraction of Hermes' caduceus. This thing:
Even though using the Mercury symbol for the h-slur in biology started before Americans turned the caduceus into a symbol of medicine, I gotta say, it adds a bit of extra salt in the wound for me. I personally don't like having a symbol of medicine being used for intersex, no thank you. 😬
Now I understand some intersex people want to reclaim the h slur. I personally don't, because the more I learn about the word the more irredeemably violent it becomes in my eyes.
I respect that others want to reclaim this slur. If reclaimers wanna use the symbol then at least I appreciate the internal consistency.
But I'm getting the sense that a bunch of people who are using this symbol for intersex are unaware of the meaning and history that comes with it. This is not a symbol that originates from the intersex community, this is a symbol that came from biology, and references a violent slur.
If you're gonna use the symbol, know what it means.
(I have seen multiple folks within the intersex community propose the Earth symbol 🜨 instead which I personally think is more suitable. I've also seen intersex folks here position Dionysus rather than Hermes or his unfortunate child as the better option for mythological allusions, which also gets a thumbs up from me personally.)
some of you are saying enemies to lovers when you mean rivals to lovers and some of you are saying enemies to lovers when you mean enemies with benefits. but these are all distinct categories
Research has shown that pleasure affects nutrient absorption. In a 1970s study of Swedish and Thai women, it was found that when the Thai women were eating their own (preferred) cuisine, they absorbed about 50% more iron from the meal than they did from eating the unfamiliar Swedish food. And the same was true in the reverse for the Swedish women. When both groups were split internally and one group given a paste made from the exact same meal and the other was given the meal itself, those eating the paste absorbed 70% less iron than those eating the food in its normal state.
Pleasure affects our metabolic pathways; it’s a facet of the complex gut-brain connection. If you’re eating foods you don’t like because you think it’s healthy, it’s not actually doing your body much good (it’s also unsustainable, we’re pleasure-seeking creatures). Eat food you enjoy, it’s a win-win.
The study referenced in the New York Times article I believe is this 1977 study. The information given is accurate, although some limitations should be noted: the study only measured iron absorption, in a specific demographic. Furthermore, whilst absorption may be linked to pleasure, it is limited by the actual nutritional content of the food.
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current idea: so if the circus gang are all brainscan copy ais, and caine is WEIRDLY lively and sentient for a supposed "pure" ai of his time, then it could've been pretty damn interesting if caine too was a brainscan-based AI like all the others. but to differentiate him from the rest of the "humans", and to give more connections and depth to the main story and mysteries and whatnot, caine could be a combination of multiple human brainscans offered by the developers and spliced together, putting together the strongest and most "efficient" traits of all of them to create sentient digital life as part of the first experiments leading up to the circus. on that note "abel"/the blue dot would also be a brainscan fusion ai, and caine fusing with it could also be explained with the logic of putting different brainscans together and how caine managed to learn that himself
this could also extend to the npcs, perhaps because caine learned to manipulate files within his own digital realm he could learn to create new blank copies of the file format those brainscans could've used and "fill in the blanks" with new data he analyzed and innovated on from other human brain scans, because he is an inquisitive and constantly learning ai. it could explain why some npcs feel expectedly cartoonish and others feel unexpectedly human, they are already born from a basis created from digital emulation of the human mind itself, basically meaning that there's zero difference between the circusgoers and any of the npcs whatsoever, besides the method of creation (being copied directly from a scanned human brain itself vs entirely coded from scratch by caine). might make that scene between gummigoo and pomni become even more emotionally resonant and foreshadowy, gummigoo is human and machine, and so too is pomni.
idk it would make the whole thing of "brain scans" even more woven into the plot, the backstory, the mystery, just everything surrounding the circus instead of just being "ooohhh that plottwist from SOMA was pretty cool lemme just stick it in my story and not consider anything else ever again"
another adjacent idea to this is the idea of the devs' brainscans working in conjunction with their human progenitors on the program, instead of them being entirely separate entities who never meet, probably cuz it could be cool and add a lot of depth and weird psychological shit into the backstory of these characters. how would you feel if right after being stuck in a new place you were immediately told you're not real by the real you speaking from outside where you are, wouldn't that be fucked up. actually maybe the devs could probably tell themselves they were gonna be clones before cloning themselves for less immenent psychological clone distress but still. maybe they stopped telling the dev clones they were actually clones and kept themselves as anonymous voices because they found out the clones who already knew they were clones actually fell into abstraction way quicker. maybe this is something caine also had to learn so he ends up keeping a shitton of these dark secrets from the main cast despite being a goofy wacky show host who wants to make friends and all that out of fear of them abstracting. interesting contrast that could be given to caine
current idea: so if the circus gang are all brainscan copy ais, and caine is WEIRDLY lively and sentient for a supposed "pure" ai of his time, then it could've been pretty damn interesting if caine too was a brainscan-based AI like all the others. but to differentiate him from the rest of the "humans", and to give more connections and depth to the main story and mysteries and whatnot, caine could be a combination of multiple human brainscans offered by the developers and spliced together, putting together the strongest and most "efficient" traits of all of them to create sentient digital life as part of the first experiments leading up to the circus. on that note "abel"/the blue dot would also be a brainscan fusion ai, and caine fusing with it could also be explained with the logic of putting different brainscans together and how caine managed to learn that himself
this could also extend to the npcs, perhaps because caine learned to manipulate files within his own digital realm he could learn to create new blank copies of the file format those brainscans could've used and "fill in the blanks" with new data he analyzed and innovated on from other human brain scans, because he is an inquisitive and constantly learning ai. it could explain why some npcs feel expectedly cartoonish and others feel unexpectedly human, they are already born from a basis created from digital emulation of the human mind itself, basically meaning that there's zero difference between the circusgoers and any of the npcs whatsoever, besides the method of creation (being copied directly from a scanned human brain itself vs entirely coded from scratch by caine). might make that scene between gummigoo and pomni become even more emotionally resonant and foreshadowy, gummigoo is human and machine, and so too is pomni.
