my celluloid scenes

are torn at the seams

all are lyrics from X's (2024) by cigarettes after sex. songs are in order. warning for drug mentions.

know when to take and when to give.

say you want it just like this.

let's get fucked up and celebrate.

i know you want it all.

baby, take it all from me.

so get in the waves.

you keep your eyes on me.

it's only the light from the closet.

and the radio's just playing soft hits.

i need that sweet life.

stay with me now, i don't wanna be lonely.

i don't wanna be the one for you.

bring your speaker and a bottle of white.

take me back into that hideaway.

they're flying those long kites.

i can see where our lives go.

i get high on every word you told me.

give me just a little more.

your love is slow.

you're all i tasted.

i'm living on pills and lines.

been sleeping on the tile.

been drinking too heavy on adderall.

i listen to the last message that you left.

gave me all you had.

summer begins with the taste of your lips.

is it all in my head?

but i don't give a shit if i'm too delicate.

when you hold me, it's always better.

and it's getting hot inside.

it's been a while since i've seen you smile.

you know it's not how it's supposed to be.

you're staying up every night.

do you wanna make it forever?

do you wanna be my only one?

now i really miss the way it was.

if you want, i would stay right here.

takes drugs to shut it out.

but now you're feeling helpless.

a mix of arguments, tension, manipulation, gossiping, fighting, & general emotional messiness!

you  weren't  supposed  to  hear  that.

don't  look  at  me  like  i'm  the  only  one  lying.

want  to  tell  them,  or  should  i?

you  think  i  don't  know  what  you  did?

i've  hit  people  for  less.

oh,  i  thought  you  already  knew.

that's  funny,  you  didn't  say  that  last  night.

say  that  again.  i  dare  you.

you  wanna  talk  about  loyalty?

no  offense,  but  if  you're  the  last  to  know,  that's  on  you.

go  ahead  -  pretend  like  it  wasn't  your  idea!

they  deserve  to  know  the  truth.

you  didn't  hear  this  from  me,  but  -

oh,  so  now  you  care?

don't  flatter  yourself.  you  were  just  convenient.

you  crossed  a  line.

we  had  bets  on  how  long  it  would  last.

it's  not  even  a  secret  anymore.

you  don't  get  to  cry  about  it  now.

touch  me  again  and  see  what  happens.

say  it  again.  louder  this  time.

you  really  thought  nobody  would  find  out?

don't  act  so  innocent.

okay,  but  am  i  the  villain  for  laughing?

tell  me  who  else  knows.  right  now.

this  whole  time,  and  you  didn't  say  a  word?

don't  act  brave  now.

you're  really  gonna  do  this  here?

it  wasn't  supposed  to  get  this  far!

you  can't  rewrite  history.

oh,  i'd  never  say  it  to  their  faces.

it  was  supposed  to  stay  between  us.

we're  all  thinking  it,  i  just  said  it.

you're  not  as  untouchable  as  you  act.

do  you  even  feel  guilty?

they  warned  me  about  you.

go  ahead,  make  it  worse.

if  you  repeat  this,  i'll  deny  everything.

the  next  thing  out  of  your  mouth  better  be  an  apology.

you're  about  three  seconds  away  from  regretting  this.

you  keep  pushing,  and  i'll  push  you  back.

they're  going  to  find  out.

one  more  lie,  and  i  walk.

they're  lying  to  you.

you  need  to  back  off.  now.

you're  defending  them?  after  everything?

don't  try  to  hide  it.

tell  me,  was  i  just  a  placeholder?

you  really  think  sorry  fixes  this?

there's  nothing  left  to  say.

don't  act  like  you're  the  one  hurting.

i  don't  owe  you  any  explanation.

whatever  helps  you  sleep  at  night.

you  should've  seen  this  coming.

i  hope  it  was  worth  it.

i  told  the  truth.  just  not  all  of  it.

you'll  miss  me  before  i  miss  you.

smile.  you're  ruining  the  mood.

i'd  watch  that  tone  if  i  were  you.

it's  not  my  fault  you  believed  me.

you  have  such  a  talent  for  pretending  you're  innocent.

we  both  know  this  is  over.

i  never  said  i  was  a  good  person.