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I have a session later today and it’s the first one I am physically dreading because I know she’s just going to be like 🤦🏻‍♀️ lol.

I have already mentioned my weight loss, but I was down on the scale again this morning and it feels so exciting because I think I’ve now gotten to the stage where the changes will really start to show more significantly! I also feel so “normal” when I am out and about now. Before I would always hate anyone looking in my general direction, whereas now I don’t even think about it, just happy to be existing wherever I am.

I do need to shop for a whole new wardrobe but I have no idea what I even want to wear? I’ve always just reached for baggy items to hide my body but I don’t think I need to do that anymore. I bought this top recently that I would NEVERRRRRRRR have even looked at in the past, sleeveless and short! It has feathers around the trim which is v cute though.

Other than that I have no real updates that I think are worth sharing here atm. I will try to be more active but all I do currently is work and gym 🫠 I did get a sewing machine for Christmas though so expect updates on that whenever I decide to go on my learning journey 😅🪡🧵

For those used to working with stones and lbs that’s approximately 2 stone 2lbs and for those used to working in lbs only this is about 30/31ish lbs. 😄

I get paid tomorrow, first promotion paycheque! Excited to see how much extra money will be in there. Going to enjoy this first one and then after that it’s all just going straight into my savings.

We have gone from speaking literally every day, messages or voicenotes, to practically nothing? It seems very random as nothing happened, we haven’t had a falling out or anything. I wasn’t very communicative over Christmas etc because I’ve been very unwell. But he knew that, and didn’t contact me either really.

I have genuinely been trying for months and could never push myself back up, BUT NOW I CAN!

My weight loss has been stagnant since around June, but I’ve continued to keep my gym routine and my strength is kinda through the roof. To the stage that people don’t want to share weights with me anymore which is kinda funny. 😅

Still doing therapy too, which I am getting a lot out of, even if it’s overwhelming a lot of the time.

And I have a job interview for a promotion at work tomorrow, so that will be a nice way to move into the final month of what has been a mostly positive year for me (with some hiccups).