no thought head empty

We love dinosaurs collectively, always have, and found a fb group dedicated to dino toy photography!

What the actual hell is wrong with people. I woke up yesterday to a friend, well ex friend now, letting me know out of the blue that they no longer wanted to be friends because I "don't care about their life."

I have for the past couple months been having them over every week to use my washer/dryer, have set aside time to hang out for laundry and push off my own things until they go home after. We've had deep conversations about life, interests, etc etc. They are on disability and need some help with things and I have always been happy to help, let them use my things, helped clean their house, and give them gifts. I have been there to listen and give advice on problems, etc. Regular friend things to show that I care 🤷. Also always supporting their endeavors like pet sitting and considering going back to school for dog grooming. They blocked me immediately after sending their message so, no room for conversation, and then posted some vague thing on their fb. A different friend sent it to me, it said something or other about how heartbreaking it is to find out your friends don't care about you. I unfortunately struggle with fibromyalgia, had surgery recently, do full time school, and nearly full time work so I don't always have lots of time to give or energy to give. It's a slap in my face that giving what I could clearly was not enough.

Pinned, wings spread wide, exposed

each thin metal prick a testament to the weight on my back

pushing down sharp to cork board

hang me on the wall stare at me through the glass

am I beautiful from the outside, do you see my twitches of movement?

my tiny insignificant signs of life?

a desperate struggle to fly

flutter wings unbound through the open blue

pollinate the smallest daisies you unthinkingly step on