Even then when my fire is banished my essence will forever

try to seek yours

-- I hope we can love again in another time, 

because my heart will always be yours

I can build myself up

or tear myself down

I am choosing to grow

I will no longer tear myself apart

by my own hands

For that is all I can do

I will no longer spend my days

feeling deathly blue

What was once my oceans of tears

Will now become my gasoline

I am roaring 

High

Can you feel me in these

dark lonely nights?

Reach out

Take my hand

You can fly with me too

Together, burning bright

Above these sad lullabies

of life

Why must I doubt it to not be sincere? 

Surely you do speak the truth;

Why would you lie?

Love cannot be faked or a character you put on your face.

Love is true,

love is wanting for you to be you

No one else can take up the space you own

Love holds a heart with all that they are

Love is to love until you are no more

It was only a moment to you

But an eternity for me

I wish I could have known sooner

That my touch was insufferable to you

I could have (tried to) let go sooner

That way you wouldn’t be left with fingernail grazes upon yourself

I didn’t want to let go, you’re the on thing I never wanted to say goodbye to

Yet, you never said goodbye--

You just left

In silence

Then an unfollow

Then delete..

Still thinking of what we could have been

A wish for a love that lasts for an eternity

A home in you and me

A comfort when times make you bleed

Shame on me for wishing us to be more than

just a fantasy

I go on

Living boldly

With love festering in every inch of my being

And a fire forever roaring bright

Caressing new passionate life into all that is upon my path

I will no longer be afraid to burn

For what can withstand my fire will not become ash

I will live on

I will live

I am alive

I will claw my way up

I will rise to the surface

I will shine bright

I will grow

Nothing will contain me

Nothing can suffocate me

For,

I am here

I am alive

You will here me

I will scream in this life

Listen or not

Nothing will silence my voice

I wish to understand why I can’t let you go

Why I can’t stop loving you so

But all my questions are left unasked

All I have left is a mask

What good would come from showing my heartache

Over our rose that didn’t grow

How could I have know you’d be a ghost

finding your way home

A home that wasn’t my heart and soul

Oh how I hurt now knowing

you’ve taken a piece of me

But you love watching my heart bleed

(If only you could see me now on the edge of an emotional pier)

I loved you through every tear and thorn

Yet you chose to only scorn

Leaving me blue(and questioning your love)

But I’m always forgiving you

Maybe that’s all I was supposed to do

I forgive you

I love you

I forgive you

I love you

and take your place in the fall

I will burn myself for you to soar

Spread your wings and you will fly

High you shall rise

Far above my ashes & short comings of life

I’ll die and life for you will shine bright

I am the passion hidden in waters of night

I can touch the missing sparks of light into sentience

So you can breathe to face the demons of your mind

I am the warmth of love

I will enwrap your being with an embrace

Put your bleeding at bay

So you too can find your strength to fight again

Till my dying day

but I won’t sit and wait here another day

I have a life to build-

And I, myself need to grow

Should you come knocking

I’ll open my arms and hold you tight

My heart will be yours 

should you choose to stay

And I’ll (still) love you in every way

It’s you who has to decide weather you wish to stay

-- Please, won’t you stop running away?

Tell the world I loved with a fire of a thousand suns

And a heart forever young

Tell of the times I fell down,

survived, and kept swinging to stay alive

I fought, I taught, I cried, I bled

and I begged

It was all worth the dread

Because I found the beauty in being alive

The simplistic things in life

It’s okay to try an’ try an’ try

Walk through your fires

Become the ash

Take a minute (to breathe again)

Lift your wings high

And please,

now fly

(but know somethings must die)