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Him with his sister and his sisters hair, they're so sweet. Make a fic where his sister is saved from that neglectful household and goes on adventures with Mellow and they all become happy together. His brother to even, low-key I'on care about the deadbeat parents tho.. I want Mellow to be happy with his siblings tho, happy Fanart bye guys!! Please make fics!!

I suppose I'll have to submit to the fact I'll be tagging this post.. Because I'd actually like it'd to be seen. No dilly-dallying today, I need fics with the Endacopia characters, give Mellow his found family and fluff fics with the surgeon I can't remember the name of! Give the surgeon his bride!! Maybe give the bride the privilege of just being two people, and being polyanmoures, polyanmoures? Or however you spell it instead of the surgeons radical decision. Please, I need fics about these cuties so bad dude! And that one dude you dissect in the circus, he was kinda bad ngl. Anyway. I just need fics where Mellow is content and happy and gets therapy for his trauma and surgeon becomes his new awesome dad and they can be surgeons together!! Just give me angst and fluff and everything gushy and warm, make them happy, it'll make me and everyone happy! Idk how long this games been out low-key, but I just finished watching a full playthrough by the one and only.. Manlybadasshero, yes the legend, anyways. Please someone make fics, like now or yesterday or maybe tomorrow, I just need some please?? Thank you guys, uh, tell me if you find any good fics anywhere where Mellow gets his happy family and not the current only fic mentioning endacopia on ao3. For your context, it is a rape fic where a clown from endacopia is mentioned. I have read it, because there was nothing else but desperation and curiosity left in my mind. It was mediocre. Not much to remark about, that's all finally. just give me fics please or good artists to go see! Art and fics both appreciated greatly, thanks guys :P

So I was watching found family stuff on TikTok because I have characters kinda like that. It reminded me of an old gacha story I would make a few years back. It was supposed to be a BL, boys love, story where a prince runs away from his neglectful family and is rescued by his future boyfriends or smth. I don't remember it fully but I remember I intended to make the prince date someone from the group that saved him. But my favorite part of making these was the wholesome moments, it was a pretty big group of people to. The prince was saved by a small group of brothers like four of them, he was found in the snow an' shi. Y'know.. But I ended up fleshing them out so much, and making the prince get so close with them that it just ended up being a found family trope without any romance. Like he just joined the group of brothers as another brother, so now it was a group of five brothers and some friends. They eventually took over the kingdom and the rest is history. So I accidentally made a found family thing when I was trying to make romance, hip hip hooray. It just felt really weird for any of them to be in love with one another after they'd gotten so close. Like they included the prince in everything and treated him like one of their own. He ended up feeling more like a brother than anything. So everyone ended up in different relationships if one at all, I was a very inclusive child. That's all :P

I'm not sure if I spelled that right, Idealations. But anyways, I have suicidal Idealations, life is a such fucking bore. But I'm not here to whine, I'm here to explain why I haven't committed! The waste of cash. And cuz it'd probably hurt and I hate pain dude.. Past that though. Fourteen years of my parents taking care of me, so much fucking cash, if I kill myself that's so much money WASTED and I haven't even done shit with my life yet. It's so much cash, like my life isn't gonna do anything important but suicide? At least let my death be a coincidence so it feels less like a waste, so much money spent on imagine all that going to waste! Plus I haven't done anything cool yet. But that's about my only reason past yaoi and food so uh ye. Yw guys :P

I was looking at my blog and happened to think about my user, ibitemyself2, and it is from my user-username on perchance. I have like two usernames on there or whatever, which is Schizophrenic002 which was taken or smth. I don't remember, but also I use that user for a lotta things so I figured I'd use my other user for this Tumblr. Anyways main point, this current user is infact true and accurate. I like the imprint my teeth leave and stuff, lolz :P

So, we were in this room watching some mid ass movie and at the end when everyone started lining up to finally leave the class. One girl threw a piece of candy over to her friend, unfortunately the teacher noticed and ended up getting mad at me because apparently it looked like it came from my area. I didn't do it, and I knew who did it, but I wasn't a snitch so I just started crying because I didn't do it and I was terrible at controlling my emotions. The teacher didn't believe me when I said I didn't do it but also I wouldn't tell, so uh ye. The girl who threw it eventually admitted it, whether because we were friends, she felt guilty, or simply because she didn't want me to get in trouble. The teacher pulled me out of our next activity into the hall for a minute after finding out and sincerely apologized and I forgave her and the world kept spinning. Anyways that's my story ig, the girl was really nice—I kinda miss being friends with her but whatever. That's all :P

