"You can live forever" (2022) punched me in the gut and took my breath. The lesbianism, the religious guilt, the possibilities, the star-crossed lovers, it had everything.
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"You can live forever" (2022) punched me in the gut and took my breath. The lesbianism, the religious guilt, the possibilities, the star-crossed lovers, it had everything.

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iâm really overwhelmed thinking about hudson saying âheâs never had a sexual experience (before ilya) where he wanted to be there or had even a flint of desire.â and shane feeling the lust and the shame and the carnal desire and the rejection towards ilya all at once. sitting on that locker room bench after giving ilya his room number and trying to choke it back. not just feeling the feelings but not being able to name the feelings either. not knowing where to put them. what to do with his hands. heâs so good at everything including pushing it all down. heâs not good at this and his body wonât let him push it down. never feeling a flint of desire to the flames of it swallowing him whole. if itâs bad and itâs wrong then why does ilya pushing him against that wall and kissing him for the first time feel like absolution. shane has never absolved himself of anything. what is he supposed to do with that.
In these more stoic cultures, itâs like, if I donât know you, youâre not in. But the moment you are in, I will fucking die for you. Once Shane was in, Ilya was like, âYouâre mine forever. I will do anything for you.â â Connor Storrie
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Yuna and David having watched their autistic son be so isolated all of his adult life and never having a happy relationship or close friends who understand his anxiety and then finding out that the man theyâve spent a decade hating on his behalf can casually talk him down from a panic attack in less than a minute

