Diva / imkalla

i’m popping here just to say that i finally started doing my study work.

*applause*

The winter break was very intense for me, a lot of inner child healing and cleansing. I was so busy with all that processing i hadn’t had much energy for everything else.

I love getting more and more self aware. It helps with so much stuff. I discovered so much about me and my ancestors. I’m working to make my life so so so much better and i’m so grateful.

All in all, i really neglected my study work. For good reasons - yeah - but it needs to be done on time and i really don’t like stressing. I’m aware i started late but i’ve got determination and want to make a lot in a short time. The quality might be downgraded but -hey, it’s gonna be done, isn’t it?

Today i started doing one of my biology work, which is a herbarium. Here’s a pic.

I also listened to this beautiful song whilst working on the herbarium. If you haven’t already, check it out!

As you can see my stuff is all lied out on the floor. I think it’s gonna take me only 2 more hours to finish. Which i’ll do when i wake up as i’m currently heading to sleep.

(it’s really late i‘m not gonna lie around 4 am)

I have only 3 days to finish my tasks and leave the town for studies again. I’ll miss it. But i also want to point out that i was a lot more organised when i was living on my own. So, there’s that.

Anyway, i hope you have a beautiful day and do your duolingo streak.

so i have this big exam coming tomorrow and i sat to study yesterday evening. The thing was that i couldn’t focus. So instead of learning and annotating my pdf like a normal student would when they have an exam in 2 days, I -in fact- opened the document and then after scrolling for 20 min started drawing on it.

So, enjoy the doodling.

Also i might have had a Taylor Swift song in my head at the time.

Hi,

a few weeks ago i posted that i was finishing “The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo” by Taylor Jenkins Reid.

I did it.

I finished it -although it was actually about two weeks ago on my night train ride, that i did.

I wanted to take some time to think about what the book means to me and also i was quite busy those past two weeks. Studies, uh.

So, someone wants a review? Here it goes, but just a little disclaimer that it will contain spoilers.

The story is very intriguing from the begging. We are welcome with the mystery of seven marriages of the icon actress Evelyn Hugo, who is being “interviewed” by Monique - our second narrator. They are writing a biography. Evelyn takes us on a journey to her past, telling us in details about her life - how did she became popular and what are the costs of that lifestyle.

Each of the husband has its own section in the book as the story unfolds. It makes the book more structured. Also, above each name of each man there are some adjectives describing them, which i think is a nice insight to the story.

What i also think is quite clever are the unspoken words Evelyn says while retrospecting. I caught pretty early on that Harry Cameron is a gay man. I would love to say that it was actually written all over his face, but- well, i’ve never seen him. She did hint he was part of the queer community, though she never said it - and that’s what gave it away for me. That’s also why i kind of expected the queer motive to pop up some more in the book. I wasn’t surprised when she fell in love with Celia or when she found out she was bisexual.

I think those are extremely important parts of the book. Because it shaped her, and we get to know where it came from. Also because at the beginning of the book there is a question stated: “Who was the love of Evelyn Hugo? Which husband did she loved the most? Who was the one for her?” She gladly tells us that the love of her life was no man - it was her wife. This shows us a common misconception about public figures. We might think we know them but we don’t. Every celebrity out there has their own private life we know nothing about. What’s in the paper and on all the photos is a daydream, a fairytale told to sell. It’s all just for the right publicity. She tells us exactly that we might think we know, but we don’t.

I think it’s also very interesting how she talks about her marriages and divorces. I remember that one quote she said while she was taking with Monique. It says:

“Heartbreak is loss, divorce is a piece of paper.”

I think it’s beautiful in its honesty. I loved to see her different takes on marriage and divorce. It made me reflect on my own life, where my parents are, as of exactly today, finally divorced. It made me see the fallout of love in a different perspective. The divorce is essentially a heartbreak. So simple yet it took me a lot of time contemplating to finally feel the weight of those words. It was heartbreaking on its own.

Thinking about it especially in my 20s is a weird sensation. The questions flooding: How to prevent heartbreak from happening? Can we even prevent it? How can we choose our marriages wisely enough so there is less risk of it?

Let’s take an example in Monique. A young journalist, on the verge of divorce. She has so many questions about it, so many thoughts. Talking with Evelyn eventually gives her the courage and awareness to make the right step and divorce her husband. They did not fit. It felt like a failure. But she was still young. She just had to see it. She also had to find herself, as we get to know at the end of the book, it was not an accident for the two of them to meet.

Lets finish this long “review” which is really just what i think about the book tbh.