Why's ever goddamn plot I happen to enjoy, written in Chinese? Like, DUDE! I just wanna read a certain ship, why are more of them in Chinese when it's the original source is only in english? I know captions exist, it's just kinda surprising how many fics from english content are written in Chinese. AND THEY'RE FIRE. Can't even be mad, it's so well-written even with shitty Google translate, thank you guys. Yeah that's all though, maybe I'm gonna have to actually learn how to read different languages. I don't really care to speak 'em, I can barley speak english, but I sure can fuckin' read :P

I'm mildly excited for school, not for my friends, or for the bullshit they're bout'a make me do for work. But because my Papa's Bakeria save file is connected to my school email, otherwise assigned Chromebook. So I have to wait until I get back into school so I can email my personal email my Papa's Bakeria save file so I can play when summer comes around again. Should've emailed it to myself earlier, but whatever ig.. Man I miss my fuckin' game dude, I was through a hundred and some many days! I love Papa's Bakeria, I would balance my Chromebook as I walked through the school to my next class and try to speed run before my teacher made me shut my Chromebook! I was almost done with the day Wilder, please!!! But uh ye, I really liked that game and stuff. Talkin' about my english teacher, I quite liked creative writing. But I had no good friends that attended it with me, so I eventually got bored of it low-key. Saw a girl reading a controversial book in that class as-well. Don't remember the name, but I remember the guy in the book who was like the main girl chicks father or whatever low-key fucked her with a gun?? Damn weird, but hey. Not my kinda book but I'm not one to actually give a damn, you do you elfie :P

I have a few interests that I enjoy making oc's for, okay two but still. Majority is MHA oc's because I like the idea of powers! But lots of them are wayyy overpowered when I think about it, but then I remember stars and stripes exist and continue making overpowered oc's! Because that ladies power is fucking ridiculous holy shit dude :P

No this is not about pets, no this is not something kinky. Now that we've got that out of the way, it's time to explain what the title of this post means! I used to have a multitude of embarrassing memories come through my head at all hours, oh what a misery it was.. But I consume much Internet content on many things, so I knew you could just associate things with other things. I used this to my advantage by causing myself pain whenever these embarrassing thoughts would occur, now I don't think of them at all! I don't hurt myself as often when these memories flicker by, but I'll be sure to correct that because my brains starting to get a little bold. Anyways, it's quite the technique, reminds me of something a character did in a manga I read. I wouldn't go as far as he did, I don't like ice baths, and I don't feel romantic affection anyways so I wouldn't need such training. Well, that's all :P

I hate when I say I'm hungry and my parents say to go eat a snack like anything in this house is good. Oh man, we got.. crackers, protein bars, shitty fruit things, nuts. What a selection of bullshit I'on even like dude, flavours ain't even good pmo :P

I am what id consider a pretty privileged child. I've gone on like one vacation ever in my life, but over fourteen years that's pretty decent. My Father has a good job that let him get off early on school days so he could pick me and my brother up. He's the sole earner of the household and my mother stays home, she cleans and cooks and she's very nice. I love my mother dearly, I like my father ig. I have five cats, and a decent sibling who only ever talks to me at 1-3 am before we go our separate ways. We can only tell each other to kys when it's morning, I got killed hitler in school by my friends because I was born in Germany. I got Fanta at a gas station once and got lore dropped that apparently hitler had a thing for fanta so fuck me ig. Anyways, I'm a pretty privileged child, I enjoy life for the most part even if it's really boring sometimes. I don't know where this post was going, bye :P

Breathing is so weird, I remember always coming across videos on TikTok that went along the lines of, 'You realize you're breathing now,' so like it'd make people start breathing manually. But I'm always breathing manually. I feel every breathe and it feels like it goes nowhere—I'm perpetually aware of my breathing and it's been like that for nearly forever. If I don't remember to breathe, I just stop breathing in general and it's a real bother. Can't focus on anything when I gotta focus on breathing aswell, I only breathe subconsciously when I'm asleep. Is it breathe or breath? I know it's breathe, I think, but they sound so different in different connotations. Anyways, I like talking and typing, that's all :P

I feel like an addict bro, I want ramen so bad dude. I don't even want the ramen I just want the damn broth, I love boiling water and flavor packets fuckkk.. I'm so hungry dude, my chicken sandwich wasn't satiating enough. I need ramen. Anyways, I took a shot of soy sauce cause I thought it'd help and it did so ye I guess :P

I HIT MY FUCKING HEAD, I tried again and it just hurts, it's hurt so fucking bad dude, I can't even twist around from my floor spot goddamnit. What have I done to deserve this? Be ready for Pain V3 fuckkk :P