i can't fucking do it.

Empty people filled with love they will never give out

Blank stares filled with tears they will never shed

Empty pages filled with words they will never say

Blank screens filled with strangers they will never be

Empty promises filled with lies they will never fulfil

A week ago I was in your car

Listening to love songs

Thinking how lucky I was 

To be there

With you

In your car

Listening to love songs 

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Last night you told me 

You want us to be just friends

We’ve never been more than friends to you

Even when we were in your car

Listening to love songs 

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So today I’m in my bed

Listening to love songs

Thinking about how lucky she will be

The next girl 

In your car

Listening to love songs

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Just once

I’d like to be the one who’s written about

I’m sick of writing poems

Sick of singing love songs

For those who will never listen

Just once

Sometimes I feel like a burden

The boring appointment on a busy schedule

Another box to cross off a long to-do list

That unread message purposely being avoided 

An update reminder popping up every day

Just because it doesn’t hurt

Doesn’t mean you’re not feeling it

I don’t know when you started confusing pain with love

It’s never the love that hurts

It’s the fear, the rejection, the insecurities

It’s the absence of love that hurts

But love doesn’t hurt

So don’t think for a second that you can’t love without feeling pain

Because love without pain is just that

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I’m trying so hard to not show you how much I really care

Maybe if you knew, you’d show me that you care too