i’m the one.

“ what have we done to each other? “

“ if you don’t talk, i’ll fill silence with: an excruciating story by ____. “

“ i’m so crazy, stupid happy. i met a boy. “

“ i prefer men who are funny, not ‘funny’. “

“ so tell me, ____. who are you? “

“ you know i have to kiss you now. “

“ i’m not someone who hits the panic button but—it’s weird, right? “

“ perfect, time for a quick tour of my failings. “

“ i love having strangers pick at my scabs. “

“ you surprise me. you challenge me. “

“ i go there for the quiet. “

“ everyone told me—and told me and told me—marriage is hard work. “

“ sometimes i want to punch us in the face we’re so cute. “

“ i feel sick. it’s just so bizarre. this is exactly the kind of thing that would happen to ____. “

“ i’ve sworn to never be one those wives. i think i’ve done a good job. “

“ let’s swear we will never be like them. “

“ we have each-other—everything else is background noise. “

“ ____, i don’t get it. it’s like you’re daring me to be someone i don’t want to be. “

“ that’s very sweet of you and very unnecessary. “

“ everyone is studying me, everyone is projecting their bullshit onto me. “

“ i’m going to go benadryl myself to sleep. “

“ you’re happy to be home, but i don’t know if you’re happy i’m with you. “

“ i feel like something you loaded by mistake. something to be jettisoned if necessary. something disposable. “

“ i feel like i could disappear. “

“ can you at least say you love me? “

“ i love you. but, sweetheart, we have to be real careful right now. “

“ i don’t want to fight. i just want to be with you. that’s all. “

“ i went from desperate to pathetic. i became someone i don’t even like. “

“ you’re really just going to walk out now? you are such a coward. “

“ we can’t go on like this. i won’t. “

“ promise me we’ll talk every day from now on. no matter what. “

“ you’ve been lying to me for over a year. “

“ i was so scared for you before. now… i’m fucking petrified. “

“ for valentine’s day, i thought i’d buy a gun. that’s how crazy i’ve become. “

“iI’d have to tell them the truth. and i don’t even know if i believe the truth. “

“ can i really think ____ would hurt me? i’m being paranoid. crazy. “

“ you have to fucking talk to me! “

“ i just don’t believe you anymore. “

“ ____, why have you kept this stuff? it’s like a little box of hate. “

“ i’m not going to be scared anymore. “

“ i’m so much happier now that i’m dead. “

“ you took my pride and my dignity and my hope and my money. you took and took from me until i no longer existed. that’s murder. “

“ you loved a girl i was pretending to be. “

“ i will admit: for someone who likes to win, it’s tempting to be the girl every guy wants. “

“ i made you smarter, sharper. i inspired you to rise to my level. i forged the man of my dreams. “

“ we were happy pretending to be other people. we were the happiest couple i knew. “

“ you actually expected me to love you unconditionally. “

“ you think i would let you/____ destroy me and end up happier than ever? no fucking way. you/____ doesn’t get to win. “

“ you need to learn. grown-ups work for things. grown-ups pay. grown-ups suffer consequences. “

“ i don’t know how decent i feel. “

“ that’s the most disgusting thing i’ve ever heard. “

“ sure i believe you! it’s just the craziest thing i’ve ever heard. “

“ you’re reading it again? you know how it ends. “

“ ever heard that phrase, ____: the simplest answer is often correct? “

“ knowing you were out there was the only thing that’s kept me going these past few years. “

“ why are you so good to me? “

“ why is it that when i need someone to save me, i always think of you? “

“ come. you’re staring at ghosts. “

“ ____ brings out the best in me. “

“ you are so good to me. and i am so exhausted. “

“ i’m so happy you’re here. and i don’t want you to worry for one moment. “

“ you’ll be very safe. i won’t let you get away again. “

“ you scared me. don’t do that. i need to feel safe. “

“ come home, ____. i dare you. “

“ stay with me. i don’t want you to go away/ “

“ you fucking bitch. “

“ stop pretending. “

“ i’m not pretending. you were perfect. “

“ you’re a murderer, ____. “

“ i’m a fighter. i fought my way back to you. “

“ you begged for me to save your life on national tv. and i obliged. “

“ if two people love each-other and can’t make it work, that’s the real tragedy. “

“ remember: don’t turn your back. “

“ i’d never hurt you. i do need you to participate though. that’s fair, right? “

“ you can’t make me raise a child with you, ____. i don’t love you. “

“ we are toxic. we complete each-other in the sickest possible way. “

“ you think you could ever be happy with a nice, normal woman? no, * baby. i’m it. i complete you. i’m the only one who can. “

