martyr me

I’m such a “nah I got it” and suffer in silence type of person.

I just love *clenches fist* talking about character analysis and why characters act the way they do. It’s supremely satisfying to figure out motivations of characters and see how that ties into their core nature and how they perceive the world around them.

Hey guys. I’m putting this blog on hiatus. I haven’t lost interest or anything, but there is a lot going on in my real life right now. Most pressing being that at the end of this month, I will lose my health insurance and access to treatment for the two severe mental illnesses I have (OCD and Bipolar Disorder). This is incredibly stressful for me. Without my medications, my anxiety was so bad that I couldn’t function. I couldn’t speak to people, turn on my computer, leave my house, ect… I do not qualify for disability apparently because I cannot understand how to fill it out. I am not able to get insurance under the ACA until december at least. I feel like my life is counting down to it’s last moments tbh? Because I worry that I may actually kill myself without access to treatment. This anxiety and feeling on overall defeat makes me unable to do much of anything other than sleep or play video games to escape from it. I can’t get full time at my job because it’s too emotionally damaging and toxic. I would just end up killing myself anyway. According to most people, I’m just lazy. Haha. I think my country and possibly the world just doesn’t care about people with illnesses like mine. 

Roleplayers, reblog if your blog is duplicate friendly 👥