ethel cain // preachers daughter rp meme.
edit/alter/change pronouns etc as you see fit! Â trigger warnings for abuse, horror, cannibalism, sexual abuse and more bc this albums got dark themes ok click here for prequel album meme: willoughby tucker, i will always love you.
family tree (intro).
these crosses all over my body remind me of who i used to be.
forgive these bones i'm hiding.
jesus can always reject his father but he cannot escape his mother's blood.
he'll scream & try to wash it off of his fingers.
he'll never escape what he's made up of.
the fates already fucked me sideways.
i'm swinging by my neck from the family tree.
you know i raised you better than this.
they can all laugh at me.
american teenager.
grew up under the yellow light on the street putting too much faith in the make-believe.
the neighbour's brother came home in a box.
he wanted to go.
maybe it was his fault.
i feel it there in the middle of the night.
i feel it there in the middle of the night when the lights go out & i'm all alone again.
i'm all alone again.
say what you want.
say it like you mean it.
say what you want, but say it like you mean it.
say what you want, but say it like you mean it; with your fists for once.
just give it one more day.
i do what i want.
i do what i want, crying in the bleachers & i said it was fun.
i said it was fun.
i don't need anything from anyone.
it's just not my year.
i'm all good out here.
it's just not my year, but i'm all good out here.
i'm sorry if i seemed off.
i'm sorry if i seemed off, but i was probably wasted.
i was probably wasted.
i didn't feel so good.
a life full of whiskey, but i always deliver.
jesus, if you're listening, let me handle my liquor.
jesus, if you're there, why do i feel alone in this room?
if you're there, why do i feel alone in this room?
why do i feel alone?
i feel alone.
i'm still standing here.
i'm doing what i want & damn i'm doing it well.
i'm doing what i want & damn i'm doing it well for me.
a house in nebraska.
the aching sound of silence used to be our favourite song.
you & me, against the world.
you & me against the world, you were my man & i your girl.
we had nothing, except each other.
you were my whole world.
you were my whole world, but then the day came & you were up & gone.
i still call home that house in nebraska.
we found each other.
the world was empty.
the world was empty, save you & i.
you came & i laughed; and you left & i cried.
you left & i cried.
you told me even if we died tonight, that i'd die yours.
i'd die yours.
your mama calls me sometimes to see if i'm doing well.
i lie to her & say that i'm doing fine.
i'd kill myself to hold you one more time.
it hurts to miss you.
it hurts to miss you but it's worse to know that i'm the reason you won't come home.
i'm the reason you won't come home.
i still wait.
i still wait at the edge of town, praying to god that maybe you'll come back around.
you'll come back around.
i cry every day.
i cry every day & the bottles make it worse.
you were the only one i was never scared to tell i hurt.
i found photographs of our school, on the day we met.
i found photographs of our school, on the day we met; i thought that you were so beautiful.
you were so beautiful.
it was love.
it was love, i guess.
you might never come back home & i may never sleep at night.
you might never come back home.
i may never sleep at night.
i just hope you're doing fine out there.
i just pray that you're all right.
i feel so alone.
i feel so alone out here.
i feel so alone out here without you.
i'm alone.
western nights.
he's never looked more beautiful.
i watched him show his love through shades of black & blue.
show me how much i mean to you.
i'd hold the gun if you asked me to.
if you love me like you say you do, would you ask me to?
ask me to.
trouble's always gonna find you baby.
trouble's always gonna find you baby, but so will i.
i'm never gonna leave you baby.
i'm never gonna leave you, baby. even if you lose what's left of your mind.
you know i'll be right there beside you.
i'll be right there beside you.
i haven't spoken to my daddy in a long, long time.
i don't want him to worry.
the neighbourhood keeps getting smaller.
you'll die there.
i should have known that there's no getting in.
i'll still be alright.
i'll still be alright, clinging onto you like some love blind addict.
i'll be screaming your name.
please don't love how i need you.
one day, you and i could be ok.
family tree.
these crosses all over my body remind me of who i used to be.
i give myself up to him in offering.
i'm just a child but i'm not above violence.
i'm not above violence.
my mamma raised me better than that.
that man demands his silence.
don't look back.
shoot first, then run & don't look back.
take me down to the river & bathe me clean.
i'll let you wash all over me.
i've killed before & i'll kill again.
take the noose off, wrap it tight around my hand.
heaven hath no fury like a woman scored.
hell don't scare me.
hell don't scare me, i've been times before.
let christ forgive these bones i've been hiding.
hard times.
nine, going on eighteen.
tell me a story.
you're still the good guy.
i'll make pretend.
i hate this story.
happiness ends & dies with you.
i thought good guys get to be happy.
i'm not happy.