“ i’ve killed for you. “

“ you’re breaking my heart. “

“ i was with you before you were even born. “

taylor swift // red (taylor’s version) from the vaults edition rp meme.

edit/alter/change pronouns etc as you see fit!

ronan.

i remember your little laugh.

i love you to the moon and back.

i remember your blue eyes looking into mine.

i can still feel you hold my hand.

you fought it hard like an army guy.

come on, baby, with me, we’re gonna fly away from here.

you were my best four years.

blind hope turned to crying and screaming ‘why?’

no one knows what to say.

it’s about to be halloween.

you could be anything you wanted if you were still here.

i remember the last day.

what if i’m standing in your closet trying to talk to you?

what if i kept the hand-me-downs you won’t grow into?

what if i really thought some miracle would see us through?

what if the miracle was even getting one moment with you?

better man.

i know i’m probably better off on my own.

i see the permanent damage you did to me.

i just wish i could forget when it was magic.

i wish it wasn’t 4am.

you know you had to do it.

i know the bravest thing i ever did was run.

sometimes, in the middle of the night, i can feel you again.

i just miss you.

i just wish you were a better man.

i know why we had to say goodbye.

i know i’m probably better of all alone.

it was always on your terms.

i waited on every careless word.

your jealousy, oh, i can hear it now.

talking down to me like i’d always be around.

push my love away like it was some kind of loaded gun.

you never thought i’d run.

i hold onto this pride because these days it’s all i have.

i have to you my best and we both know you can’t say that.

i wonder what we would’ve become.

we might still be in love.

nothing new.

they hunt and slay.

criticize the way you fly.

looks like she’s been through it.

what will become of me?

what will become of me once i’ve lost my novelty?

i’ve had too much to drink tonight.

i know it’s sad, but this is what i think about.

it’s like i can feel time moving.

how can a person know everything at eighteen, but nothing at twenty-two?

will you still want me when i’m nothing new?

how long will it be cute?

you can’t blame it on my youth.

my cheeks are growing tired from turning red and faking smiles.

are we only biding time till i lose your attention?

it’s a fever dream.

babe.

what about your promises?

didn’t wanna be the one that got away?

you broke the sweetest promise.

you broke the sweetest promise that you never should have made.

you call, but i won’t hear it.

how could you do this?

you said 'no one else.’

you really blew this.

we ain’t getting through this one.

this is the last time i’ll ever call you.

it’s strange how your face doesn’t look so innocent.

your secret has its consequences.

that’s on you.

i break down every time you call.

we’re a wreck.

we’re a wreck, you’re the wrecking ball.

her lips on your neck, i can’t unsee.

i can’t love you.

message in a bottle.

i know that you like me, and it’s kinda frightening.

i know that you like me.

i became hypnotized by freckles and bright eyes.

you’re so far away.

i’m reaching for you.

i’m reaching for you, terrified.

you could be the one that i love.

i could be the one that you dream of.

a message in a bottle is all i can do, standing here, hoping it gets to you.

you could be the one that i keep.

i could be the reason you can’t sleep at night.

these days i’m restless.

workdays are endless.

look how you made me.

time moves faster.

i bet you think about me.

i’ll bet you’re just fine.

the girl in your best has a fine pedigree.

i’ll bet your friends tell you she’s better than me.

i tried to fit in with your upper-crust circles.

they let me sit back when we were in love.

they sit around talking about the meaning of life.

we’re done and it’s over.

i bet you couldn’t believe when you realised i’m harder to forget than i was to leave.

i’m harder to forget than i was to leave.

i bet you think about me.

you can’t help who you fall for.

you said we’re too different.

you laughed at my dreams, rolled your eyes at my jokes.

do you have all the space that you need?

i don’t have to be your shrink to know that you’ll never be happy.

the love that you’re looking for is the love that you had.

last time you felt free was when none of that shit mattered.

you were with me.

forever winter.

why fall in love, just so you can watch it go away?

he spends most of his nights wishing it was how it used to be.

it’s not just a phase i’m in.

my voice comes out begging.

all this time i didn’t know you were breaking down.

i’d fall to pieces on the floor if you weren’t around.

too young to know it gets better.

i’ll be summer sun for you forever.

i’ll be summer sun for you forever, forever winter if you go.

he seems fine most of the time.

his laugh is a symphony.

