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They did not just made a Sydcarmy edit

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This specific moment is very special to me.

(1) He would very much like her to stop seeing him and knowing him and maybe worst of all telling him that she sees and knows. He literally covers his eyes because maybe that will work to block her?

(2) He also very much wants this to be about her, not him, but also about how he's leaving because he's terrible but good but terrible but good, actually he's not sure anymore. Help?

(3) He has gotten well and truly swamped by her. I don't think he could have imagined in his wildest dreams or nightmares the crashout that is happening here. (Also, he knows that the reason it's so bad is because he has in fact broken her heart multiple times, so that's a disaster, and girl is triggered.) But mostly, he very definitely did not expect her to fight him like a wild animal. Even if he was pretty sure she loved him actually (he was not very sure at all), he has never seen feral and insane Sydney before and didn't know she existed and yes of course she's hot while she's reading him for filth that's what that's for, but where did this girl pull this rage from? No one has ever been this passionate him before. Ever. And it's a lot.

these shots are definitely not real by any means, they are 100% images he’s conjuring in his own brain, same with the shots of photos and drawings he has of her, barley any scenes from the panic attack are FROM his relationship with her. to me, he’s trying to use these fake thoughts of claire to calm him down, and it isn’t working.

which is why when he finally does find something that calms him down, they are real scenes. we see syd enter his film, and when she leaves, we see her walk back into it. something notable is that these scenes, the way they are shot, could be perceived as from HIS perspective. as if carmy is looking at her. these moments he actually has with her is what brings him down.

They are like my everything I am so excited for the new season!!! Here some extras in the early stages of the illustration