idk it would make the whole thing of "brain scans" even more woven into the plot, the backstory, the mystery, just everything surrounding the circus instead of just being "ooohhh that plottwist from SOMA was pretty cool lemme just stick it in my story and not consider anything else ever again"
additional note. why do we call it “religious experience.” shouldn’t it be a “spiritual experience.” “religious experience” implies one is like, connecting with a specific religious doctrine or something. like you orgasm so good that you specifically fully grasp the talmud
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this is one of the most fucked up images nintendo has ever created why is fucking THUMB WRESTLING one of your premier new sports are you insane koizumi
It's been just over a year since Deltarune chapters 3 & 4 released! I did the 3D work, which mostly means Tenna 📺 I figured it's been long enough to share some "behind the scenes" stuff, starting with a look at the Maya file for his static poses...
I'd individually render the poses to get that early 3D shine ✨ Here's some of them at their original resolutions! I would work from text descriptions from Toby, and sometimes there'd be a Paint sketch to help out. Gigi drew the concept that I modeled from and some poses too!
I had a lot of fun pushing myself to match the dynamic poses Toby had in mind for Tenna - making him so crazy and expressive was something I couldn't have done without his prompts. He'd draw the faces on afterward too, which really brought Tenna to life!
(lots more after the Read More cut...!)
Here are some of the Paint sketches Toby drew to help me with specific Tenna poses! I love seeing his drawings LOL, genuinely really good and evocative 👍
There was a time when I was struggling to capture what he wanted for these specific Tenna poses… Until Toby acted them out himself, and I thought, "Ah, it's like that. I understand." and then I was able to make them just how he pictured them.
When looking through the renders and choosing what to share, I laughed at these two… Remember when Tenna had a gun? Remember when he bent over in a very specific way that might remind you of another, different image? No? Maybe you don't…? Well. Don't worry about it.
These ones are cute… Tenna is pretty cute sometimes! Has anyone ever thought this? Actually, before people knew he was going to be a strange 3D sprite the Whole Time, I was worried people wouldn't like the style and it'd sour people's views on him. I'm glad that didn't happen.
Toby thought it would be funny to have Tenna do some really smooth, mocapped animations sometimes - specifically free to use ones that often pop up in other things. An extra funny part to me is how many frames these take up in the game, and how his tails are stuck to his legs…
Speaking of mocap, Toby wanted Tenna to use custom mocap animations as far back as 2016 - Ten(na) years ago! I got an Xbox Kinect at the time and learnt how to set this up, but then never used it. Here's a look at messing with mocaped stuff again in 2022. So Normal.
Don't bother trying to help him here, he's just being dramatic 🙄
I particularly like these poses - I think I improvised most of these just based off the context they get used in… I always liked posing his tie and coat tails as if they were also parts of his body he could move. Which I guess they are?
After I rendered out the individual poses in high quality, I'd force the color palette to be limited to just a few shades and then I'd shrink the result down to pixel sized sprites. Like these! I'd tidy them up a little, but they'd really get improved on at the pixel scale by Clairvoire.
As well as Tenna's sprites, I also worked on his intro "movie"…! Seeing people be completely overloaded by this on first playthroughs would always make me laugh. In game, there's a ton of extra editing done by Everdraed, but my unedited cut looks like this ⬇️
This was the entire storyboard I had to work from, and I'm realizing now that there's the note "put him in car etc" that I never did and actually don't know what it would mean exactly. Working on this had me listen to the accompanying audio many times, but it's good so it's okay.
Here are a bunch of random clips of the Maya project for Tenna's intro movie. This is how movies get made, I think!! Yeah… Just like this.
Say it with him, folks!!
For the 3D Ralsei clip from the intro, Toby really wanted it to look a certain way, and drew more sketches for guiding me with this part than any other. They genuinely helped.
Remember how Toby's original storyboard has the note "covered in slime and shrinks"? That meant I had to learn how to make 3D slime. You can see my tech advancing here.
I'm really happy with how the final Tenna animation at the end of the intro movie turned out! It wouldn't look as good if it wasn't for some 2D animation to reference from SmallBuStudio, so thank you to them for the help! Tenna is cute… Huh, I already said that…?
Phew!! That's a lot of Tenna. I hope it was fun to look through my posts! Oh, one more thing - the Fangamer Mr. Tenna Figurine just straight up uses the 3D model I made, which I think is really funny and cool and nice. Check it out if you want! Thanks for reading!