when the lights go out, it’s hard to breathe.

i pull at every thread trying to solve the puzzles in his head.

live my life scared to death he’ll decide to leave instead.

my voice comes out screaming.

i’d take that bomb in your head and disarm it.

i’d say i love you even at your darkest.

please don’t go.

believe in one thing: i won’t go away.

i don’t go away.

run.

we shouldn’t be in this town.

i’d drive away before i let you go.

give me a reason and don’t say no.

i’ll wait for you.

darling, let’s run, run from it all.

we can go where our eyes can take us.

go where no one else is.

i’ll sing like no one cares.

i could see this view a hundred times.

since i gave it to you, there’s a heart on your sleeve.

there’s been this hole in my heart.

this thing was a shot in the dark.

say you’ll never let 'em tear us apart.

i’ll hold onto you while we run.

the very first night.

i wish i could fly.

i wish i could fly. i’d pick you up and we’d go back in time.

i miss you like it was the very first night.

i don’t seem brokenhearted.

my friends say they know everything i’m going through.

i drive down different roads, but they all lead back to you.

they weren’t riding in the car when we both fell.

they don’t know how much i miss you.

we never saw it coming.

not trying to fall in love, but we did.

we didn’t know we were built to fall apart.

we were built to fall apart.

we broke each other’s hearts.

don’t forget about the night out in LA.

no one knows about the words that we whispered.

take me away.

take me away to you.

do you know how much i miss you?

i wish that we could go back in time.

all too well (10 minute version)

something about it felt like home somehow.

i left my scarf there.

you’ve still got it in your drawer, even now.

your sweet disposition and my wide eyed gaze.

we’re singing in the car, getting lost upstate.

autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place.

i can picture it after all these days.

i know it’s long gone.

the magic’s not here no more.

i might be okay but i’m not fine at all.

i’m not fine at all.

i remember it all too well.

you tell me bout your past, thinking your future was me.

fuck the patriarchy.

we were always skipping town.

any time now, he’s gonna say it’s love.

you never called it what it was.

you never called it what it was till we were dead and gone and buried.

after three months in the grave.

all i felt was shame.

you held my lifeless frame.

i forget about you long enough to forget why i needed to.

coz there were are again in the middle of the night.

nobody had to know.

you kept me like a secret, but i kept you like an oath.

you kept me like a secret.

i kept you like an oath.

we’d swear to remember it all too well.

maybe we got lost in translation.

maybe i asked for too much.

maybe this thing was a masterpiece till you torn it all up.

running scared, i was there.

you call me up again just to break me like a promise.

so casually cruel in the name of being honest.

i’m a crumbled up piece of paper lying here.

they say all’s well that ends well.

but i’m in a new hell every time you double-cross my mind.

i’m in a new hell.

you said if we had been closer in age maybe it would have been fine.

that made me want to die.

the idea you had of me, who was she?

a never needing, ever lovely jewel whose shine reflects on you.

you, that’s what happened.

it’s supposed to be fun, turning twenty-one.

time won’t fly, it’s like i’m paralyzed by it.

i’d like to be my old self again.

i’d like to be my old self again, but i’m still trying to find it.

i walk home alone.

it reminds you of innocence.

you can’t get rid of it.

it was rare, i was there.

i was never good at telling jokes, but the punch line goes: i’ll get older but your loves stay my age.

i’m a soldier who’s returning half her weight.

did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?

just between us, did the love affair maim you too?

did the love affair maim you too?

i still remember the first fall of snow.

THE 1

i’m doing good, i’m on some new shit

and if you wanted me, you really should’ve showed

but we were something, don’t you think so?

and if my wishes came true, it would’ve been you

in my defence, i have none

but it would’ve been fun if you would’ve been the one

if one thing had been different, would everything be different today

CARDIGAN

when you are young they assume you know nothing

i knew you

baby kiss it better

you put me on and said i was your favourite

a friend to all is a friend to none

chase two girls, lose the one

you drew stars around my scars

but now i’m bleeding

tried to change the ending

i knew you’d haunt all of my what-ifs

cause i knew everything when i was young

and i knew you’d come back to me

THE LAST GREAT AMERICAN DYNASTY

how did a middle class divorcée do it?

