A Chapter of My Fate

As soon as you started to lift yourself up, you started sink. The more you tried to move quickly, the faster it pulls you down. You stayed still until it stopped stirring.

You called for help and slowly reached for a wooden branch. You slowly pulled yourself up. But the branch is just a harden muck and it played your mind into thinking that it will save you.

It was dissolved and you lost your footing and flailed around the pit. You fell face-forward. Now you’re on your knees. Covered with dirt and shame and you accepted it all.

The muck on your body becomes heavy. Life gave you that cycle everyday. The muck on you dried up and it weighed double each day. Every time it rains, more muck gets on you and slaps you on the face to remind you that you failed.

You carry yourself from going beneath the pit while carrying the weight of all the memories of the days when the muck got stuck upon you.

You started to forget about the heavens. The muck thickened on your mouth that it’s useless now to call for help.

Sa wakas...

Kailangan na kitang kalimutan kasi ako nalang ang naiwan sa ating kaharian.

Hindi ko namalayan na tumakbo na pala ang oras ng ating nakaraan.

Sinisi ko pa ang sarili ko dahil baka kailangan mo lamang ng kaunting espasyo.

Hinintay kita pero iba pala ang pinupuntahan mo.

Oras lamang ang tanging hiling ko kasi buhay ko na ang winawasak ko para sayo.

Sabi mo tanga ako kasi naniwala ako sa iyong mga palusot.

Kung nagmatigas naman ako tatawagin mo akong praning at salot.

Ang hirap sa’yo madami kang alas na hawak sa akin, pero takot ka magdesisyon kung sino ang iyong pipiliin.

Napapagod kakahintay kung may matatanggap pa bang mensahe galing sa’yo.

Napapagod kakaisip kung mahalaga pa ba ako.

Minsan hindi naman ako pagod dahil sa trabaho, napapagod ako kakahintay sa tawag mo.

Not everyone that matters to you is the one for you.

Love the one who you think about every minute, not because they make you feel less alone at night.