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I had a guess that sometime soon id have a crush that would make me go wild in ways that i feel like i am very good at not allowing to happen normally. It has arrived. I think.

retry : ) my roommate is a low key (sex)pest who will neverrr get it. like he genuinely thinks i stopped talking to him for over a week because of short term behavior. no. it's cuz all his creepiness and disrespect of anyone who isn't super similar to him since the time i have known him. the way he gets blackout drunk and says despicable things about women and yet his absolute need to be validated by them. SAD.

had the type of weekend where now i think i am being punished for my hedonism

i have over 100% in my darkroom photo class he he my final project is going to be about trans and dance and music stuff i am scared i cant live up to the expectationns but also idc. the important part is that i can now take photos on my camera, process the film, and develop prints on my own.

sometimes one thing im thinking makes me remember a joke or funny moment between me and my ex and i still laugh out loud. sorry to say we were very funny and on some weird wavelength that will not exist again.

feeling depressed because spring break is over and i have to go back to work and class. the day before I have to go back after an extended time off makes me feel awful every time.