[ ็้้ปๆณ ] today i offer my palms to dead lands and muted streets before death seams my eyelids, sews me in the skin of all the earth and sleeps forever in my hands.
โโ ย the fact that this death fails to destroy me altogether means that i want to live wildly, madly, and that therefore the fear of my own death is always there, not displaced by a single inch.
# ย ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ย ย - ย independent, low-activity, headcanon-based ย ๐บ๐ธ๐บ๐๐พ ย from the anime / manga of the feudal fairytale titled ๐๐๐ข๐ฆ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐. re-established once again, with mix portrayal of both the anime and manga kept in mind, but overall considered to be canon-divergent. cherished forever by ailli ( she / 25+ ) and formerly known as : ofbellflowers.
GUIDELINES / QUICK RULE SNIPPET
1) this was a childhood series for me, and because of that it has been a very long time since i genuinely engaged with this content. because of this, there are a great many things i have forgotten and while i will attempt to rewatch / re-read certain scenes, my main focus will primarily be of kikyo and her role.
2) the love triangle, while it was a major component to the canon characterization of certain characters, it will not be for myย kikyo. she will always carry complicated feelings for those two, but it will still carry a deep level of respect and distance. i, of course, will not force anyone to fit in my interpretation and i would appreciate to be given that same courtesy. the ship war is stupid, kikyo just wanna pick flowers with kids.ย
3) there is a very big difference between kikyo who was alive 50 years ago and the kikyo was remade 50 years later. a large component was how living kikyoโs powers was greatly connected to her emotions, and how she pushed herself to be exceptionally different from other humans. undead kikyo is not confined to this limitation. her powers is no longer intertwined with her emotions, nor is she as restricted as before. this blog focuses on the newer outlook she receives, her fascination, her pettiness, the joy / pain of re-living again, and accepting the inevitability of her fate. kikyo will always be a powerful priestess regardless of timelines, and i will not limit the extent of her abilities and intuition in anyway. her death(s) were very circumstantial and will not represent the gauges of her overall capabilities.
4) over all, this blogs want to put an emphasis aboutย โhow healthy it is to move onโ and for kikyo to truly experience that. i want her to establish long-lasting relationships and explore how it would influence her. friendships who can empathize with her, kin-ship and familial ties who can allow her to further her own personal growth. relationships are important, and frankly i want people to see that kikyo is more socially awkward than how she presents herself.ย
5) I DO NOT PRACTICE EXLUSIVITY WITH ANYONE, especially given how small this fandom is. i also will forego the concept of mains at this time. this blog is single-ship with :ย kaimettsu. HOWEVER, unless otherwise plotted, this does not change the canon / lore that is related to kikyo and her tragedy. the rule only means i am not interested in writing more romantic ships, at this time since i am incredibly busy. platonic / friendship / kinship is highly encouraged.
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๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐.silence forever a chosen contender within the cracks of solitary. so many years had changed them. so many words said. so many experiences shattering any remnants of sweet yesteryears. there is no going back from any of this. not when she once held a dagger to his throat, not when he questioned her character time and time again. the trust between them was already broken long before the spider tore into their tale.
and she has grown so dreadfully tired of this twisted fate.
โ distance is necessary between us. โ marble lips utters at his presence. gentle like snowfall with a little hint of bittersweet sadness. there is forever nostalgia whispered in the air. she was no longer suffocating. โ โ but nevertheless, i do sincerely wish for your happiness and peace.โ // @thesilvermoonrays
kikyo, when she was alive, was considered a shinto miko whose powers was closely intertwined with the kami amaterasu. she preformed in the classic purification rituals, prayers, and was adept in strengthening her communication with the divine. needless to say, she is also well-verse in countless of feudal ceremonies that involves song and dance. her spiritual abilities was originally discovered when she was young and from then on, she was sent away to study under a notable shaman. her lifestyle since became extremely strict, but her powers only grew stronger by the day. her dedication and devotion to amaterasu originally marked her as beloved by the gods, but even the divine is shown to be quite petty the moment the miko begins to stray emotionally.