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he was bracing himself for bad news
Ilya: this guy is cute, I should start a stationary bike race so he knows I want to get sweaty together
Ilya: that didnât quite work. Maybe I should just give him the eye? While I tell him I hope he likes his new city?
Ilya: okay. But surely if I make him drink from my water bottle and brush his fingers when passing it over�
Ilya: call him pretty. To his face. No way he can miss that
Ilya: desperate measures, Iâll have to tell him I orchestrated this whole ad campaign just so I could see him again
Ilya: WHAT IF I STARTED JERKING OFF IN THESE COMUNAL SHOWERS?
Shane, 7 years later: I have figured out that you like me.
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yuna hollander the woman that you are.
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glinda the coded lesbian: an analysis
alright peoples!
pull up a chair and take a seat as i walk you through the deeply entrenched lesbian coding of galinda upland/glinda the good and the multiple closeting metaphors in wicked and wicked for good.
i obviously have to start this off with the literal lesbian flag poppy-field. and on the freaking title card, seriously?
there will be more on the lesbian flag color scheme in a minute, but first we must get on with the closet metaphors so⊠follow me. câmon.
closet metaphor #1: popular
(gif credit: @glindauplland)
during popularâthe song where galinda essentially tries to teach elphaba how to be successful in life by performing and abiding by the society approved terms and conditionsâgalinda removes elphieâs glasses so she can consider how she looks without them on. she stares for a momentâwith eyes full of affection and smilingâand then she abruptly shoves them back on and verbally implies that she finds elphaba unattractive.
despite, as i said, looking at elphaba with full blown heart eyes as she does so.
this is the first time, in my interpretation, that galinda finds herself becoming aware that her feelings for elphaba might go beyond just platonic or loathing. itâs also the moment i knew that arianaâs performance as glinda was going to be truly special when i first watched it in the theater, but i digress.
the shoving of elphieâs glasses back onto her face doubles as a metaphor for shoving herself into the closet. itâs here that galinda realizes she finds elphaba attractive, but the mere thought of that is so threatening to her entire life philosophy and, being the coward she is, she resorts to insults to cover for it. she must perform disgust to re-ground herself in her comforting reality of falsity and ignorance. in her bubble.
my favorite thing about the film adaptation of popularâand one of my favorite things about gelphieâs dynamic in itâis that elphaba is not annoyed or insulted by galindaâs behavior, even though she has every right to be. i mean, sheâs basically running around singing about how to change elphaba into someone sheâs not so that she can be more palatable to society. itâs the very thing that should and would normally bother elphaba, but instead⊠sheâs endeared. on one hand, i believe this is largely rooted in the fact that elphaba has never had a friend before up until this point so sheâs going to accept any kind of friendship sheâs offered, but thatâs true for all elphabaâs in any production. the decision to play elphaba as endeared by galinda during this scene is independent of that. almost like elphaba somehow knows that this is all just a dramatic performance from galinda and not a reflection of how galinda truly feels about her. and this is something that carries throughout the entire narrative. she has the same demeanor during the cat fight scene in for good, but elphaba only regains that endeared demeanor once she has successfully provoked glinda out of her Glinda the Good performance mode.
but back to popular⊠itâs only once galinda reasserts her performance of perfection and aloofness that she is able to comfortably call elphie beautiful.
(gif credit: @gracemaccaulley)
closet metaphor #2: ride to see elphie
glinda keeps the clothing items she wears when she rides feldspar to warn elphieâa black cloak, black gloves, and elphabaâs black bootsâstuffed in the back of her closet in her suite at the emerald palace.
aside from the blatant-ness of her hoarding elphieâs boots, black is the color associated with elphaba, as itâs the only color she really wears, and itâs a color glinda generally finds hideodeous, as well. it also symbolizes darkness and secrets, a contrast to the lightness of her pink, white and orange pastels.
elphaba is the only person glinda has ever had a true, deep connection with and⊠she keeps her hidden in the back of her closet.
and while weâre on the topic of glindaâs literal closet, why not bring up the fact that galinda/glindaâs color scheme is literally the lesbian flag colors.
glindaâs color scheme covers a range of pinks, whites and oranges throughout the films. lavenderâof all colorsâis the only exception.
the lesbian ozdust dress is my favorite, i canât lie.Â
and then thereâs the lavender. which we see in about four different outfits.
(gif credit: @dailyflicks)
the first time galinda meets elphaba...
(gif credit: @fadeintoyou1993 & @jackytaylor)
what is this feeling gay panic...
(gif credit: @galindathrop)
waking up from her poppy induced coma to realize elphie & fiyero are gone...
and a movie one bonus:
(gif credit: @comeinwiththerain)
the deleted scene where a jealous galinda tells elphie to pick her...
and then, of course, the lavender dress she wears for over half of the second film.
you know, the dress glinda first wears when she announces her engagement to fiyero in munchkinland before singing about how sheâs getting her âfairytale endingâ and he âcouldnât look handsomerâ and she âcouldnât be happierâ even though all of this âhappinessâ is nothing more than a performanceâŠ
and last wears when she says âi love youâ and then watches her elphie âdieâ
i honestly have no idea the thought process behind why glinda has so few outfit changes in for good, but i find it kind of fitting that sheâs stuck in that lavender dressâor an extremely basic white wedding dressâwhen sheâs performing her ultimate conformities and complicity in, not just elphabaâs suffering, but her own.Â
i also think it's interesting that each time lavender is included in an outfit of galinda's in wicked (the first one), it's during a moment where elphaba is forcing her to confront some kind of internal conflict.
their first meeting is the first time galinda comes into contact with a different life experience to her own, the first time she "doesn't get her way".
during what is this feeling, galinda is struggling with the... feelings elphaba is stirring within her.
and in the ones regarding fiyero & the cub, galinda is being confronted with the possibility that someone else can fill the role she realizes she wants to be the one to fulfill... (even though when push comes to shove she wouldn't be able to do what elphaba needed of her, and i think deep down elphaba knew that but she just didn't want to face it yet)
the entire girl in the bubble sequence is also a closet metaphor, but thereâs really nothing in it that i havenât already said.
(gif credit: @titfairy)
just the imagery of this moment: glinda, and her lavender dress, cloaked by elphieâs black and getting on feldsparâborrowing from fiyeroâs courage and braveryâas she is on her way to finally choose elphie for the first timeâŠ
glindaâs lightness (lavender) cloaked by elphieâs darkness (black) turning the narrative of lightness = good and darkness = bad on itâs head but also, glinda is wearing her own darkness, her own hidden secret, her love for elphaba on the outside. visible for the first timeâŠ
but itâs too late.
closet metaphor #3: the door scene, obviously.
(gif credit: @jackytaylor)
it essentially functions as a tragic metaphor for a self-inflicted closet that glinda becomes trapped in. up until for goodâand to a degree during and probably a period of time afterward too; the girl has shit to work throughâglinda is a coward. she hides the real parts of herself and presents to the world a version of âperfectionâ she was brought up to believe is the way to move through the world. and, i mean, it is⊠if you only care about power and prestige. which is what glinda thinks she wants throughout most of the narrative as popularity and superficial love are intertwined with glindaâs self-worth due to how she was raised. and.. it cost her.
she kept herself locked inside her own metaphorical closetâwhich in the films is more of one of her own making as homophobia either doesnât exist or is, at the least, more akin to the way things are in the U.S.âfor so long and by the time she was finally ready to face reality, it was too late. now, itâs her elphie who locks her in the closet, and glinda is forced to watch the only person sheâs ever truly loved âdieâ⊠from behind the literal closet door in part due to her own complicity in elphabaâs villainization and inability to choose elphaba the way fiyero did. the latter bit has some more complexity to it, though.
and really, i would argue that itâs during the scene where fiyero holds the gun to glindaâs head with shaking hands and terrifiedârisking his life for elphabaâthat glindaâs closet first begins to crack.
the dialogue between glinda and elphaba during the cat fight already works as a double entendre in the filmâgod bless you cynthia + ariana for your acting choices.Â
while i donât believe elphaba knows that she has romantic feelings for glinda nor that glinda has them for her, she feels betrayed by glindaâas she shouldâand her usage of âsomeone like himâ is directly referencing fiyeroâs narrative function as glindaâs mirror. in the film, the scene reads less like the two of them are fighting over fiyero himself and more like fiyero is invoked simply as a substitute for what they actually want to say to each other.
he loves me enough to choose me (you donât)
and because of the double entendre used with fiyero as a substitute for glinda herself, it would then make sense that glindaâs âhe just⊠he loves her!â could be interpreted as glindaâs first verbal admission of her romantic feelings for elphaba.Â
he loves her (i love her)
(gif credit: @reneerapps)
even more so, glindaâs reaction to elphieâs âi love youâ is one that exposes a deep repression. her eyes fall closed, her breath catches; sheâs soaking it in. like she never in a million years believed elphie would ever say those words to her, and she never thought she would ever get the chance to say them back. like she wasnât sure she even physically could.
(gif credit: @titfairy)
the character of galinda upland and glinda the good is a cautionary tale for the cost that comes with performing heterosexuality, patriarchy, and refusing to confront or accept your true desires due to a fear of the discomfort that will come with it in the most extreme sense of the concept. you lose true and authentic love because you werenât brave enough or didnât have the tools to claim it when it was needed, and sometimes, your own fear and cowardice ends with you being forced to perform for the rest of your life. never able to claim or admit that you truly loved this person more than you have loved anyone else because people wouldnât be able to handle the truth.
the closet costs you the girl; it costs you real love; it costs your authentic self. itâs an endless facade and performance that glinda brought unto herself, and ironically, itâs the very thing she believed she wanted for so long.
popularity. power. adoration.
what she thought she desired ends up being the very thing that causes her suffering because she realized what she really wantedâelphieâtoo late, and elphieâs time was up.
"It's going to be you."
Wicked (2024)
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but i know i am who i am today because i knew you

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