In summary: i like it. I like how many motives it has, how it makes you rethink how you view the world just a little bit. How it comes to your mind at a random moment, pops a scene in your head then fades away slowly, but just enough, so the thought of it could linger in your mind. And i think what i love about it, but haven’t mentioned it, is how it really shows us a female character and her life. Essentially a woman, but with world expectations around her. How she was twisting and turning to survive, but found her way into this world. She made a mark, created something that will outlive her, and she lived a life, showed in this book.

If you read all the way here,

thank you,

and have a beautiful day <33

recently i tried to pay more attention to what surrounds me. As i’m walking down the street, as i’m crossing the road, as i wait at the bus stop.

I look around. I look down and up.

And i want to focus here on the “looking up”. I think we don’t usually look at what’s above us. We mostly see what’s on our eye level.

But as i was walking back to my dorm - the weather sunny, music playing in my headphones, gentle breeze on my skin - i looked up. I looked up next to this sad-looking building, it’s condition is bad as you can see in the photo, but it has its charm. I mean it’s architecture.

Looking up i actually saw the shape of the building, how tall it stands. How the shape draws the lines in the sky. How it was nice looking at it. So nice i took a photo.

Yes. I am that person - i see it, i like it, i want a photo of it, and i got a photo of it.

Shameless, that’s what i am in those situations. (And that’s also why my gallery is full and i have to buy space on icloud+)

I want to encourage you to look up. On your way home, on your way to work, school, grocery store - whatever is may be (just a walk is great) - look up, and then, take a photo of what you see.

Life suddenly is more interesting. Funny that.

Sending kisses.

PS. If you happen to do the photo. Send it to me, or comment it. I would love to see what you can see when you look up.

I’ve started reading “The seven husbands of Evelyn Hugo” by T.J. Raid.

I am about to finish it.

When i first started reading it i was intrigued. Then i was interested. Then i got bored. Put it down for a bit and picked it up again. Then i started reading it just so i don’t use my phone in my free time. The screen was too much. Then i got into the story, wanted to follow it. Now i’m near the end.

The book essentially is about the life of Evelyn. She tells you all of it. And that’s …very …like …contemplative for me.

I started to get into the book. As i followed the plot i started to like the main character (which is Evelyn), i liked how witty she was. Then i got intrigued by Monique - i wanted to know more about her life. But i learned more about Evelyn’s instead. So i dived deep into her story. As i got to know her more she started to irritate me. Her choices made me roll my eyes but also i felt compassion for her. Life is not easy. And she was telling her story. Her life story. All the things that made her the person she was and all the events that made her who she was. I want to finish this book, but i know it’s got a surprising ending. And i don’t know if i want to know the whole truth about Evelyn Hugo’s life. But i will soon.

If i was feeling better today i would tell you more about what i think of that book. But as i do feel a little sick and want to shower and go to bed i will not do so.

There are a few parts that i particularly like, so i might post some quotes. I’m bookmarking them.

At Centennial Hall in #Wrocław there are quite a few fountains as you can see in the gif. They dance to the music and the lights change to the rhythm.

I went with my roommate. The show went for about 80minutes. The weather in October is colder here but fortunately it didn’t rain and i was happy because i did not bring the umbrella. Though a scarf was a necessity.

Moving on.

I really liked the show. I like those kind of stuff. When you watch the water splash and dance. Again and again. You can see the lights change and music play. You are welcome to a different world, where you can shift your focus. It allows you to detach from reality for a moment and i like that experience. When you go somewhere deep into your mind and suddenly it’s only you, all the people disappear. It’s you and your thoughts. And then the fountains. And the lights. Aaand the music.

The music is the thing that brings you back, actually. Because when it changes, the magic pops like a bubble. The tempo changes and the previous atmosphere vanishes. But it is a good thing. It allows you to be present and keeps you grounded for the most part.

It was a good time.

It is my proper first weekend after the studies began. I do feel a bit off. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but i feel off. Right now i also feel sick. I know for sure that i am NOT sick. But i do feel like it.

Hello 👋🏻 ,

so, i’m a brand new student 👩‍🎓 and i’m going to post stuff here, so that this whole experience would be more enjoyable.

I’m currently living in a city of Wrocław and you’ll probably gonna see a lot of that city here. Because i’ve never lived here before i’m going to tour the city as much as i can while going to university and dealing with gradually cooler weather. Because it’s autumn 🍂 and the wind here is CRAZY. Ehm, anyway.

I love poetic stuff so i might play a philosopher sometimes, so prepare. Also prepare for random opinions and stories, updates about my life and others - you’ll basically get to know me. So, follow me on this journey or not - i’m still gonna post, because i think it’s fun.

Kisses,

me 🦋

Ps. The photo is mine and the place in the photo is in Wrocław, Poland and is called “Centennial Hall”. Beautiful place with fountains that dance to the music. Majestic place. If you like looking at nice things - that’s one of them.