A Dance of Flames and Shadows

He was. I remember some of our encounters so vividly that I couldn’t even describe them here. And as we’ve also mentioned this matter, your jealousy actually feeds my pride.

Tell me about your demon if you wish!

I know a few details, but I don’t remember my appearance fully, which might be due to the fact that, as a shadow demon, I was able to shift into several forms. I’m not sure if I even had one original form, but I know the selection of shapes I could take was limited.

There are, however, two of my forms that I do remember. One of them was one I did mention on this blog before, a giant, dragon-like creature, entirely made of what I assume to be shadow, and what looked a bit like smoke. Its head was typically dragon shaped, with two large horns and a couple smaller ones, and despite mostly looking like a mere silhouette, its glowing eyes were clearly visible. It had no hind legs, but its fore ones and wings were two separate sets of limbs, and it supported itself on its tail, gliding across the ground, as if imitating a slithering motion.

The other one was my human form. I was slightly taller than average, and of course took care to give myself an attractive body type. My hair was a chestnut shade of brown, and my eyes were light green. They had a piercing glance to them, which was intentional too, since I aimed for an appearance that was human, but had just the slightest hints of something being not quite normal, so people would be nervous around me when I wanted them to, without knowing why.

I drew a small sketch of that form once. The image is rather old, but I’m still quite fond of it.

I understand, I’m fairly certain I used to gain a partial amount of my energy in similar ways, except I didn’t do it through sexual encounters. As a being of pride and wrath, I’d rather draw strength out of being admired, or feared, ideally both at the same time. It was rather amusing and uplifting to know that others looked up at me, unsure if they should try to approach me, or run from me as fast as they could.

[from last] whole Heaven vs Hell/God vs Satan kinda thing. As best as i can figure, I’m not Abrahamic, and am able to kinda float/travel around various other non-earthly realms. Unfortunately I really dont have many clear memories. The ones I have are the seduction & intense fucking of that angel i mentioned, the look of my home, and this beverage I used to drink. My home was in a gigantic city, like my home was to modern Tokyo as modern Tokyo is to Pinckney, Michigan. Aesthetically it was mostly gothic & what we call victorian (though some areas bordered on art deco & art nouveau). lots of carved stone, leaded glass, iron beams, heavy stone blocks, etc. very dark outside, mostly fire based lighting like oil lamps, fireplaces, & brazers. Lots of blacks & grays, but also reds, purples, & golds especially inside. many different kinds of creatures living there, mostly demons, but almost certainly others. the city was massive, lots of 100+ story spireseach tower was almost like it’s own city in itself. almost all of the spires had various walkways connecting them. I used to love this outdoor lounge on a high terrace. outside the buildings it was rather cold, and snowed sometimes. never enough to get more than a light dusting though. the city easily had 150mil residents. The beverage I have very fond memories of was a pale pink colour, mildly alcoholic, and tasted the way that clover flowers smell. it came in glass bottles that were shaped like 2 orbs sitting on top of each other, with a long swooping neck. there were ornamental braid and tastle motifs molded into the glass. also apparently it had powerful aphrodisiac effect on Abrahamic angels. Those are the main memories I have, the rest are extremely hazy, flashes of various things and folks.  sorry if i’m being a bit long winded -lays down dramatically- at the moment i can’t thing of anything else to add :p 

I took the freedom to combine all your remaining asks into one, and first of all I’d like to tell you that I enjoyed it greatly to find this much to read in my mailbox, so don’t worry about talking much.

Your home sounds incredibly interesting. I’m certain I’d have loved to visit it sometime, the Victorian era aesthetic is probably my absolute favourite one, especially since it also seems to be filled with the colours I like the most. I’m not all too fond of gigantic, crowded cities, but this would be something I’d accept in order to see such an intriguing place for once.

I’m fairly certain I was in contact with Abrahamic beings too, at least during the time I spent on Earth, all I’m saying is that the demonic realm I originated from had no connection to the place called Hell. There must be a reason why Christian imagery fascinates me so much, perhaps it’s because I was aware that there were beings, including demons, who were affected by the presence of the cross, or whose feet burned upon touching holy ground, but I vividly remember attending divine service occasionally, for the pure sake of making God and the angels see me, and see that their sheer presence could not do me harm. I’ve never, however, felt any sort of attraction towards angels. Despite all of the strongest memories of emotions I have being rather connected to wrath or pride, I’m certain that I must have still felt attraction in general, or, at the very least, had a libido that needed satisfaction occasionally, because I remember intercourse with both humans, and other demonic creatures. There was that one acolyte. Remembering him makes me smile.

Hello Laz, nice to meet you. I believe I’ve seen you around, either in the demonic tags, or in my activity, but your url definitely looks familiar.

How about you told me a little about yourself? For example, for how long have you known that you’re demonic? Do you have any clear memories of your past? Are you Abrahamic? Or whatever else you feel you’d like to share.

It’s a rather peaceful aesthetic, isn’t it? I can understand it, although it’s not quite for me. I prefer those walls without moss, but perhaps with some beginning cracks, or erosion from the weather. And I agree with you on orca whales, whales in general are rather fascinating creatures.

To be honest, I miss everything about the past I can remember. I miss my powers, and everything they brought me. I spent a considerable amount of time living among humans, in the shape of one of them, and I wish my life now could at least be similar to how it was then. I was wealthy and respected, somebody whose name you were required to know if you wanted to call yourself a member of the upper society. I am a rather vain being, and so I miss being surrounded by admirers.

Welcome back dear. My day has been pleasant, but not all too spectacular. I spent a couple hours with friends and their cats, but other than that nothing exciting happened. As usual, feel free to tell me about your day too if you wish!

Now to the asks:

Kiwi: What’s something that fascinates you?

The first thing that comes to my mind as I’m thinking of it right now would be architecture, which is likely one reason why I’m posting so much of it on my blog. I can’t even quite tell what exactly it is that is so stunning about it to me, but there is something, especially in old buildings, like Gothic cathedrals. Perhaps it’s the thought of all the work that has been invested in putting those constructions up, and the fact that the people back then did it despite not having the advanced equipment and technologies of the modern times.

Star fruit: Favorite sea creature?

I wouldn’t say that anything sparked specifically demonic feelings in me today, not much more than on any other day, but I did get the opportunity to have some food that satisfies me more than most others.