Trauma---
So what is really Trauma? Is it because you had a poor childhood and you were on food stamps and maybe got free lunches from the school? Is that really trauma because some people got a better deck of cards then the others? Is it because your dad left and you got left with a single mom who worked 2-3 jobs to provide 1 day to the next? I guess that would be trauma because you wanted to have a mom and dad together like the other kids who ya know weren't on food stamps and paid for their lunches. Is it because you had clothes that weren't from the mall and all your other friends had nice things and name brand clothes? Is it from wanting to be something that just isn't in your favor? Does it mean that some people are just more blessed then the other? I mean we can discuss blessings... I think that Jesus made some peoples life a little easier then the other and to be honest i am one of those kids that got the shitty deck of cards.. ya know the ones you want to trade but your hand is so shitty that no one wants that deck. They often say that your experience has made you who you are and my mom always said " Well Holly someone always has it worse then you" and I never really understood that too much cause in my mind it was like uhh idk how worse it can get lol. But its true and someone's trauma has made them who they are today and you find out maybe your deck isn't as shitty as Lori's desk is because we can choose to throw away that old deck of cards and buy a new deck... if you want too of course but you could continue to play with the old deck but those shitty cards will not change until you take the first step. I mean I guess that's how i look at but people say i am a little crazy so idk.
