always and forever hudcon down baby <3

shenanigans don't phase me, they never have. some of us have been years in the trenches of the worst fandoms. in 37 days something happened that a team, a history of "dynamics", and years of being kept small could not stop. imagine what months will do. the snowball be snowballing, and literally nobody can stop it.

Glad to see him showing his hand I guess? I was optimistic, but I’ve also had a sneaking suspicion that I’d be putting on some clown makeup again. Every time I think, “surely we’re moving on now?” there he goes lol.

Paris was a disaster. For whatever reason, this keeps the lights on in the circus. I have a few theories I’m quietly considering. But at this time I’ll invite you all to sit with your own ideas for a bit.

I still feel that he’s leaving. I’m not convinced away from that. We all saw what we saw. There’s something very rotten here with this “couple”.

I have advised you guys to brace for various possibilities. Even though I get anxiety sent my way, and scolded at every time. So I’m not going to answer any direct questions, apart from my usual conversations. I’m irritated and sitting in Observation mode.

Maybe he does like her. Maybe he tolerates her. Maybe he’s trying to pretend that he loves her for some big reason we don’t know. Maybe they are a “couple” for right now, for whatever fucking reason. I don’t know their agreement, I don’t live in their walls.

None of the above negates hudcon, in my view. Even if the actual nightmare is happening, and he’s genuinely trying to “date” FM4 at this time in the Shane and Rose of it all, I cannot be convinced he does not wake up every single day loving Connor.

To put it bluntly - We know about their secret visits. We know their feelings. We know their continued importance to each other.

Nothing I’m seeing here negates what we have seen, and continue to see with the actual love story in his life. So I’m going to sit back, observe and continue to wait for this shit to blow over. If they’re real in any sense, it sucks and it will collapse. If this is just damage control for what’s coming, well played. Either way I’m fatigued so I’m going to take a step back and let him do whatever shit he wants for right now.

🙈🙊🙉