kikyo's abilities is said to have withered the moment she begins to fall in love, but in all likelihood it just conflicted with her original vows of abstinence ( even a simple kiss was seen to be incredibly scandalous ). kikyo's downfall was that she was slowly turning away from the practices that raised her and not because of tsubaki's curse / her emotions. the fact that she was implied to have been sent to hell --- also shows how much the kami's did not forgive her for tainting her original oath to them. nevertheless, the bond between kikyo and the gods was severed and when she finally returned to the land of the living, it was clear that those restriction no longer confined her. ironically, kikyo only became even more powerful dead then she was alive.
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VERSUS / XV : once considered an extraordinary priestess in ancient times, kikyo lived in an isolated territory that was later claimed by the kingdom of tenebrae. more accurately, she once belonged to the oracle tribe gentiana hailed from ( unlike xv, gentiana was the oracle in versus. ) kikyo was originally marked by the fal'cie lindzei, but following her untimely death, it was etro who took mercy on her pitiful soul. reborn to modern lucis, kikyo continues to exhibit unusual and unique abilities that is considered exclusive to tenebrae. following the fall of lucis and niflheim invasion, kikyo serves as healer to the displaced regardless of affiliation. due to her prior passing with etro, kikyo too maintains her death-seeing eyes.
MODERN : due to the events of the final act feudal fairytale, kikyo's great soul was split into two. the first one being that in which kagome and the shikon jewel are reborn, and the other being the combined essence of the spirit kikyo and midoriko. kikyo is reborn once more with kaede. due to her talents and educational merits, kikyo follows a career path befitting that of a doctor. however, despite the modern lifestyle, kikyo still maintains a heightened sense of spiritual abilities and alertness.
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. one of vengeance and the other dancing alongside the fine line of love and hatred. the spider and bell-flora. his beginning and her end, their fate intertwined and painted with the bloodiest red. porcelain features beheld timeless attribute, her gaze ever-defiant and noble remains uplifted with divine confidence. she commanded his heart was the undeniable truce between overwhelming powers. free to move, free to run, free to laugh. how terrifyingly ironic that it had been this twisted bond to free her from her pitiful state of mortality.... she abhorred it : her own existence and righteous oath.
โ the only way i am able to appear before you, is simply if you or rather your heart, willed it to be. โ calm exterior manifest within the clarity of her lips. yes, she abhorred him. however, there is still a purpose left for his unforgivable life. the jewel and this halfling shall share the same end, that is her promise she shall make to him alone. ( does that bring you joy, onigumo ? ) the priestess that once offered him clemency, had ultimately given her untimely demise. she shall do the same to him as penance. she teases, โ unless perhaps you seek to recreate the first time we had encountered each other ? โ back when he was a bandit, broken and defeated. she holds back her smile at the absurdity of such remark. โ you are certainly as miserable as you were then. are you hoping for another treatment from your dearest kikyo ? โ
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๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ nimble fingers labors through demonic effervescent. sharp and suffocating : it tears through unseen flesh and atoms until it is met with holy retribution. behold, the power of a priestess. purity-wielded. virtuous. restrained. ebony strands tugs alongside faded gesture and ivory ribbon. silence commands certainty, and with it comes prodigal potency. she has never lacked for skills, and sending prayers was nothing more than routine. the gods scorn her and the demons fears her perfection. gentle diligence whispers orison from her lips and as she turns to you, she regals you with her own keen observation.