there’s only so far new money goes

their parties were tasteful, if a little loud

there goes the last great american dynasty

who knows, if she never showed up what could’ve been

she had a marvellous time ruining everything

there goes the most shameless woman this town has ever seen

she stole his dog and dyed it key lime green

i had a marvellous time ruining everything

EXILE

i can see you standin’ honey

and it took you five whole minutes to pack us up and leave me with it

i think i’ve seen this film before

you’re not my homeland anymore

now i’m in exile seein’ you out

i can see you starin’ honey

like you’d get your knuckles bloody for me

those eyes add insult to injury

i’m not your problem anymore

so who am i offending now?

we always walked a very thin line

you didn’t even hear me out

i never learned to read your mind

MY TEARS RICOCHET

even on my worst day, did i deserve babe, all the hell you gave me?

i swear i loved you

i didn’t have it in myself to go with grace

and if i’m dead to you, why are you at the wake?

you know i didn’t want to have to haunt you

cause when i’d fight, you used to tell me i was brave

and i can go anywhere i want, just not home

you had to kill me, but it killed you just the same

you turned into your worst fears

MIRRORBALL

and when i break, it’s in a million pieces

hush

you’ll find me on my tallest tiptoes spinning in my highest heels

i know they said the end is near

i can change everything about me to fit in

i’m still trying everything to get you laughing at me

i’m still a believer but i don’t know why

SEVEN

please picture me in the trees

i was too scared to jump in

are there still beautiful things?

cross your heart, won’t tell no other

and thought i can’t recall your face, i still got love for you

love you to the moon and to saturn

and i’ve been meaning to tell you

i think your house is haunted

i used to scream ferociously

AUGUST

i never needed anything more

are you sure?

never have i ever before

cause it was never mine

and i can see us twisted in bedsheets

cause you were never mine

i remember thinking i had you

wanting was enough

for me, it was enough

so much for summer love, and saying “us”

cause you weren’t mine to lose

THIS IS ME TRYING

i’ve been having a hard time adjusting

i didn’t know if you’d care if i came back

i have a lot of regrets about that

and maybe i don’t quite know what to say

i just wanted you to know that this is me trying

they told me all of my cages were mental

so i got wasted like all my potential

i was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere

but i didn’t pour the whiskey

at least i’m trying

it’s hard to be anywhere these days

ILLICIT AFFAIRS

make sure nobody sees you leave

tell your friends you’re out for a run

take the road less travelled by

and that’s the thing about illicit affairs

like you don’t even exist

but they lie, and they lie, and they lie, a million little times

don’t call me kid

don’t call me baby

look at this godforsaken mess that you made me

for you, i would ruin myself

INVISIBLE STRING

i used to think i would meet somebody there

were there clues i didn’t see?

all along, there was some invisible string tying you to me

you ate at my favourite spot for dinner

something wrapped all of my past mistakes in barbed wire

one single thread of gold tied me to you

hell was the journey but it brought me heaven

MAD WOMAN

what did you think i’d say to that?

what do you sing on your drive home?

every time you call me crazy, i get more crazy

and when you say i seem angry, i get more angry

what a shame, she went mad

no one likes a mad woman

you made her like that

it’s obvious that wanting me dead has really brought you two together

cause you took everything from me

the master of spin has a couple side flings

good wives always know

EPIPHANY

just a flesh wound

___, i think he’s bleedin’ out

something med school did not cover

doc, i think she’s crashin’ out

and some things you just can’t speak about

to make some sense of what you’ve seen

BETTY

but i think it’s cause of me

it’s like i couldn’t breathe

you can’t believe a word she says

the worst thing that i ever did was what i did to you

would you have me?

would you want me?

would you tell me to go straight to hell?

i’m only seventeen, i don’t know anything

but i know i miss you

just thinking of you

i dreamt of you all summer long

the only thing i wanna do is make it up to you

PEACE

i never had the courage of my convictions

as long as danger is near

but i would die for you in secret

the devil’s in the details

but you got a friend in me

your integrity makes me seem small

and you know that i’d swing with you for the fences

and you know that i’d sit with you in the trenches

and you know that i’d give you my wild

and you know that i’d give you my child

is it enough?

all these people think love’s for show

would it be enough if i could never give you peace?

HOAX

this has broken me down

stood on the cliffside screaming “give me a reason”

your faithless love’s the only hoax i believe in

don’t want no other shade of blue but you

i am ash from your fire

you know i left a part of me back in new york

you knew the hero died, so what’s the movie for

you knew it still hurts underneath my scares

you knew you won, so what’s the point of keeping score?

darling, this was just as hard

you have beaten my heart

THE  RICH  NEVER  HANG,   ——   ONLY  THE  POOR  &  FRIENDLESS.