i thought good guys get to be happy— i'm not happy.
i am poison in the water.
little girl who needs her daddy real bad.
you watched me.
i was too young.
i was too young to notice that some types of love could be bad.
some types of love could be bad.
i was praying i'd be like you.
that scares me.
i'm tired of you, still tied to me.
too tired to move, too tired to leave.
i just wanna sleep.
it's just the way that you are.
please, can i sleep?
thoroughfare.
you fell in love.
i met you there.
i didn't trust no one, but you.
i'll take you anywhere.
do you wanna see the west with me?
love's out there and i can't leave it be.
love's never meant much to me.
i'll come with you if you're sure it's what you need.
i'll come with you.
i started to see you differently.
for the first time since i was a child, i could see a man who wasn't angry.
no one left to leave & no one left to love.
now that i met you, i finally know just where i'm heading.
we found heaven in time.
you got lost in it & yet you found yourself.
i didn't find my love, but i still made it this far without it.
look at what i've got.
you might not be my love, but baby, i doubt it.
gibson girl.
you wanna love me right now.
you wanna get alone with me.
you wanna get my clothes off.
you wanna get my clothes off & hurt me.
you came alone.
you're all the same.
he's cold-blooded so it takes more time to bleed.
obsession with the money & addicted to drugs.
says he's in love with my body, that's why he's fucking it up.
baby, if it feels good then it can't be bad.
i can be immoral in a stranger's lap.
they all want that only you can have.
you wanna fuck me right now.
you wanna see me on my knees.
if you hate me, please don't tell me.
ptolemaea.
i was with you there.
you love blood too much.
you love blood too much, but not like i do.
heard you, saw you, felt you, gave you, need you, love you.
you'd do well to say yes to me.
suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee.
i'm the one.
he's gonna take me.
i'm on fire.
i'm the white light; beautiful, finite.
even the iron still fears the rot.
i'm hiding from something i cannot stop.
i can't lead him back.
daddy's left & mama won't come home.
you poor thing.
you poor thing, sweet mourning lamb.
there's nothing you can do, it's already been done.
what fear a man like you brings.
please don't look at me.
i can see it in your eyes.
he keeps looking at me.
tell me, what have you done?
make it stop.
make it stop, i've had enough.
i am the face of love's rage.
blessed be the daughters.
bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers.
blessed be their whore mothers; tired & angry, waiting with bated breath.
blessed be the children, each & every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence.
blessed be you, girl, promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred & contempt towards you.
i am no good nor evil, simply i am.
i have come to take what is mine.
i was there in the dark.
i was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood.
i am here now.
i am here now as you run from me still.
run then, child.
you can't hide from me forever.
sun bleached flies.
sun bleached flies sitting in the windowsill, waiting for the day they escape.
they're waiting for the day they escape.
they talk about that money & how their babies are always changing.
what i wouldn't give to be in church this sunday.
god loves you, but not enough to save you.
good luck taking care of yourself.
if they strike once then you just hit 'em twice as hard.
in the end, if i bend under the weight that they gave me, then this heart would break & fall twice as hard.
this heart would break & fall twice as hard.
we all know how it goes.
the more it hurts, the less it shows.
i still feel lke they all know.
that's why i can never go back home.
i can never go back home.
i spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines.
god, i've tried.
i think it's about time i put up a fight.
i always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me.
no one was coming to save me.
i keep praying.
if it's meant to be then it will be.
i met him there & told him i believe.
i forgive it all as it comes back to me.
i can't let go.
i can't let go when something's broken.
i can't let go when something's broken, it's all i know & it's all i want now.
it's all i know.
it's all i want now.
strangers.
there is death for all of us.
there is a better place for those who believe.
in your basement, i grow cold.
don't talk to strangers or you might fall in love.
freezer bride, your sweet divine.
you devour like smoke bovine hide.
i never considered myself tough.
you're so handsome walking over to me now.
i tried to be good.
i tried to be good, am i no good?
am i no good?
my memory restricted to a polaroid in evidence.
i just wanted to be yours.
can i be yours?
just tell me i'm yours.
i'm turning in your stomach and i'm making you feel sick.
she'll cry & wait up for me.
we'll make love in your attic all night.
euphoric in some strange delight.
i'm happier here.
i'm happier here coz he told me i should be.
you're so handsome when i'm all over your mouth.
am i making you feel sick?
found you just to tell you that i made it real far.
i never blamed you.
i never blamed you for loving me the way that you did.
you were torn apart.
i would still wait with you there.
don't think about it too hard.
you'll never sleep a wink at night again.
don't worry about me.
just know that i love you.
i'll see you when you get here.