โ your heart ... is troubled, is it not ? โ she can sense yearning hidden within the mist. an unhealthy obsession nearly in par with a deceitful spider, and yet unlike him, in the place of hatred was overshadowed with love. โ this fog is connected to you. or rather, it was made for you. โ the problem lies deeper in the unknown and regardless of it's intent the fact remains that it must be destroyed. โ if you allow me, i can end it and the fog should no longer haunt you. but, know that you will never receive the closure you seek. is this what you desire ? โ
โ close your eyes and hold out your hands. โ
โ what are you smiling at? โ
โ i canโt leave you alone for one minute, can i? โ
โ was it you? did you do all this? โ
โ i donโt know how you do this every dayโฆ โ
โ that is not an appropriate question to ask a lady youโve just met. โ
โ iโm not sorry. โ
โ i did warn you not to trust me. โ
โ do you remember anything? at all? โ
โ youโre lucky youโre cute. โ
โ why donโt you just kill me? โ
โ did you hurt yourself? โ
โ i could show you the way. โ
โ i donโt feel so good. โ
โ you owe me a dinner. a very nice dinner. โ
โ donโt go. please. โ
โ you wanna know what your problem is? โ
โ iโm here to drink alone. โ
โ donโt run away from this. โ
โ iโm just saying, murder is an option. โ
โ i didnโt realize you were in so much pain. โ
โ i guess it runs in the family, huh? โ
โ you wouldnโt understand. โ
โ weโve been through a lot. i think we should just lay low and take it easy. โ
โ dangerous to be out so late. โ
โ i hope you havenโt been standing out in the cold this whole time. โ
โ i made a mistake. โ
โ am i not good enough? โ
โ iโm going to get you out of here. โ
โ why did you bring me here? โ
โ arenโt we in a good mood today? โ
โ donโt shut me out. please. โ
โ the stormโs getting worse. โ
โ i never meant to hurt you. โ
โ youโre about as intimidating as a butterfly. โ
โ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? โ
โ here, take this. youโll catch a cold. โ
โ this is the part where you leave. โ
โ why are you talking like weโll never see each other again? โ
โ you stepped on my foot! โ
โ youโre not a very convincing liar. โ
โ weโre in completely different leagues. โ
โ how did you find me? โ
โ i donโt need you anymore. โ
โ rough day today? โ
โ snap out of it! โ
โ you look better in my clothes than i do. โ
โ why are you still here? โ
โ can i askโฆ what happened? โ
โ are you saying you care about me? โ
โ i wonโt let anyone hurt you. โ
โ itโs not stealing if it was mine to begin with. โ
โ well, this is where i live. โ
โ weโre not so different after all. โ
โ how long have i been asleep? โ
โ no more lies, no more secrets. โ
โ can you forgive me? โ
โ i thought youโฆ i saw you get shot. โ
โ why are you really here? โ
โ i wish we never met. โ
โ you look like you need a hug. โ
โ would you run away with me? โ
โ see? iโm not just a pretty face. โ
โ we can stop them. i can help you. โ
โ what now? iโm tired. โ
โ i didnโt want you to see me like this. โ
โ i canโt do this without you. โ
โ if you tell me yours, iโll tell you mine. โ
โ are you threatening me? โ
โ did you ever care about me? โ
โ treat me like the princess that i am! โ
โ iโm not leaving you. โ
โ why did you come? โ
โ i need your helpโฆ and you need mine. โ
โ i wish i could hate you. โ
โ i see you donโt recognize me. well, it was a long time ago. โ
โ youโve lost a lot of blood. โ
โ i had my suspicions, but until now i wasnโt sure. โ
โ thereโs nothing left for me here. โ
โ that isโฆ literally illegal. youโre describing something illegal. โ
โ wait. iโve heard that sound before. โ
โ just try to hang on. โ
โ so whyโs it so important anyway? โ
โ iโll stay in tonight, thanks. โ
โ we canโt keep going on like this. โ
โ in about a minute, youโll be sorry you didnโt listen to me. โ
โ is this seat taken? sorry, itโs a bit crowded here. โ
โ you canโt leave me here alone! โ
โ iโll believe it when i see it. โ
โ why are you laughing? this is a very serious situation. โ
โ i bought two. here. โ
โ iโve seen you before, walking by. โ
โ why canโt i come with you? โ
โ c'mon. arenโt you worried what might happen if we go? โ
