i tried to be good

i hate being alive i ruin everything just by talking

sometimes being drunk feels so good like especially listening to music it makes my head spin and its like im floating and it makes me feel so calm and happy i love it

everything is fucking collapsing and i dont feel like being alive is worth it anymore

you are so fucking strange genuinely and i dont like you dont ever talk to me again

i feel like all my internal organs are just rotting inside of me especially my brain

im perfectly fine now i c!ut myself and slammed blunt objects against my limbs so now im normal

fuck this stupid disorder and fuck this stupid life i hate borderline personality disorder im never gonna get better im always gonna feel this way and no one is ever going to care about it

IM NEVER GOING TO GET BETTER!!!!! NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY I WILL ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY AND I WILL NEVER NOT BE SICK

everything is so fucking stupid i hate myself so much why is everything like this why am i always doing bad

PAY ATTENTION TO ME SAY SOMETHING. SAY SOMETHING. WHY AM I ALONE

answer me now or im going to start hurting myself and others