โ walk with me? โ
โ itโs very rude to stare. โ
โ how many times have i told you? you canโt visit me here. โ
โ we canโt fix this. can we? โ
โ are you going to kill me? โ
โ itโs not like you can stop me. โ
โ itโs not safe for people to see us together. โ
โ take me with you. โ
โ some risks are worth taking. โ
โ let them go. take me instead. โ
โ what do you want in exchange for it? โ
โ is being drunk an excuse? โ
โ promise me you wonโt overreact. โ
โ how can i possibly trust you? after all youโve done. โ
โ how long have you been standing there? โ
โ why did you wake me? โ
โ iโm not here to talk about my feelings. โ
โ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? โ
โ for some reason, iโm attracted to you. โ
โ promise me? โ
โ itโs nothing, iโm just tired. โ
โ i feel safe with you. โ
โ i donโt need your help. โ
โ i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do. โ
โ no way, iโm not doing that. โ
โ i do care. โ
โ you snore in your sleep. itโs adorable. โ
โ i have a spare bed. โ
โ youโre very kind. some day itโll get you killed. โ
โ youโll always have a home with me. โ
โ of course i care. youโre my family. โ
โ you shouldnโt insult people that are bigger than you. โ
โ i never wanted to hurt you. โ
โ i swear it wasnโt me. โ
โ we can just sit here, you donโt have to talk. โ
โ did you miss me? โ
โ this isnโt just about you. itโs about whatโs best for all of us. โ
โ you can never admit when youโre wrong! โ
โ is this what you wanted? โ
โ what are you doing out here by yourself? โ
โ sorry to put you through that. i guess i owe you one now. โ
โ the only time you talk to me is when you need something. โ
โ iโm still learning. โ
โ if you have something to say, spit it out. โ
โ youโฆ donโt like me very much, do you? โ
โ iโm on your side. โ
โ i risked my life for you! โ
โ whatever youโre going to ask, the answer is no. โ
โ you can stay with me. โ
โ i just need time. โ
โ please donโt do this, donโt act like you care. โ
โ who the hell invited you? โ
โ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? โ
โ i just wanted to say iโm sorry. โ
โ think of it as a compliment. โ
โ do you ever stop being so serious and dull? โ
โ itโs rare to see your kind around here. โ
โ you remember me. thatโs good. โ
โ youโre a terrible flirt you know. โ
โ are you kidding me? weโre not โfineโ! โ
โ right now i wish i was dead. โ
โ i guess i shouldโve told you. โ
โ youโre not alone. iโm here. โ
โ youโve been so quiet. whatโs on your mind? โ
โ knowledge is power. โ
โ you scared me. โ
โ well, whatโs so strange about that? โ
โ donโt look at me like that. โ
โ i want to be there when you get whatโs coming to you. โ
โ just who do you think you are? โ
โ you lookโฆ amazing. โ
โ weโre safe, arenโt we? โ
โ you know, i really hoped iโd never see this place again. โ
โ donโt touch me. get away from me. โ
โ i thought youโd like this. โ
โ itโs too dark, i canโt see anything. โ
โ whatโs that smug look for? you think you can do any better? โ
โ who did you piss off this time? โ
โ you shouldโve thought about that before you got into a fight. โ
โ i only wanted to help. โ
โ you knew and you didnโt tell me? โ
โ you donโt scare me. โ
โ wow, look who remembered my existence. โ
โ change isnโt easy. โ
โ why did you help me? โ
โ why do you hate me? โ
โ i canโt even trust myself anymore. โ
โ i was making sure you werenโt dead, since you never called. โ
โ you look awful. what happened? โ
โ are you here to kill me? โ
โ you know you arenโt allowed in here, right? โ
โ was that a friend of yours? โ
โ two years later and you havenโt changed. โ
โ you look like you just saw a ghost. โ
โ nobody tells me what to do. โ
โ youโre too scared to do it, arenโt you? โ
โ come on. it canโt be that bad. โ
โ i hope to repay your kindness someday. โ
โ just let me do this for you. โ
โ why were they coming after you? โ
โ how many people have you killed? how many? โ
โ how much do you value your life? โ
โ you donโt know when to give up, do you? โ
โ donโt lie to me. โ
โ iโm not sober enough to talk about this. โ
โ have a drink with me. โ
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